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10/06/2026

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“Spirit moves on the waters
Takes the shape of heavenly daughters” – Sting, Sacred Love

Literary biographies are often sketchy about the roles that families play in the lives of writers. It is my hope to provide information here which helps bolster our the views of critics to see how influential my family were and are in my life and to read their influence well into my literary works. For example, my retired mum stays at home and spends her afternoons surfing the web and keeping up with current affairs. She also runs a blog on the Daily Mail called Tony Gordon after Tony Blair and Gordon Brown and I recall her setting it up when the Iraq war was political capital. She has been instrumental in keeping me grounded and was with me every day after my hospitalisation and visited me in hospital. Mr brother kept his fear of psychiatric processes from Scientology and did not visit me or even bring up my mental health but continued to love me unconditionally as the Unicorn I have come to see him as. My mum would take me out for coffee and we would go to the cinema regularly in Rubery and go to towns and enjoyed shopping at Debenhams. Now I am having refresher driving lessons and working Mon-Fri and she came with me to every Drs appointment to keep an eye on the NHS who she used to work for and I am rehabilitated and much better following my nervous breakdown with Krishna where Durga told me to see Mahabharata around me and with the relatives plotting to turn me into an evil Guru and ship me off to India. Talking is cheap and the culture of talking in the UK is a strain on the mind that is why I like my job which helps me to talk to people on the phone and answer their queries while also carrying on with my balancing on Daoist terms and learning more about myself as a healer as days turn into weeks and months.

I recall that I don’t tread on Islamic turf. I used to be Shantideva and I lived in the 700s as a Buddhist monk in Asia. This is the same time that the Prophet Muhammed is said to have lived. He never wrote the Quran and I am not reading it without a teacher and some backing. I don’t purport to know much about Sufism in spite of writing a couple of Sufi poetry books which Amazon now own and I can’t get published. They witheld payment of royalties and waited for me to trasngress their marketing rights as celebrities started to interact with me (Jon Bon Jovi, Natalie Portman, Patrick Stewart) and then cancelled my contract and I lost about 50 books online. This reminds me of how central a text is to Islam and when I went to pick the Quran up and the first verse I read was “fear the devil” so I put it back. I have a couple of copies but I am not reading them being so stressed and am waiting to meet someone who teaches me how to read it properly. That could be time or death and I embark on the project when my working life cools down and I start driving and save a couple of hours on the buses. Presently I leave home at 6.15 and get back at about 7.45 Driving to work should cut the travelling down and driving is going well. I’ve had some refresher lessons and been out in the family car with my mum and things look good. I have seen Allah who reminded me that ISKCON is a modern cult and it erodes faith to see so many books and such a start up enterprise with so many temples around the world following Srila Prabhupada’s teachings. There was a story about a town in India not experiencing rainfall and then the chanted Hare Krishna and there was rainfall. This is how I see it. They are Gods, not academic exercises and I pray every day in the mornings and sometimes chanting Hare Krishna to be obedient and do my bit so that my conscience is clear during the day. Questions of consciousness get irritating and are led by Dr Deepak Chopra ruling the internet and not slowing down to use the TV so we can mainstream spiritual things and get some decent TV like the Americans have. That would settle Drs down if they could watch esoteric TV and put their questioning to the tests and have something in common to share with others rather than be in an ivory tower all the time managing other peoples feelings and lives. Islam could contribute with its magical realms in time if things calm down and there is healing of the nations as too much TV has brought down empires and left David Cameron bereft of political capital after he tried too many things with Carlton TV. He was barely on the TV and now there is a mess called social media they are offloading to the children rather than face massive corporate giants who bat louder than their bite and do their work in spite of political rulers. Social media was in Arab Springs and the way Muslims use it is quieter than the west and they don’t have dirty TV and sex mania behind them in a corrupt TV culture that is scapegoating religion to abuse spirituality and cause ill health and stress around the world.

Is it time for India to label webpages Shree Webpage to explain the karma attached to them like with books?

I have been craving meat a lot.

When we were young me and my brother had teddy bears. They were little monkeys and one of them was called Henry. We had a family friend of our mother who would visit her at Cradley Heath market called Evelyn Crizzle and she would knit us teddy bears – the conventional ones you see in market places. When I was in junior school I visited Evelyn at her care home in Northfield at the Baptist Church and she helped me make a clown teddy bear for a school competition. We knitted it together and I won first place. The next year she helped me make a Santa teddy bear but the school teacher did not let me win because he deemed I had received extra help.

