Reality TV Shows the common nature of humanity and how world leaders are dealing with homes where family members cannot take care of themselves. Big Brother was remiss not to actually feature the Dalai Lama on it for the blunders he commits trying to look after himself as a 24/7 diplomat travelling the world ceaselessly. Look what Srila Prabhupada achieved being a family member to so many people – white and coloured, east and west alike. How many more times has the Dalai Lama travelled the world and to whom does he act like a carer and shepherd in basic household duties that the State is unable to contract into other than by the NHS ancillary projects such as Creative Support where I learned to focus on my independence for the long term journey of life ahead of me instead of the wild spiritual visions and writings that come from a lack of finance and hope for the future with China caving in my reality with spy work and spoiling my life in the meanwhile.

I have set up the UK police to spy on my life with lots of writing since 2013 in various formats. This should enable me to get into some sort of communication with them over time and establish some familiar lines of communication say, for example, concerning the Shree Geeta Bhawan Mandir or the mess at St Gabriels Church with me observing my influential nature in these occassions and the police going on with their clinical observations of ISKCON. This in turn should enable me to write things that are peaceful and pleasing to my mother and help her integrate her awareness in retirement with the local forces after all the work she did to safeguard me and Ritesh. Ritesh has a level of health that is a matter for concern and cannot make money and insists that somethings like Benefits are solid and real while trying to live with nothingness and emptiness the rest of the time. There may be corruption here with people manipulating prices and matters and bullying him as time goes by who have access to his Facebook page and want to manipulate his karma for their own ends in Buddhism when Christianity is too hard to believe in. Ritesh had marked his wall Fleur De Liss from the Davinci Code and is studying Jesus Christ and his Second Coming and various conspiracies and keeps himself private and secret from me and will not like his cover being blown if I publish my articles and make my biography known. He is most wounded by the extended family and the network of cousins from 12 uncles and aunties who tease him in the collective unconsciousness and the Gunas as celibate and someone who has no University life and does not and has never socialised so they see it as a get out of jail clause for a religious figure who judges their alcohol and drugs and partying and interest in social affairs as shallow and trivial and cannot be generalised so that Ritesh is included once again in the family affairs. He can’t afford to travel back and forward to meet with them and engage in dialogues and nor can he afford meetings as Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple so the Police need to know his intelligence has tried to solve the problem but he would lose his health and independence.

There was a cultural tribute to 2012 when the cartoon series launched Transformers Prime. Optimus Prime was given an upgrade and given a new body suit as well as some human comrades to look after. Megatron was still alive due to his mercy (As a child I would watch Transformers and wonder about Ahimsa and Nonviolence and the Autobots role in life and why Optimus Prime was not more violent) and Starscream still craved power. So the basics of the cartoon were the same from the 1980s originals we still have on recorded VHS in our attic.

The plot involved Megatron building an evil army that he planned to take over the world with – kind of like the one that the Americans say ISKCON is using its Temples for with bragging about the past lives and millions and billions of years under Brahma with his Kalpas of Time.

It occured to me while watching that the Tibetans would have their work cut out to rebuild their religious idyll and civilisation wish such threats and attacks from Hindus taking up Western resources to negotiate trade deals with the Chinese that mean contemporary spiritual Buddhism can meld with American Enlightenment and New Age Romanticism to let ISKCON be with their new version of the Word of God and The Bhagavad Gita As It Is and wallow in pity with nobody feeling sorry for them as Arjuna the passive aggressive victim now heralded by psychology. They would need databases of past lives and Islam has cherished a role close to me buy into this vision to augment what is pop music to Buddha with the Tulku track on Buddha Bar celebrating religious differences and echoing power games of weaker and stronger in the background as serious negotiations for Tibet’s future take place.

The human need for expression and for speech is as native as the first cries a human utters upon leaving it’s mother’s womb. The child is then bombarded with speech and speech patterns in the form of childish sounds from adults and parents around them and learns in time to speak its own differences. The adult world is filled with stimuli from morning until night bombarded us with sounds and echoes the need within to break out and have our own say. This is why most people are interested in talking about themselves. I prefer writing and feel the human urge for speech bulging out of me and fall into writing as words circle around my brain and speech creates images and scenes to be answered for and to. This in turn affects my meditation for the “sinful reactions” of Srila Prabhupada’s noting in ISKCON to materialise change in my field and help me on the path for more self realisation in the face of hallucinations and schizophrenic images and pictures that seem to be moving but are in fact still.

