“Spirit moves on the waters
Takes the shape of heavenly daughters” – Sting, Sacred Love
Literary biographies are often sketchy about the roles that families play in the lives of writers. It is my hope to provide information here which helps bolster our the views of critics to see how influential my family were and are in my life and to read their influence well into my literary works. For example, my retired mum stays at home and spends her afternoons surfing the web and keeping up with current affairs. She also runs a blog on the Daily Mail called Tony Gordon after Tony Blair and Gordon Brown and I recall her setting it up when the Iraq war was political capital. She has been instrumental in keeping me grounded and was with me every day after my hospitalisation and visited me in hospital. Mr brother kept his fear of psychiatric processes from Scientology and did not visit me or even bring up my mental health but continued to love me unconditionally as the Unicorn I have come to see him as. My mum would take me out for coffee and we would go to the cinema regularly in Rubery and go to towns and enjoyed shopping at Debenhams. Now I am having refresher driving lessons and working Mon-Fri and she came with me to every Drs appointment to keep an eye on the NHS who she used to work for and I am rehabilitated and much better following my nervous breakdown with Krishna where Durga told me to see Mahabharata around me and with the relatives plotting to turn me into an evil Guru and ship me off to India. Talking is cheap and the culture of talking in the UK is a strain on the mind that is why I like my job which helps me to talk to people on the phone and answer their queries while also carrying on with my balancing on Daoist terms and learning more about myself as a healer as days turn into weeks and months.
I recall that I don’t tread on Islamic turf. I used to be Shantideva and I lived in the 700s as a Buddhist monk in Asia. This is the same time that the Prophet Muhammed is said to have lived. He never wrote the Quran and I am not reading it without a teacher and some backing. I don’t purport to know much about Sufism in spite of writing a couple of Sufi poetry books which Amazon now own and I can’t get published. They witheld payment of royalties and waited for me to trasngress their marketing rights as celebrities started to interact with me (Jon Bon Jovi, Natalie Portman, Patrick Stewart) and then cancelled my contract and I lost about 50 books online. This reminds me of how central a text is to Islam and when I went to pick the Quran up and the first verse I read was “fear the devil” so I put it back. I have a couple of copies but I am not reading them being so stressed and am waiting to meet someone who teaches me how to read it properly. That could be time or death and I embark on the project when my working life cools down and I start driving and save a couple of hours on the buses. Presently I leave home at 6.15 and get back at about 7.45 Driving to work should cut the travelling down and driving is going well. I’ve had some refresher lessons and been out in the family car with my mum and things look good. I have seen Allah who reminded me that ISKCON is a modern cult and it erodes faith to see so many books and such a start up enterprise with so many temples around the world following Srila Prabhupada’s teachings. There was a story about a town in India not experiencing rainfall and then the chanted Hare Krishna and there was rainfall. This is how I see it. They are Gods, not academic exercises and I pray every day in the mornings and sometimes chanting Hare Krishna to be obedient and do my bit so that my conscience is clear during the day. Questions of consciousness get irritating and are led by Dr Deepak Chopra ruling the internet and not slowing down to use the TV so we can mainstream spiritual things and get some decent TV like the Americans have. That would settle Drs down if they could watch esoteric TV and put their questioning to the tests and have something in common to share with others rather than be in an ivory tower all the time managing other peoples feelings and lives. Islam could contribute with its magical realms in time if things calm down and there is healing of the nations as too much TV has brought down empires and left David Cameron bereft of political capital after he tried too many things with Carlton TV. He was barely on the TV and now there is a mess called social media they are offloading to the children rather than face massive corporate giants who bat louder than their bite and do their work in spite of political rulers. Social media was in Arab Springs and the way Muslims use it is quieter than the west and they don’t have dirty TV and sex mania behind them in a corrupt TV culture that is scapegoating religion to abuse spirituality and cause ill health and stress around the world.
Is it time for India to label webpages Shree Webpage to explain the karma attached to them like with books?
I have been craving meat a lot.
When we were young me and my brother had teddy bears. They were little monkeys and one of them was called Henry. We had a family friend of our mother who would visit her at Cradley Heath market called Evelyn Crizzle and she would knit us teddy bears – the conventional ones you see in market places. When I was in junior school I visited Evelyn at her care home in Northfield at the Baptist Church and she helped me make a clown teddy bear for a school competition. We knitted it together and I won first place. The next year she helped me make a Santa teddy bear but the school teacher did not let me win because he deemed I had received extra help.