I am the 15th Dalai Lama of Tibet. By the time he incarnates this blog will serve as a memory of his life and work with the 14th Dalai Lama of Tibet. This statement is a program rather than a statement of qualities of competence.

I am Prema Sai Avatar. The same applies here too. Here Sathya Sai Baba said that we were all avatars, incarnations of God and that he would manifest a third avatar and that this was nothing for me to do for him and that he would create peace on earth via a third virtual avatar from Prashanti Nilyam.

I hope to assist in explorations and considerations of meditation after the collapse of EnlightenNext and abandonment of Mind Body Spirit books so that leaders can see how perspective is affective and why they seem the way they do. Poetry can be illuminating but takes a long time to work and change human character. The illusions of mind body spirit writers was to dominate the internet with promises of quick fixes and enlightenment and immediate change in areas such as personality and growth such as Tony Robbins where the Human Potential Movement was ignored in British Universities and by politicians and monarchs alike who did not benefit from Evolutionary Enlightenment with shit going on in Africa and India to busy their colonial selves. They are left with spirituality from America and the promise of perfection and personal enlightenment to see how they market it and explain change as they interact with Americans and drive the country forward after COVID.

My mum went to a Tony Robbins Awaken the Giant Within weekend in Birmingham in the 1990s when I was studyin for my Oxford entrance exams. I saw the advert in the Guardian while having breakfast at McDonalds and said my mother should go instead of me and my brother. She performed a firewalk and walk over burning coal there and learned things about self help and mastery and mind over matter that she used in her business career. She got to tell Anthony Robbins that her son had gotten into Oxford and he was impressed with that story.

I have sections in my articles that help me manage webspace and functionality. I hope to create a great resource for yogis and explorers alike. It is my hope that English literature Dons and Academics will liaise with priests in time via the internet and help them with their understanding of English and popular culture where the devil is said to have dwelled since John Milton’s Paradise Lost and the Reformation with Oliver Cromwell. He came at a time when the Church had needs and I feel that my writing is coming when the internet is calling for a new approach to things and more interaction for the cause of globalism that Tony Blair set about so that we can reclaim our national borders where we need to and help with the cause of Peace – where it needs to be, in our homes with healthier computer habits. Between 2017-2024 I was busy online across social media platforms Twitter, Instagram, TUMBLr, Facebook and spelled out how modernisation is required across the fields of philosophy, religion and esoteric thought where resources have been sucked up by rich and powerful people and used EnlightenNext as an example of a small organisation which was used to take the blame for politicians and cults and expand to include many hundreds and thousands of people and affect mind body spirit online as well as in bookshops. Self help is not what it used to be and the stadiums require black people to perform large christian functions like their brothers in America while the Englishman has to get used to social media and watch the monarchy and government prop the country up by spending money on TV that priests and academics cannot afford to use. William Hague is the Chancellor of Oxford and is young at heart to be using LinkedIn. This shows new approaches to resource management that the police can use to spot trends and help with resource management over time.

Tony Robbins did a show in the UK and was broadcast online after 2012. It was called I Am Not Your Guru and was linked to the collapse of EnlightenNext and the use of Advaita Vedanta in America and amongst western intellectuals. He featured in a copy of What is Enlightenment magazine that I bought in Harborne mind body spirit store as was interviews about his approach to spirituality by Andrew Cohen and classified by Ken Wilber in Integral Enlightenment.

It is all well and good compiling a webpage of suppprting evidence for why my poetry is unique and the habits I have developed since leaving Oxford and how Professors there shaped my mind and approach to English literature: But the people I am name dropping are not dead people in some social and political tract and treatise on human nature. I am not a socialist and I write to bear in mind the capitalist nature of Americans with their Christianity mixing with Communism in the East and how Christianity can help to overcome stumbling blocks to growth and development and shifts to capitalism from the eastern bloc. But the people I write about are very wealthy and require resources to be invested to research their influence and spread their influence over time so that powerful people’s agendas like Monarchs and business leaders can be understood by the ordinary folk online.

It is my intention that my writing helps elevate my social status and increases my wealth. I hope my family can move out of 6 Shilton Grove.

