“If we share this nightmare
We can dream spiritus mundi”
– Sting and the Police: Synchronicity
The poet William Blake resorted to prose in The Marriage of Heaven and Hell as he forwarded his ideas of energy in etched plates and shared visions of meeting with prophets from the Old Testament. He has inspired me to open up about my own visions and to see the message I once received from Krishna “you’ll need my energy for this” as where they are coming from and how they are interacting with my mind and body to produce phenomena. This makes me an empiricist searching for the right blog to communicate my ideas and to help create a field of interesting and interconnected people who think about things similar to how I do.
“With a fraction of my energy I pervade and sustain all the material universes” – The Bhagavad Gita
At ISKCON you can be Krishna’s friend and conjugal lover amongst other things but he does not allow you to be his son. This in taking with the fact that Krishna won’t take on your sin is significant departure from Christianity as the two conflict while Drs look on and laugh at their juvenile psychologies and ways.
Sati was very influential in my enlightenment and comforted me as the NHS treated me and guided me to call my home (or my mother’s home) a Temple of Parvati. She said that at the time of Shakespeare herself and Shiva were very slightly involved in England and that she would help me write to create progress in many areas: Including Feminism and Bible Studies. She helped me write two novels about a British Asian heroine called Parveen and two literary critical books that spanned my time at EnlightenNext and safeguard Hindus from abuse and harassment due to Neo-colonialism and the fad of yoga taking over the west. She also helped write a lot of poetry and counselled me through The Madness of Shiv where Tryumbakum is seen with skulls with deceased yogis as Shiva warned e of the dangers of the yogic path with his Hindus at Kumbh Mela being beyond ordinary description in English words.
What are the west selling as exciting Hinduism with the Dalai Lama and enlightenment when Hindus have to cope with the cycle of birth life and decay and death and ill health?
It occurred to me that the Chinese have a different approach to mythology to the Indians and their use of Daoism affords Krishna and his consorts a new form of Hare Krishna as balance comes forward to energise the mala to take a break from chanting to focus on stillness and concentration as well as what time there is for breathing. Krishna told me that all these things are mental health problems and to be gentle with myself as I live and move on to a new chapter in my life at work (finally I have been searching for work since I was 25 and am now 48), spending precious time with my family my mother and brother and benefit from their enlightened ways and make progress on a website that will hopefully be very successful and help me in life get out and build a community of people interested in discussing things with me and sharing time together to discuss my poetry and other things. Krishna has advised me on my WordPress page to build it slowly so that I do not waste energy and to give myself time to acclimate to Vishnu’s perpetual wisdom that I am lacking a lifestyle as a graduate and not as a guru. Guru Nanak warned me that if I don’t do something about this guru online it will come back to me later in my life and Kali shared with me the lament that I only speak English so cannot benefit from Hinduism as it stands today and mix with Hindus at the Birmingham ISKCON temple.
As I suffer still for doing drugs and coming from a broken home and as news travels of my divinity I wonder about the Christ and what it was like for him to suffer for the sins of the world? When Krishna was in the world – how did he manifest in accordance with the laws around Him?
Having an Enlightened mind is quite a strain with materialism as I miss not having my own mortgage as a Sanksara and stage of life as a man and graduate. Krishna told me this is one of my life lessons to absorb and live with the karma of having done drugs and gotten lost in Maya with women and strayed from the spiritual life. I did not read ISKCON books until I was unemployed and desperately seeking answers to spiritual experiences in 2005 and then I was filled with despair at not being able to do my duty financially to look after both of my parents.
This desperation pushed me into suicidal thoughts and I come out of it to write a Masters Thesis for Queen Mary University or nonduality and spirituality in English literature. This is something I hope to achieve via my blog and save on the wasted energy of trying for a PhD in this racial climate in and life as a transcendental man who stays at home to look after his mother and engage in healing with her and benefit from her experience and love for both her sons and acceptance that our father left this country and the vast extended family behind and resolved himself to the fact that both of his sons would not set up lives in India and take over the family business in Ball Bearing manufacturing in Jalandhar there. Ritesh had been offered a life there when he was young by interfering family members Sudesh and Jeff Cole but chose to not leave me and stay with me through all that we’ve been through together. His health is better than it has been on he sees a Homeopath regularly who advised us many years ago to drink plenty of water 2/3 litres a day and who laments the state of the NHS as my mum picks up my medication for me and probably for the best from the pharmacy while I am at work.