I am the 15th Dalai Lama of Tibet. By the time he incarnates this blog will serve as a memory of his life and work with the 14th Dalai Lama of Tibet. This statement is a program rather than a statement of qualities of competence.
I am Prema Sai Avatar. The same applies here too. Here Sathya Sai Baba said that we were all avatars, incarnations of God and that he would manifest a third avatar and that this was nothing for me to do for him and that he would create peace on earth via a third virtual avatar from Prashanti Nilyam.
I hope to assist in explorations and considerations of meditation after the collapse of EnlightenNext and abandonment of Mind Body Spirit books so that leaders can see how perspective is affective and why they seem the way they do. Poetry can be illuminating but takes a long time to work and change human character. The illusions of mind body spirit writers was to dominate the internet with promises of quick fixes and enlightenment and immediate change in areas such as personality and growth such as Tony Robbins where the Human Potential Movement was ignored in British Universities and by politicians and monarchs alike who did not benefit from Evolutionary Enlightenment with shit going on in Africa and India to busy their colonial selves. They are left with spirituality from America and the promise of perfection and personal enlightenment to see how they market it and explain change as they interact with Americans and drive the country forward after COVID.
My mum went to a Tony Robbins Awaken the Giant Within weekend in Birmingham in the 1990s when I was studyin for my Oxford entrance exams. I saw the advert in the Guardian while having breakfast at McDonalds and said my mother should go instead of me and my brother. She performed a firewalk and walk over burning coal there and learned things about self help and mastery and mind over matter that she used in her business career. She got to tell Anthony Robbins that her son had gotten into Oxford and he was impressed with that story.
I have sections in my articles that help me manage webspace and functionality. I hope to create a great resource for yogis and explorers alike. It is my hope that English literature Dons and Academics will liaise with priests in time via the internet and help them with their understanding of English and popular culture where the devil is said to have dwelled since John Milton’s Paradise Lost and the Reformation with Oliver Cromwell. He came at a time when the Church had needs and I feel that my writing is coming when the internet is calling for a new approach to things and more interaction for the cause of globalism that Tony Blair set about so that we can reclaim our national borders where we need to and help with the cause of Peace – where it needs to be, in our homes with healthier computer habits. Between 2017-2024 I was busy online across social media platforms Twitter, Instagram, TUMBLr, Facebook and spelled out how modernisation is required across the fields of philosophy, religion and esoteric thought where resources have been sucked up by rich and powerful people and used EnlightenNext as an example of a small organisation which was used to take the blame for politicians and cults and expand to include many hundreds and thousands of people and affect mind body spirit online as well as in bookshops. Self help is not what it used to be and the stadiums require black people to perform large christian functions like their brothers in America while the Englishman has to get used to social media and watch the monarchy and government prop the country up by spending money on TV that priests and academics cannot afford to use. William Hague is the Chancellor of Oxford and is young at heart to be using LinkedIn. This shows new approaches to resource management that the police can use to spot trends and help with resource management over time.
Tony Robbins did a show in the UK and was broadcast online after 2012. It was called I Am Not Your Guru and was linked to the collapse of EnlightenNext and the use of Advaita Vedanta in America and amongst western intellectuals. He featured in a copy of What is Enlightenment magazine that I bought in Harborne mind body spirit store as was interviews about his approach to spirituality by Andrew Cohen and classified by Ken Wilber in Integral Enlightenment.
It is all well and good compiling a webpage of suppprting evidence for why my poetry is unique and the habits I have developed since leaving Oxford and how Professors there shaped my mind and approach to English literature: But the people I am name dropping are not dead people in some social and political tract and treatise on human nature. I am not a socialist and I write to bear in mind the capitalist nature of Americans with their Christianity mixing with Communism in the East and how Christianity can help to overcome stumbling blocks to growth and development and shifts to capitalism from the eastern bloc. But the people I write about are very wealthy and require resources to be invested to research their influence and spread their influence over time so that powerful people’s agendas like Monarchs and business leaders can be understood by the ordinary folk online.
It is my intention that my writing helps elevate my social status and increases my wealth. I hope my family can move out of 6 Shilton Grove.