If religious leaders were enabled by the organising bodies that support them in the UK to buy property would that help them be like Neo in The Matrix and get out of feeling trapped by the phone in their parishes and recycle energies and make more progress in Church history? Church leaders could for example get involved with the commercial sector and feel more useful and relevant and buy some homes for use with homeless people. This would be in keeping with Prince William’s desire to end Homelessness in the UK. This suggestion is about building bridges based on limitations that are currently and relevant and help religious buildings integrate with commercial officers without Priests having to come up with their own business ideas and to help them get on with life more. Church leaders could also buy old people’s homes and help with the Dead and be in alignment with Time. Hindus would be different as they work on different calendars. We bought our home on a right to buy scheme from Birmingham Council so there is scope for the council to get involved with mosques and help with mortgages here if the police monitor social funding and help with growing needs for charity which stifle Church numbers and the flow of energy and information from Church History to make the Church a going concern and more relevant financially to England and other countries.

Is Natalie Portman the Audrey Helpburn of our age?

As a student I did not plan my career life. I was more interested in spiritual enlightenment even though I had a law contract with what some people claimed was the best law firm in London. One of the many ways this has impacted my life is the view of my mother in retirement. I never really envisioned old age and find that the view if utility and usefulness come to bear as my mum stays at home and images of old white women who are frail and depleted in their strength is popular. Contrary to stereotypes my mum is very youthful and exercises and meditated every day and keeps up with the news and has had boundless energy to help me in ill health and serve as a healer in her own capacity with Ritesh. The idea that once you’re retired your life is over has been hanging around my family and I find that it is nature’s course to complete the western mentality and life cycle and provide space for new growth as I start work and begin writing again. My mum completed a novel which is available online under the name Mamta Rishi and is called Love’s Last Laugh and fulfilled an ambition she had from working life but chose to retire at 67 and lament how much money she got in her pension with two unemployed sons at home to look after and deal with their outcast nature in society and spiritual Hindu life being haunted by ghosts from the past and facing esoteric experiences that drift us away from retirement plans of our own and cause stress in our home.

The internet is Brahman and is a field of possibilities into which we seed the world of time and nature.

This blog mixes religion with the secular world. I grew up believing in a secular government until Prime Minister David Cameron stated “this is a Christian country”. This was at odds with Tony Blair who famously said “we don’t do God” and may live to rule the matter as his Middle East credentials are called in to question by the number of people who criticise Donald Trump and his plans to rule Israel with Benjamin Netanyahu. The Royal Family head up the Church of England and officially “don’t do politics” so there is much to keep them busy as they battle Parliament for power and vie for American trade and business. That is to question if Allah is indeed god or has Islam made rapid progress while ISKCON skirts around the issue with calling Sri Krishna “the supreme personality of godhead”. Srila Prabhupada was sure to avoid too much ontology and liberated the Word of God from Christianity by creating a Hindu book to rival the King James Bible and submit his text for study for authorship and agency with questions about how it was written as Srila Prabhupada used a dictaphone to author so many books. Was he the inspiration for Star Trek’s Captain’s Log and did the Vedas influence more than Ralph Waldo Emerson to experience the Self with Walt Whitman and Henry David Thoreau. My brother has been a seer all his life and struggled to fit in to schooling even at St Brigid’s. He tired of Scientology and has been at home on state welfare as a disabled person since the 1990s. He has no driving licence or fancy clothes and stays at home but goes for walks and does the shopping when he can and contributes to weekly bills. Today he paid half of the money to buy me some Adidas which were on sale and on Fridays he buys me Chinese food from the local takeaway. We are spiritual travellers with our mum and say prayers for our father in India as well as Karamat Ali who partnered our mother for nearly 20 years and caused her to be ostracised from her 12 brothers and sisters and all their socialising and phone calls after they attached more stigma to her for partnering a Muslim man than they do for getting divorced in the first place in 1988. Her independence runs through myself and Ritesh and we fit well together in our little family home and spend time together in our little family home and spend time together playing scrabble when we can. We have spiritual links that go back very far and cause us to experience daily life in a heavy way. I am benefitting from working to a normal pattern and am glad to be able to drive and get my own independence as I have been looking at Ley Lines going into Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple for about 10 years and have seen Pundit Dharam Dutt cosmically aware of my development struggling to cope with my consciousness as Jesus says he would jokingly rather I went to the pub than join Elim Church as St Gabriels is a much more chilled out affair. It occurred to me that I am digging up Christian history by joining a Church and dealing with epistemology and empiricism as I place my faith in Jesus before the medical profession trained to be negative and pursue their bank balance and social lives: Have the medical profession violated or negated the Hippocratic Oath finally with the COVID conspiracy and are the NHS guilt of contempt of court with their upper echelons of power hiding my identity and threatening due process since Emails I sent in 2014 that one day will be gathered warning of World War Three and asking for martial law?

What happened to “crooked Hilary Clinton” and all those emails she deleted?