The Pillai Centre describes the Hindu gods and goddesses as Archetypes and seeks to integrate them into modern mind science. This is something I struggle to do having had a western classical education and being influenced by Greek past lives that have haunted me in this birth. I must have had my own spirit guides who helped me as a student and changed my life and they are on energy where the world and cosmos rotates quite differently from the British politicians and their way of presenting the news to us via Satellite TV. It is based on the New Age and involved the Light a long time ago when opening my eyes to the true spiritual master was not so crowded by everyday experience with so much to get past before I can address the police properly.
Tomorrow is my one day at Solihull College every fortnight. The day is from 9-9.30 and usually takes the form of some assignment work and independent study for an ICT apprenticeship – something I couldn’t have conceived of a year ago or a few years ago when Shiva told me to get into computing. I find it tough going and computing is a very advanced topic for me to absorb. I find reading difficult and my concentration and try to put it in my own words but don’t memorise technological things too easily or well. However my course tutor marked my work and have me a 94% and said it as the best work in the class so that is space for happiness and enjoyment – I just need to get on the best I can. It is quite a lot of effort and right livelihood in Buddhism for the noble eightfold path. Buddha told me many years ago as he joked at the opulence of Krishna that I could have all of his Mehta for this as I reviewed my life upon visits from the NHS again. I find my inability to coherently narrate my religious identity in a way that is supported by a normal way of life fits in with their protocol about being a danger to yourself and others around you under The Mental Health Act 1983 and is something I hope writing does something about and negates.
My mum has always spoken to me in English though I catch her mumbling Hindi and speaking prayers every now and then. Her mother could not read or write and barely spoke English. She had her work cut out for her with 13 children from Kenya Nairobi and evolved in England to remain quite active socially within the family and was looked after by Dipak Mohan primarily in Kings Heath and Solihull where the family moved from Valentine Road in Kings Heath in the 1990s. Mama, as she was affectionately known, TV and dressed in sarees and was always treated with respect from the whole family when they visited her to see how she was.
Shortly before she died she spent the day at our house (she could not spend the night as there is no upstairs toilet in our house) and spent over an hour telling me her life story and how she felt hopeless in the face of seeing her two sisters pass away. She spoke Hindi and I managed to keep up with her. How different she is to Omkar Nath Channan Calgary who was best man at her wedding and is working on mental health himself in Canada.
“Questions of power remain unresolved so long as we have no power nor any means of knowing what power is” – Wole Soyinko
This quote formed the thesis for my essay on African American literature in my final year at Oxford. I will not be returning to Oxford after having undergone a revolution in consciousness and changing my ways since then and seeing the insult they raise to Christianity and other religions. It is of note that there is an Oxford Hindu Institute where they have condensed the Srimad Bhagwatam to a two volume edition while ISKCON’s books are not available in bookshops.
Smoking weed is a way of reliving the tedium of everyday life and householder burdens and escaping from the corporation of London.
The enlightened mind is what I am putting on show with my poetry mainly dealing with anti-authoritarian strains of rejecting conventional form and styling free verse to better narrate the feelings inside my body and the benefit of training to control my insight until I was about 40 to start writing and take a break in 2024. I now write mainly prose and have seen myself create an estate of literature with over 1000 letters on my desktop which go to show the many voices I went through and the child still locked inside of a man’s body. They will be of use for ethnic research abroad when I am older and to detect expression and mannerisms based on English culture through the dark decades since the 1980s and away from ISKCON’s glare as Salron checking to see if they are the subject of any authorship.