As a writer I could be held to have a job in entertainment for all the lights and cityscape images I flick through in a day. The mind is busy with the world of the TV and the news catching up on the latest financial happenings in capital cities around the world and the Chinese volunteer in silence to supplement the American overload with all of its democratic lives filling the blogosphere to serve as a backdrop for what America used to have – a cityscape and nightlife that was attractive to 1980s TV. China and Japan can still supply such supple imagery via the BBC but the narrative is not there and India has retreated post 2012 into the shadows finding social media too much illusion for such a vast country with an epic history only just being unfolded in the west and in English for those still following Dr Shashi Tharoor’s post colonial political language and outing India on the world stage.

Where do the Chinese come from in the UK. Like the whites in Apartheid all the way down there in South Africa they seem to have manifested. There are no images of ships to compete with the other immigrants arriving in this island and the reason may be Brahma as a Creator and a beginning not manifesting the Buddhists who do not believe in a Creator. It is reported that the population if India was 300 million in 1947 and is now 1.5billion. How have all these people been counted and where did they come from aside from a Christian insult about sex lived of racially different people and problems with contraception. The world is not even the world if the Chinese people are consulted and has to be Created to exist and balance 7 days and 7 nights against the backdrop of ancient Chinese history and Dao competing with the rest of the world and the Dinosaurs of the Americans to complete with silly stories about animals and creations in Tibetan folklore.

The Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramhansa Yogananda is a book written about a wealthy man who visits institutions in India – a modern India – to out the protagonists macho leadership. Like Gandhi’s autobiography it has been influential in politics and is written in English to impress upon Colonial England an equal sense of history to match the land of the Renaissance and Kings and Queens. China is at a tipping point because of the World Teacher and ongoing work done on Earth since the time of the Theosophists to rout the Christian hold on power. One of the ways I understood this was to a bhold on books and the need to tell your own story. My brother has not long been a fan of books since failing his High School exams and supplementing his Yogic knowledge from reading the Bhagavad Gita As It Is and Srimad Bhagwatam by reading American transcendental writers such as Ralph Waldo Emerson and Henry David Thoreau. They taught him to trust the inner world and look after himself and self reliant long before circumstances with the Scientologists taught him to look to Buddhism to control the self and look after his transcendental gifts while being a dutiful son to his mother and letting his father go to return home to India after having stayed in the country to look after both of his sons after they left school and got into high scrapes with spirituality and could not afford to live well. These blog pages are my own autobiography of a yogi with Yoga defined as oneness with God and are meant to be read by people interested in how my poetry tells the story of my youth and help with biographical details to balance poetic musings.

One of the difficult things on the spiritual path is that of agency – knowing what one did and what one did not. One sees forms move about and designates them spirits and sport for the Gods and Goddesses and sees one’s mind under stress moving and feels like one is coordinating actions in the materials in absence of any sensible dialogue in one’s own nature and removal from the world of Gods and Goddesses to be seeing spiritual natures. There is a Buddhist monastery in Birmingham with Burmese Buddhists on its land and I went to St Hugh’s College where Burmese leader Aung San Syu Ki studied before becoming a political activist and dissident. What kind of karma is this and who own the actions but the monastery for coming first and existing before me except for my past life in Asia predating cause and effect: Weoley Castle is a relatively poor area but it has two 5G towers boosting cellular activity and another close by in Barnes Hill. With St Gabriel being the patron saint of Telecommunications we can ask again who is doing this and see the pressure on the spiritual aspirant to see his own doingness in creation test his resolve and sanity to keep walking straight and go to work in IT and keep away from grandiose claims about the self and big themes like synchronicity and collective consciousness and say balanced as the consciousness expands and grows all the while.

When dealing with agency, the roles of big spirits and religious people is significant. The life of Sathya Sai Baba is useful for he was outspoken in his claims of doership and left puzzles for people to solve after his death as to what exactly he did and the extent of his tenure as an avatar. The Dalai Lama is similar as his devotees worship him as like a god and see him as powerful and this range is for the Chinese government to sort out as they deal with Tibet’s government’s future and face the Dalai Lama’s call for a democratic election. What powers does he have? Who does he rule and effect and what are the roles of the Hindu Vedic gods in his life? These questions and more face the normal spiritual aspirant in smaller degree as they start to awaken to Dharma and Spirituality and see things differently in relation to gods and goddesses and things I have faced being a healer and unemployed for 25 years facing spiritual phenomenon.