I find I day dream a lot about Natlie Portman as my ideal woman and remember things from my past that I have outgrown. I grew up watching Hollywood films and realised they were about appearing and disappearing matters and forms at school when I got to go to Oxford to study there. I wanted to study Psychology – something Natalie Portman studied when she was in her 30s. She went to Harvard as a mature student. I saw my tutor from Oxford in the 2000s as an unemployed man with depression and enquired about going to Harvard to study English to postgraduate level but was disheartened by fees. I was able to get into Queen Mary University in 2010 to study a Masters and had a dream of getting a PhD but now I can see this was far fetched as Krishna fills in the blanks and shows me a deeper reality behind my life and reminds me as an old soul at 48 ripe and mature years of life that I have forgotten how Hollywood helped me in life and have become bitter and cynical and twisted.

The women there were my romantic ideals and gave me fodder to conduct experiments with illusion and reality and see through the facade of mental relationships with all the women I passed by as a student in Oxford and London. I recall realising that when I was looking for a girlfriend and tried relationships with white girls ( I had 15 encounters with women romantically and sexually to varying levels and only 3 were with Asian before I suffered Satanic rituals with Aishwarya Rai Bachchan haunting me with Maha Maya after 2012 and when I had come back from London and seen Krishna’s energy) – I was actually believing in an American woman more to be more interactive and get on better with; but this too would have been short lived and primarily sexually based as I went through my stages of life as The Bhagavad Gita teaches until I failed hugely with Maya and had an affair with a married Jewish woman after many years of loneliness and isolation in 2010 and gave up dreams of academia and causing a stir at EnlightenNext while smoking Marijuana at the same time.

The leader and singer Jon Bon Jovi got in touch with me after seeing my social media videos and talked about God and culture: But he also said I had a misspent youth. My parents did just fine as immigrants and the Americans would do well to look at their own poor people and let us enjoy the culture as we grow older and struggle to compete with their wealth.

I would llike to read religion and continue where I left off when I was awoken by Vedic sounds and Havans in India when I stopped my research project into The Bhagavad Gota. ISKCON have 50 or so more books by Srila Prabhupada and I would like to earn some money from writing to relax at home and fill in gaps in my knowledge. I have experienced past life awareness of Christianity and seen Church History arranged wrong with roman history on earth due to memory and historians writing by hand what Hindus can speak by mouth. I would like to study for my afterlife and get a better picture of world history and thus be a better healer – if anyone has any money to give me please send a donation to:

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I remember growing up and my favourite woman to look at and fantasis about was Kim Basinger. People years from now reading my blog can look her up online and get a sense of history of popular culture and what made America so great that Donald Trump came up with this logo for MAGA: Make America Great Again. Kim Basinger was a Bond girl but I was too young to know this. For me I was enamoured by the woman in Blind Date and my Stepmother Was An Alien as the Greek Gods played games with my psyche and the Hindu position of Maya. She used to send me wild and I looked forward to finally getting a hold of the film 9 1/2 weeks and her Playboy edition.

I was a young boy like everyone else and enjoyed masturbation / wanking to these media – something I learned to do into my 40s to control my Qi and focus on my meditation and tantra and cope with my lingam and imagination as I lived like a Buddhist after Vipassana retreat in 2011 in one rooms and with little money and no career prospects and saw frightful visions and experienced terrifying states of emptiness. From such small beginnings watching Hollywood blonde bombshells and dreaming of a bigger life for myself to coping with the Hindu iconography online of beautiful Devis who could also be Harpis in Islam or Nymphs in classical religions and pagan rituals: I had to fight to keep my semen and found channeling eastern philosophy with Michele Yeoh and Xang Ziyi from Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon helped me cope with Indian philosophy of Maha Maya with Aishwaraya Rai and sexual illusions concerning masturbation/ wanking and the difference between eastern and western faiths to keep my semen and not lose it.

Being on medication was difficult to cope with and I didn’t benefit from any discussion of research and adult sexuality as I was diagnosed as having “racy thoughts”. What these matters mean for my mother with my brother’s virginity into his 50s is complex and all I can do is keep silent and manage a day at a time and hope that I realise success sooner rather than later and fulfil this part of my life with my mother and set about preparing for her funeral as me and my brother are too poor to afford life insurance and cater for our own deaths at advanced stages of Yoga and unity with God while Buddha looks on and measures our funeral caskets for Tibetan homes to see what we come up with as advanced Hindu reincarnation souls with much to teach the Tibetans about.