If religious leaders were enabled by the organising bodies that support them in the UK to buy property would that help them be like Neo in The Matrix and get out of feeling trapped by the phone in their parishes and recycle energies and make more progress in Church history? Church leaders could for example get involved with the commercial sector and feel more useful and relevant and buy some homes for use with homeless people. This would be in keeping with Prince William’s desire to end Homelessness in the UK. This suggestion is about building bridges based on limitations that are currently and relevant and help religious buildings integrate with commercial officers without Priests having to come up with their own business ideas and to help them get on with life more. Church leaders could also buy old people’s homes and help with the Dead and be in alignment with Time. Hindus would be different as they work on different calendars. We bought our home on a right to buy scheme from Birmingham Council so there is scope for the council to get involved with mosques and help with mortgages here if the police monitor social funding and help with growing needs for charity which stifle Church numbers and the flow of energy and information from Church History to make the Church a going concern and more relevant financially to England and other countries.
Is Natalie Portman the Audrey Helpburn of our age?
As a student I did not plan my career life. I was more interested in spiritual enlightenment even though I had a law contract with what some people claimed was the best law firm in London. One of the many ways this has impacted my life is the view of my mother in retirement. I never really envisioned old age and find that the view if utility and usefulness come to bear as my mum stays at home and images of old white women who are frail and depleted in their strength is popular. Contrary to stereotypes my mum is very youthful and exercises and meditated every day and keeps up with the news and has had boundless energy to help me in ill health and serve as a healer in her own capacity with Ritesh. The idea that once you’re retired your life is over has been hanging around my family and I find that it is nature’s course to complete the western mentality and life cycle and provide space for new growth as I start work and begin writing again. My mum completed a novel which is available online under the name Mamta Rishi and is called Love’s Last Laugh and fulfilled an ambition she had from working life but chose to retire at 67 and lament how much money she got in her pension with two unemployed sons at home to look after and deal with their outcast nature in society and spiritual Hindu life being haunted by ghosts from the past and facing esoteric experiences that drift us away from retirement plans of our own and cause stress in our home.
The internet is Brahman and is a field of possibilities into which we seed the world of time and nature.
This blog mixes religion with the secular world. I grew up believing in a secular government until Prime Minister David Cameron stated “this is a Christian country”. This was at odds with Tony Blair who famously said “we don’t do God” and may live to rule the matter as his Middle East credentials are called in to question by the number of people who criticise Donald Trump and his plans to rule Israel with Benjamin Netanyahu. The Royal Family head up the Church of England and officially “don’t do politics” so there is much to keep them busy as they battle Parliament for power and vie for American trade and business. That is to question if Allah is indeed god or has Islam made rapid progress while ISKCON skirts around the issue with calling Sri Krishna “the supreme personality of godhead”. Srila Prabhupada was sure to avoid too much ontology and liberated the Word of God from Christianity by creating a Hindu book to rival the King James Bible and submit his text for study for authorship and agency with questions about how it was written as Srila Prabhupada used a dictaphone to author so many books. Was he the inspiration for Star Trek’s Captain’s Log and did the Vedas influence more than Ralph Waldo Emerson to experience the Self with Walt Whitman and Henry David Thoreau. My brother has been a seer all his life and struggled to fit in to schooling even at St Brigid’s. He tired of Scientology and has been at home on state welfare as a disabled person since the 1990s. He has no driving licence or fancy clothes and stays at home but goes for walks and does the shopping when he can and contributes to weekly bills. Today he paid half of the money to buy me some Adidas which were on sale and on Fridays he buys me Chinese food from the local takeaway. We are spiritual travellers with our mum and say prayers for our father in India as well as Karamat Ali who partnered our mother for nearly 20 years and caused her to be ostracised from her 12 brothers and sisters and all their socialising and phone calls after they attached more stigma to her for partnering a Muslim man than they do for getting divorced in the first place in 1988. Her independence runs through myself and Ritesh and we fit well together in our little family home and spend time together in our little family home and spend time together playing scrabble when we can. We have spiritual links that go back very far and cause us to experience daily life in a heavy way. I am benefitting from working to a normal pattern and am glad to be able to drive and get my own independence as I have been looking at Ley Lines going into Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple for about 10 years and have seen Pundit Dharam Dutt cosmically aware of my development struggling to cope with my consciousness as Jesus says he would jokingly rather I went to the pub than join Elim Church as St Gabriels is a much more chilled out affair. It occurred to me that I am digging up Christian history by joining a Church and dealing with epistemology and empiricism as I place my faith in Jesus before the medical profession trained to be negative and pursue their bank balance and social lives: Have the medical profession violated or negated the Hippocratic Oath finally with the COVID conspiracy and are the NHS guilt of contempt of court with their upper echelons of power hiding my identity and threatening due process since Emails I sent in 2014 that one day will be gathered warning of World War Three and asking for martial law?
What happened to “crooked Hilary Clinton” and all those emails she deleted?