Andrew Cohen’s spiritual cult EnlightenNext precipitated a collapse in Mind Body Spirit markets when it dissolved following the 2012 movement. This prompts me to say what books I found most influential from this scene and why:

1. The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche
2. The Alchemist by Paulo Coleho
3. The Way of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman
4. Gospel for the Golden Age by Peter Phipps about Sathya Sai Baba
5. The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success by Dr Deepak Chopra
6. Awaken the Giant Within by Anthony Robbins
7. Enlightenment is a Secret by Andrew Cohen
8. To Be Human by J Krishnamurti
9. Meetings with Remarkable People by Osho
10. Ancient Wisdom Modern World by the Dalai Lama

These books have helped me connect to a source that is beyond contemporary religion and feed my imagination about God so that I am not alone in the world and can see the market that caters for my tastes and deals with things I am interested in. They have helped me feel not alone in the world and develop my values along the lines of love and kindness. They have also helped me to fulfill my life’s path and to experience failure as someone who is gullible and believes too widely in the world of spiritual powers and religious phenomenon and cannot see the world of rich people producing the books and leaving me to fathom daily life all the same and deal with Christian Churches and the world of Jesus Christ. They help me see the ignorance I have had in my life of the Quran and Islam and how Buddha is needed to expand consciousness and the world to make space for all the inhabitants and citizens and the world of Jesus Christ and the Revelations that take in the much smaller world of Krishna who has only just announced himself as a God on the world scene and brings with him other Hindu virtues in the forms of Hindu Gods and Goddesses and again to see my naivety in this area of life and need as a mature adult who has experienced failure in the field of mental health diagnosis and treatment as Bipolar Disorder to atone for sin and keep my head down and work hard daily life and not give in to the world of lights and energies that these writers feed off. The books have messed me up quite a bit and caused me to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act as suffering from delusions of grandeur and psychosis and face the worlds of cults of personality I was ignorant of and feeding into unconsciously as a student and YouTube user unable to see the simple fact of my household existence for passion and desire that these books deluded me that I had transcended.

A strange synchronous event occurred as I was sent to a mental hospital by my mother who ignored the same treatment for my brother who has been at home unemployed since 1999 and the Suppressive Persons actions of the Scientologists where he used to be a staff member learning how an organisation works after a Business Studies B Tech where he was redeemed with a distinction in his first year after failing his A-Levels with panic attacks. The Chinese invested in a Chinese Centre at St Hugh’s College and overlooked the Burmese movement which quietened down for Aung San Syu Ki and her rallying fame for democracy worldwide. The Chinese centre was funded by Dikson Poon the former partner of actress and martial artist Michele Yeoh and was opened by Prince William who posed for fake online photos. That year my former Dr of English and course tutor and head of English was promoted to a Professor so this would have affected my medical as he is not a medical doctor but can still vouch in Loco Parenti for issues of character and respect and give advice on my self to vested interests. he soon started studying Daoist literature and opened up a WordPress account while I was busy writing on WordPress and publishing poetry with Free Tibet removed from my watch with my own movement Tibet Forever launched so that the Chinese could differentiate me from Tibetan activists and protect my family’s name and inheritance.

Shortly after going into the mental hospital with the diagnosis of being Bipolar because I thought I was a God: the Hindu film actress Aishwarya Rai Bachchan appeared in a manifestation. She represented the temple at Prashanti Nilyam which hosted Sathya Sai Baba and where his funeral was held prematurely for his prediction of how long he would live ( so there is a caveat on The Dalai Lama using up the World Teacher with the second coming of Christ prophesying himself as living 33 more years and into his hundreds on English airtime). Sathya Sai Baba said he would enter Maha Samadhi upon leaving the body and reappear as Prema Sai Avatar and Jesus has told me this is the Dajaal evidencing itself as a false messiah. This caused past life problems as I was medicated because you cannot have a Hindu incarnation of God where the House of Lords rules on The Church of England and rite of succession to the English throne and head of the country. MPs are actually “ministers” of religion and their culture is elusive and damaged the health of the nation as me and my brother and mother found out. The vision with Aishwarya Rai Bachchan had sexual connotations as Maha Maya and the romantic illusion that is classic in Hindu and Buddhist mythology and Krishna said he wants to keep a hold of it for the records due to the reactions I had and the messages I sent back via the internet and how Aishwarya Rai Bachchan and her husband have changed over the years since 2012. Allah has warned that Bollywood us undergoing some change and He will be finished with that place in less than 50 years and to stay at home and not let their politics bother me.