10/06/2026

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In my early years folder I deal with the first 48 years of my life and a lot of childhood memories and feelings as well as the first 13 years of my life being twice born again as a Christian for 2 years and dealt with this in a months worth of writing. This leads me to question what time is? How into formed and where does it come from? In Hinduism it is called a God called Kala and in Christianity Jesus is for moon control of it the Creator in Genesis and ruler of his own prophecy for his advent on earth as the Messiah. Allah once spoke to me about aeons taking past lives for millions of years and asked if his people could have past lives too as Buddha explored Kali Yuga and the devil looking at Buddhist eschatology.

Kali Yuga is a period of irreligiousness on earth when the prevailing deity Kali will rule and man will be given to conflict and chaos.

The ability to experience time appears uniquely human until we note that time is not merely clock time but the passing of seasons and the coming and going of night and day with the sun and the moon oscillating duties to govern the world and attend cosmic forces. If Jesus is to rebirth He will need to be in control of these forces and the book of Genesis needs to withstand more ridicule from atheists as the imagination stands up to abuse and is defended for what is possible with time when God is in control of it.

When will the Pope visit the UK?

The NHS diagnosis of me as suffering from Bipolar Disorder occurred in 2013 and listed Schizophrenic, Mani, Depression, Racy Thoughts and Psychosis in its report on me. This was following a consultation with my mother and maybe one observation of me in interview. These diagnoses were never discussed with me and I wonder what would have happened if I had not read the report saying I thought I was a Hindi incarnation of god?

This reminds me of J Krishnamurti and his teachings on how misleading the Guru was and how you could never ask another person how you can be saved and what the right answers are for you in your life. It combines with what Jesus taught on the dangers and pitfalls of trusting the world when the kingdom of heaven was full of peril and deceit and how in the end I was grateful that the NHS arrested my development for fear of what lay ahead but mistreated me as a member of ethnic and religious grouping which left me with delusions of grandeur to work out by myself. Jesus told Drs to “heal themselves” as he warned the kingdom of heaven is near at hand and available for anybody to reach out and grab it. The simplicity of the Holy Ghost is what baffles medics in a world of sensationalism and marketing where American mystics and priests sold everything including the kitchen sink to get popular and used Islam to defend their antiquated beliefs.

I healed the Nazi Holocaust with Jehovah and they have moved in cosmic space and in Heaven and Hell and this should make space for new things in the world. I have also healed the Viet Cong.

Prior to 2012 Dr Deepak Chopra towed the party line of the Democrats to insult Mahmoud Ahmedinajad who had airtime online speaking at the United Nations. In keeping with the USA’s dominance of mental health, he called Ahmedinajad a “psychotic” and has since been deleted on YouTube along with a lot of other videos where he called for a “critical mass of humanity” to raise consciousness and force world leader to adopt new peaceful policies in alignment with spirituality online.

How come the United Nations has not built offices abroad in the UK?

My brother and I missed out on a family inheritance in Jalandhar, Punjab with our grandfather’s ball bearing business IBI Ball Bearing PVT Ltd. He had six children and our father was the youngest brother who was sent to England to study at Bournville College in the 1970s. He met my mother and got married instead of completing his course and they fell in love and had my elder brother. Eventually they divorced in 1988 and my father moved to London to drive minicabs and keep in touch with me and brother. My brother was disenfranchised with the family situation and wanted to be left alone. I would socialise with my mother’s Islamic partner Karamat Ali who had been in prison for car theft and try to keep the peace with my father with regular visits to London Hounslow to see him. All he could really do was take us out shopping and try to bribe our affections as he worked 7 days a week driving taxis and would cook good food for us as we remembered him doing so when we were a family.

He eventually moved back to India in 2000 and me and my brother lost touch with him as we evolved and grew spiritually. I saw him in 2000 but suffered a nervous breakdown upon having spiritual realisation in 2002. I have spoken to him briefly since then but found being in touch on the smartphone too stressful and mixing bad memories in the home as he wanted to know about my mental health. He sold the family business and moved to outside Delhi and me and my brother did not get any shares in the business – something I lost out on when I chose God instead of corporate law in 2000-2002 and failed to develop into a healthy corporate man who travelled the world and did business while having a family of his own to boast of to keep up with the rest of my graduates from Oxford and King Edwards.

My religious transformation was even more painful than Eckhart Tolle with terrifying states of emptiness and nothingness to face alone with the silent support of my mother and brother who appear to have gone through these things before in previous births.