I find I day dream a lot about Natlie Portman as my ideal woman and remember things from my past that I have outgrown. I grew up watching Hollywood films and realised they were about appearing and disappearing matters and forms at school when I got to go to Oxford to study there. I wanted to study Psychology – something Natalie Portman studied when she was in her 30s. She went to Harvard as a mature student. I saw my tutor from Oxford in the 2000s as an unemployed man with depression and enquired about going to Harvard to study English to postgraduate level but was disheartened by fees. I was able to get into Queen Mary University in 2010 to study a Masters and had a dream of getting a PhD but now I can see this was far fetched as Krishna fills in the blanks and shows me a deeper reality behind my life and reminds me as an old soul at 48 ripe and mature years of life that I have forgotten how Hollywood helped me in life and have become bitter and cynical and twisted.
The women there were my romantic ideals and gave me fodder to conduct experiments with illusion and reality and see through the facade of mental relationships with all the women I passed by as a student in Oxford and London. I recall realising that when I was looking for a girlfriend and tried relationships with white girls ( I had 15 encounters with women romantically and sexually to varying levels and only 3 were with Asian before I suffered Satanic rituals with Aishwarya Rai Bachchan haunting me with Maha Maya after 2012 and when I had come back from London and seen Krishna’s energy) – I was actually believing in an American woman more to be more interactive and get on better with; but this too would have been short lived and primarily sexually based as I went through my stages of life as The Bhagavad Gita teaches until I failed hugely with Maya and had an affair with a married Jewish woman after many years of loneliness and isolation in 2010 and gave up dreams of academia and causing a stir at EnlightenNext while smoking Marijuana at the same time.
The leader and singer Jon Bon Jovi got in touch with me after seeing my social media videos and talked about God and culture: But he also said I had a misspent youth. My parents did just fine as immigrants and the Americans would do well to look at their own poor people and let us enjoy the culture as we grow older and struggle to compete with their wealth.
I would llike to read religion and continue where I left off when I was awoken by Vedic sounds and Havans in India when I stopped my research project into The Bhagavad Gota. ISKCON have 50 or so more books by Srila Prabhupada and I would like to earn some money from writing to relax at home and fill in gaps in my knowledge. I have experienced past life awareness of Christianity and seen Church History arranged wrong with roman history on earth due to memory and historians writing by hand what Hindus can speak by mouth. I would like to study for my afterlife and get a better picture of world history and thus be a better healer – if anyone has any money to give me please send a donation to:
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I remember growing up and my favourite woman to look at and fantasis about was Kim Basinger. People years from now reading my blog can look her up online and get a sense of history of popular culture and what made America so great that Donald Trump came up with this logo for MAGA: Make America Great Again. Kim Basinger was a Bond girl but I was too young to know this. For me I was enamoured by the woman in Blind Date and my Stepmother Was An Alien as the Greek Gods played games with my psyche and the Hindu position of Maya. She used to send me wild and I looked forward to finally getting a hold of the film 9 1/2 weeks and her Playboy edition.
I was a young boy like everyone else and enjoyed masturbation / wanking to these media – something I learned to do into my 40s to control my Qi and focus on my meditation and tantra and cope with my lingam and imagination as I lived like a Buddhist after Vipassana retreat in 2011 in one rooms and with little money and no career prospects and saw frightful visions and experienced terrifying states of emptiness. From such small beginnings watching Hollywood blonde bombshells and dreaming of a bigger life for myself to coping with the Hindu iconography online of beautiful Devis who could also be Harpis in Islam or Nymphs in classical religions and pagan rituals: I had to fight to keep my semen and found channeling eastern philosophy with Michele Yeoh and Xang Ziyi from Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon helped me cope with Indian philosophy of Maha Maya with Aishwaraya Rai and sexual illusions concerning masturbation/ wanking and the difference between eastern and western faiths to keep my semen and not lose it.
Being on medication was difficult to cope with and I didn’t benefit from any discussion of research and adult sexuality as I was diagnosed as having “racy thoughts”. What these matters mean for my mother with my brother’s virginity into his 50s is complex and all I can do is keep silent and manage a day at a time and hope that I realise success sooner rather than later and fulfil this part of my life with my mother and set about preparing for her funeral as me and my brother are too poor to afford life insurance and cater for our own deaths at advanced stages of Yoga and unity with God while Buddha looks on and measures our funeral caskets for Tibetan homes to see what we come up with as advanced Hindu reincarnation souls with much to teach the Tibetans about.