When I was reading ISKCON books during the years 2014-2018 and undergoing a research project into Hare Krishna chanting as well I would chant for 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours in the evening. I would also read as many books as I could. I did not read the Bhagwatam and managed to read the Gita some 50 times listening to it in Sanskrit from YouTube and following along in english. Seeing how Srila Prabhupada wrote and challenged the English Language helps me to create my own style for articles and write in short bursts which is all I can handle at the moment writing in Notes on my iPhone and being very poor to be stressed as I think about the future and project my life ahead of me as an ascetic unable to earn a lot of money. I once had an earning potential of £500,000 a year when I was in the legal industry. Maybe this will come back to me once I start reaching out to others and marketing my writing once I have uploaded my articles and the rest of the poems I have n my desktop. It is known to me that governments have spied on my desktop and written materials probably for my best and I use this to help me slow down and plan my work and manifestation.
A lot of religious orders including Frum Jews survive without technology and have their assets confiscated as God or whatever mysterious force that rules them guides their lives in accordance with their highest outcome. My brother has survived on benefits since 1999 and created his bedroom to be like Henry David Thoreau’s Walden where he examined himself and went on an existential journey as a unicorn and suffered ridicule at the hands of the British consciousness and racism since Shilpa Popodom on Big Brother and whatever Spike Lee brought to Handsworth and Shree Geeta Bhawan in the 1990s.
Guru Nanak complained to me many years ago that men like Andrew Cohen of EnlightenNext have cost him a lot of money in the past as he saw his work disappear after 2012 both in print and online and pointed to colonial India and the role of women in society as governing the GBP and polite social norms. It is against this background that Krishna warns me against Guru and too much passion and says I look like Gabar Singh from Sholay being dressed as I do and having the religious background that I do.
Gordon Brown had the most difficult job in television taking over from Tony Blair. This was so soon after Blair’s 1990s New Labour win that the internet never really caught up with the amount of interest that Tony Blair generated so much so that there were rumours that he was Satanic. Nigel Farage is trying to clean up media channels by getting a big personality with GBNews but after Tony Blair no Prime Minister has been able to catch up with the Iraq and Afghan wars and make ends meet on the internet to cope with American vigilance over its nationalistic interests as china barely registers a whisper having pulled back from business over the last few years.
I reflected that I was not very manic when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and suffered more from depression. However I could see that I had mania in my field with celebrities, musicians and film stars as well as sports stars haunting me and encouraging a rush of blood. In this regards I was not much of a scholar of the Dalai Lama but see him as engaging in mania with celebrity life and leading to too much excitement. This is the same with a lot of political figures and monarchs that rely on the spotlight.
Is writing ‘Doing’?
The world governments have built elaborate spy networks that poll data from people’s writing on social media such as private messaging, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter/X and YouTube. There are others. This is writing is used to track trends and create media channels to and from people’s TVs and Internet. What is the status then of the writing that is created by people and does it constitute an action for the development of the self for the pressure it puts on the mind to see it as coming and going from various departmental and government sources?
That would explain the dominance of football in the news as well as newspaper in spite of evidence of their detrimental effect on the populace and yobbish behaviour. This fits in with the governments control of the mob mentality. It’s just a ball as with baseball, basketball and cricket for the astronomical sums paid to keep the sports going and help the royal family enjoy them as Prince William supports Aston Villa and hands out sports trophies.
King Charles recently turned up at Stratford to watch a play which lends itself to Shakespeare being used for crowd control as Kenneth Branagh starred in The Tempest. What kind of role does writing play in shaping and influencing minds when sports and journalism is so influential and Shakespeare still rules the roost?
It’s like having been walking around with blinkers on. I was so taken by religion growing up that I could not see Christ anywhere and then moved on to eastern philosophies and eventually Hinduism only to wake up and see that people had been following these paths my whole life.
Upon reflection god is more powerful than the figure I had created from my classical education. Considering religious figures such as Zeus or Rama leads me to realise just how powerful they are – beyond my mere mortal and moral conception bound by the Judaeo Christian concept of God and my high school education with Religious Studies A Level and then a degree in English from Oxford where I explored the ideas people had throughout literature history about the higher world or higher thought.
Once I drive past a forest in India and remember thinking that would be a forest for a westerner would actually turn out to be a jungle in India. It is so wild and uncultivated and does not show its wildlife and natural countryside openly. Often I find myself in the inner city ethnic parts of Birmingham and am reminded of the Indian landscape and how many unruly and uncivilised it is – barren of control and urbanisation and spiritual updates such as sophistry. it is what it is with vast swathes of farmland.