The female goddess Devi on the left hand side of the Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple represents my past life in India. I have been guided to this revelation by Durga who said how else could I have accomplished all that I have done and had such a successful relationship with my mother. Santosh is my mother’s name and there is a small statue of Santosh Mata in the Temple too. Santosh Mata originated from India and is worshipped in film and this symbol is fertile ground for the imagination and the path to ruin for our family as my painting sits behind glass and has a jyoti burning in front of it. During this past life I was acquainted with Lord Rama and worshipped Him and note that the glass that separates my painting from reality is the distance I have in Kali Yuga from such an opulent lifestyle. I don’t speak Hindi and don’t know Hindu scriptures beyond the Bhagavad Gita. But I can attest that the separation from reality represents The Soul Cages by Sting and now the “mind forged manacles of man” of William Blake that I saw when I was about 12 and fixated on throughout my English studies and makes its way into my poetry online. I listened to Sting obsessively every day from 12 to 24 when I stopped listening to music to look after my mind and body and saw in him a higher light to a deeper reality that was in keeping with contemporary spirituality that we all come from God and are heading there through transcendental means.

“the young so educated they never grow old” – Prince, Seven

Another empty day with money to fill that void instead of God.

The worship came through from Krishna a decade ago to watch my passion and confidence. I have been up since 4am meditating this morning and it is 7.30 and I see from the shifting shapes and patterns what he means. It is quite one thing to dwindle on my phone about celebrity life and the royal family. It is quite another thing to interact with them. My mother and I went to London last the day after Lillibut’s funeral and spent a day there and rode the Elizabeth line. That’s as close to royalty as we have come in our life. When I was in the Tazetta Suite of the QEHB for Bipolar Disorder my Buddhafield was the size of the West Midlands as Rama had tole me and I noted that Prince William came to Birmingham and did a public appearance. I feel affinity for him and Catherine because of their student life and interacting with the normal side of humanity and see myself influencing their generation and the younger one more than Prince Philip and King Charles for whom I had something to say online about corporate India with my social media videos between 2017-2024. But in keeping with what Krishna writes about in the Bhagavad Gita this is the age of my life when passion rules my Gunas and I am likely to be too over confident in one moment then too under confident in the next as I rule myself from my home in Weoley Castle and live out of one bedroom and deal with all these forms and shifting patterns to find a way to cope with living normal working life and waking up and travelling to work and earning a salary and building my webpage slowly so I can see and develop a plan to market it to British universities and even some people abroad for further research.

If I publish my work and advertise it to world leaders, my karma from school is strong. I have had many spiritual experiences since then and revealed my past lives too but the link to schooling and the role of parenting with my mother and the buried emotions of my father are located there in my unconscious as well as the ties to all the relatives and all their socialising. The rest has to be put to my higher self.

In India there was a holy man called Shirdi Sai Baba who is worshipped in India to this day. There was a TV Show of him which showed him healing someone and getting sick himself. Doubtless this is what happened to me and still does occur to this day as I experience weakness and suffer fearful states of being after encountering NHS Drs and Nurses who were heavy handed with the medication and did not want to discuss cause and effect in relation to my medical diagnosis as a Hindu incarnation of God. I have seen people make speeches claiming to be divine and write webpages proclaiming their human relationship with the people – after my trust has been burned with the DWP who charged me for PIP and ESA since 2013 to 2025 for my services and used me to fix this country’s spiritual apathy and non religious nature – I will let my webpage do the talking and rely on poetry to abstain from claiming religious perception.

I have been trying to answer the question What is a Healer for some years now and cannot arrive at a satisfactory concise explanation of a phenomenon I have been experiencing since I was very young. I can answer people’s prayers with recourse to Angels and help them fulfil their goals and ambitions in life by asking Hindu Gods and Goddesses. This is a step in the right direction of expanding on my current role as a poet and IT support technician and helps me further define the Buddhist Wheel of Suffering in terms of Abrahamic and Vedic deities.

I am a Healer. I use the Wheel of Suffering in Buddhism to elevate people from their current state and use my connections from past lives to improve situations on the planet: I am very quiet and barely talk as I am usually engaged in some transcendental activity and craving time to myself to meditate and recharge my batteries. I am very low on energy and find working life a bore. It takes a lot for me to travel to work and back and get the bus there for 2 hours and back for the same amount of time. Futhermore whilst I respect people’s time and money, I find the NHS has many rude callers who expect their work to be done in miracle timing and people are rushing me to complete my job. I would much rather stay at home and work as a writer but this is not fair on my mum and brother who need me to get out and prove that I don’t have mental health problems under the mental health act after the train wreck the Drs and Nurses brought into our lovely home.

I can interact with daily life normally and carry out normal duties and functions while attending to my spirituality and looking after myself as a graduate who has suffered many years unemployment (24) and is looking at being a 50 year old soon. So knowing that this writing is spied on and used to update databases and legally allow for 2012 arrangements after the world leaders tried to mainstream spirituality through their polling of people’s data: I am renouncing healing everyone and stating the tax code as reasonableness for what I can achieve.

I occupy a basic rate of tax and cannot afford to heal people in higher bands and that includes celebrities and politicians who come to me as well as royalty whom I see from time to time requesting healing.

In 2002 an energy worker did a reading on me and said that people were asking me questions. I can now see what she meant and see this occurring in the spiritual and religious realms with divine importance of earnest actions that have karmic consequences. I cannot continue to support this country’ government and media circus and will retrain myself to keep my energies to myself and just wish for good things for people of the same economic bracket.

I do not charge for what I do as Lord Indra told me there is no charge. But people are going to have to pay for this and stop saying I am like other people for equalising my life with others. It is enough humiliation to have the NHS imply that I am not special but it is even more to have to explain the difference between myself and others on this blog when spiritual teachers and masters have been dominating the internet for decades while I and my family receive nothing. Jesus writes in the Bible that you cannot mix God with money and this is doubtless part of some tests to make sure I am true and authentic but that does not give rich people the right to abuse me whatever nation they are from.

The original Christians had no libraries to speak of. They were just enamoured with duty and the word of God to create the Christian Church. Books and bibliographies have been built and they challenge our sensibilities today and are confronted by science to prove the veracity of their claims – that Jesus lives and His word is worth following. The King James Bible has taken centre stage and there are countless translations across the globe attesting to modernity and espousing the words that Jesus is alleged to have spoken and the Logos that is to be studied in Universities. England is different to America in that it has completed its colonial expansions and apart from Indian politics there is joy at the heart of the Christian Church. Americans are much more anxious and I feel their presence in my house for their post colonial moment of I Amness and proclaiming the greatness of the American nation, peoples and project while other countries get on with Christianity as business as usual. Stoicism supplements Greek Christianity and presupposes that the western people want to ruled by Aquarian gods with goddesses that have sexual ways on the surface quite different to eastern countries with their gods led by Krishna in the west doing his best to modernise things after only being 60 years old at ISKCON and bending with American naivety to rule the roost and proclaim a new gospel of Brahma about the life and disciplic succession of Krishna.

This is a blog. It is my personal webpage. Being spied on has done strange things to my head. There is not just America and England but hundreds of countries and this has affected my estimation of material wealth and what I am worth.

Brideshead Revisted by Evelyn Waugh tells the tale is dwindling authority at Oxford University and the growing need for the priesthood to cement its role there when dealing with student care. It is my hope this blog will circulate amongst academics and clerics alike to deal with issues of authority and morality nationwide so the out getting bogged down with topos and location The internet moved too quickly for some classes and groups and society and it’s time to have another go at it.

I caused 9/11. I have cause natural disasters on earth – earthquakes and floods and blackholes.

The Vietnam War was caused by the senses as the American were short sighted and could not see into the East. This is like the Ukraine War with Russians losing their sight and sound about Europe and getting lost after Brexit. The conflict in Iran is an extension of The Crusades.

“April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.” – T S Eliot The Waste Land

Much of what I write is due to memory and desire. I stimulate my own desire by publishing my thoughts and updating my consciousness for academic audiences. I fear the loss of memory in our country with American superdominance of our social media networks. We are not the history of Hollywood and the wars between Parliament and the Monarchy for power have left a gaping hole in British democracy where Nigel Farage is beating the BBC for ratings as he buys the next election with GBNews for the sake of the whole and to keep a cogent sense of what it means to be in this country with Monarchs too good for TV.

“Food eaten more than three hours after cooking it is said to be in the mode of ignorance (Tamas Guna)” – Srila Prabhupada, The Bhagavad Gita As It Is

When Srila Prabhupada was training for his role as a Sannyasi and when he finally embarked on his journey in America, fridges in India were not that common a phenomenon. This food cooked and eaten more than three hours after the time was said to be sullied and rotten having been left out in the heat. This posed a problem for meat eating and vegetarianism is common amongst Hindus. Some sacrifice their food before God and serve Him the food on their plate and thus give up the violence associated with the killing of an animal. ISKCON urge the noneating of meat but state that if you want to eat meat they pray and offer your food to Kali. I find it too hard to give up meat and offer my food to Kali and also go to Church and have been baptised so eating meat is not forbidden amongst Christians.

My mum started receiving phone calls about me in 2002. The phrase used was “the largest puja ever was done for me” and they have spoke about my special importance. Having Krishna near me is no joke and He advents to raise someone’s profile: “Wherever there is Arjuna and Krishna there is victory and opulence” (The Bhagavad Gita). I like the New Testament and the Gospels of Jesus but find the rest of the Bible too hard. The implications were that I would help the world with the prophecy of Jesus and one day would become famous. My mum had to cope with this all by herself and with both my brother and me knocked out of the race of life after Earth shattering events and hauntings in India in 2002. Ritesh could see a lot of evil being intended to me and was befuddled as to how it could be so. He was never one to try the rat race so sat back and watched the Drs treat me for depression when I lost my career as a trainee solicitor at Jones Day Gouldens. The mix of science and religion has been paramount to my success and Krishna warned me that I have no science in my life and this holds me back and stops me having choices. The plight of our family and the home remedies we tried to get better from evil and psychic attack lays fertile ground to those scientists who say that religion is too old fashioned and not relevant to today – something Andrew Cohen of the cult EnlightenNext was trying on as he was using India to be a fashionable guru and talk big.

My brother is a Naturopath and does not like Drs and Nurses. To him it’s all made up and Drs need computers to get their jobs done and read something off the screen. He would listen to the pundit from India in the 2000s that mum found in a village who said that I was not normal and that some people would come to visit me. The pundit would recite prayers and Ritesh would run the phone over his face believing in the Swami Vivekananda books he read when he was young and not the rough and shoddy diagnosis and speech of the Drs and Nurses who bamboozled me with processes and lexicon to leave me dumb before them as they performed Obs and wrote complicated words into their own laptops about their own health and keep up from studying their own health and keep up from studying their own degree which dovetails nicely with the racists n Parliament who don’t have one Daoist sitting with all the Muslims there and banter about terrorism and extremism from brown people. Where this leaves us with Nigel Farage and his immigration rants stirring up the nation is anyone’s guess and how much longer will be for my mum to suffer with her two sons is up for grabs too. What if this was another Hindu household, or what had been going on in Hindu households as they kow tow to Drs and Professionals to show up at their expensive houses and weddings with alcohol enough for the wine and whiskey drinking class who had too much to lose from my medical to play by the rules as the NHS does not hand out compensation as its staff are treated well and take up the headlines with propaganda since Tony Blair and his cronies dictated the news about the NHS and sob stories about shit.

The Indian education curriculum had been set on YouTube by George Walker Bush with his racist Islamaphobia and war mongering as youth clambered about looking for solutions to problems by protest and with democracy and Arundhati Roy with Salman Rushdie on Richard Dawkins’s social media with all those Hindu Bhajans on them and things that thw atheists do not understand.

Was Dr Ernie van Woerkhom channeling me when he was treating me for Bipolar Disorder?

Have Drs and Academics been seeking the power of the mind over matter in the UK and do they seek power over life with the ability to kill people with their minds and send them insane?

“The future of the British economy lies in science”- Gordon Brown PM in c.2000s on BBC

There is no review process from the NHS to deal with my family’s case. This is a shortcoming of Drs centralising out of London while listening to crap about Drs strikes and not enough pay when they have a job in this country developing strategies of creating insane people who use social media videos aimed at children where the Drs can start young giving advice while missing out on all that spirituality that came from America and was lost when EnlightenNext collapsed, mimicking Partition in India, taking all of the mind body spirit with it in America so the Drs escape without liability in this country and have Princess Catherine in their back pockets with her swimsuit body invulnerable to psychic attack and without armed guards around her while utilising the world’s resources.

“The debt you owe your mother you will never repay”- Sathya Sai Baba

These writings are coming out of a city slicker and someone who has always been in a big city. The countryside of England is a different matter but the English character is the same. The NHS is to be examined and updated from 1983 regardless of my status as a past life Hindu. What of my other lives in Greece or when I lived in England in Jacobean times? ISKCON is stating that people have had a million lives and need to remember their time with Krishna to make this a successful life. That is why Tibet is so powerful for its ancestry into the darkness and where historians have yet to lead politicians and their money. In Tibet and on Buddha Bar a past life reincarnation is known as a Tulku and Chinese medicine boasts the Dao to be able to take into consideration spirituality without shutting it down like the NHS does and denies my mother her human rights and freedom of expression with the one in one out right of a Dr to be by himself with a patient.