10/05/2026

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You hear that he is this way because he is a Rishi of India but never because he is a Smith of England. The English surname is dying in a mist of journalistic freedoms and the Islamaphobia that is natural in their ranks. The upper classes are blended with the common man and the distinction between behaviours is the privilege of those who keep themselves far from the maddening crowd and may be interacting with international figures to continue the ongoing colonial commentary of England and Great Britain and leave me by the wayside in the process of managing the centralising force of the ‘I’.

Who is managing this ‘I’ but it is God and the NHS alighted on thought and identification with Hindu religious dharma that Rohan Rishi “thinks he is a Hindu incarnation of God”. Who is they in ‘they’ (the NHS) have no legal liability to rectify the blasphemy and repair the damage done to the body and the special interest in spirituality but to wonder what Colonialism could have been like to have left such deep seated scars in the Anglo-Indian community relations to make me side with the British Asian experience over my youthful days as a student of English literature, language and legalese.

A recent performance of The Importance of Being Earnest had racial and homoerotic undefined undertones to it in a state of understanding that the gay aspects of the mileu were not taken into the performance itself. But what would gay people make of a life without childbirth in the keeping up of appearances of social and marital relations and their trials and tribulations with the female sex to uphold the social contract when conventional relationships of husbands and wives along the land and sea of planes, trains and automobiles is so emotional and wrought with deep intense sexuality and feelings of a secretive society that does not like being written about and hides in national narratives while travelling abroad and to overseas territories to bring back ‘home’ what is now known as multiculturalism and is a hotbed for racism and uncontrolled thought as societal relations mix religions with warfare and political discussions to create and foster ignorance in the home and wealth in Parliament and the Monarchy and abroad as well as in TV empires that the phone is marking for new contracts as Africa watches The Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad unfold and repairs at the “horror” of the similitude of the human race wherever it goes and whatever monk’s robes it wears and sannyasi garb it dresses in.

Audience is importantly a part of time travelling as a writer who is addressing multiple markets in the privacy of his own musings and wild imagination while trying to keep up appearances amidst the chaos of managing daily life and household affairs. The metaphor of feeling like a journalist where everything one meets is hot off the press news is amongst the early stage of embedding oneself as a spy who also happens to be a novelist and poet while holding down a job and being known to the security services as someone whose entire data has been harvested and used to enhance world warfare and games along spiritual lines while confronting those involved in these matters above the line and in public such as De Deepak Chopra and all those at EnlightenNext who followed his 2012 movement for it to be dissolved and Mind Body Spirit scrolls and scriptures like those ones kept in Scientology to be forever changed in the UK – and one presumes worldwide.

One of the salient points of my transformation under the doctrines of Ascended Masters and J Krishnamurti’s tenure as The World Teacher during my hospitalisations and medical under the NHS during 2013-2023 was not to hide things. I had experience of Sathya Sai Baba via a mixture of mystical and online relationships with him (Him?) and found that it was not worth role playing some imaginary Guru on social media and at the NHS’s behest that was deluded religiously. This religious statement goes on and is not something I can solve individually. It also affects other Hindus living in the UK who have had their careers tarnished with the undermining behaviour of Colonial England to martyr their record in the face of the House of Lords and a constitution that sings for Jerusalem and the Second Coming of Christ while experiencing forgetfulness due to alcohol and overworking as to what doctrine of divinity they are believing in while hiding in overseas work and diplomatic engagements.

In her first and only novel, my Mum ends the story with a lament about spiritual gurus and the corruption in the Mind Body and Spirit market that leaves nowhere to go for seekers and is so financially free to charge huge sums and fees. She highlights the role of cults in ruining lives and desecrates their record of peace she enjoys as a single woman and single parent of two sons and retiree to actually blame them for causing disquiet in her restful years and quite the source of heartbreak and pain. ‘Lovers Last Laugh’ is quite the read through of a woman seeking meaning through suffering and well worth the read.

At work there was a woman who resigned whose name was Theo Huxtable. This reminded me of what my brother once warned me about that this is no Cosby Show and that name was the eldest son’s name in the sitcom and got me thinking about celebrities and politicians whose carbon footprint on this earth is astronomical and whose legal fees are sky high and who have placed a burden on memory to hide their affairs yet once were like ordinary people who enjoyed the TV before they started learning how to exploit it to rule the populace. So by mentioning the TV Show which I enjoyed as a member of the lower classes I break with normal journalism and its convention of spying to enlarge sympathies and hell with the police writing and reading to make use of YouTube and the collective memory of mankind to provide for different sources for historical analysis aside from writing and photography while blogs updates themselves with literary references from social media and X, moving too quickly to take heed of the herd and the lower classes voices that want change we can believe in and don’t mind making America and England great again as long as their lives are not made too hard by journalists in the meantime.

I have had 15 lovers in my lifetime and had sex with 4 of them. The rest ranged from one night stands in nightclubs to socialising and heavy petting at parties. The memory of them still abides as does the sexual guilt: I was never so lost as a Healer as when I walked into a Jewish woman’s home as she was divorcing her husband and took over the rearing of her three children for a year and lost my career as one of the children’s tutors working in my best friend’s private English and Maths school. That was in 2010 and a classic example of how Maya distracts Narada from the spiritual and religious life and the classic devotee cries a bucket of tears before Krishna Bhagwan to recall the lesson of what Maya actually is.

My memory was not good after smoking Marijuana and the trauma of psycho-spiritual experiences since visiting India in 2002 that led me to the Fall of Man and the betrayal of Jehovah in the Garden of Eden for another relationship with a law student in between 2000-2005.

I was frustrated with love was Shiva’s ruling with Parvati and they recalled that I treated each woman as a god or as if there was something divine within them and eventually used my encounter with the NHS to give up woman for good and balance as Krishna warns me that ISKCON from the 1960s is not so liberal and much more strict than my individualism allows

What is a Buddhist monk’s consciousness like and how does it differ from a Hindu in an ashram and a Christian in a monastery? These questions are answered by reading my poetry in context and over the course of my life and in conjunction with the articles I have written. The Tibetans take exams at a certain stage of their development and these articles are written with those in mind and to update their theology to include the Judao-Christian ideals and consciousness as well as their formidable differences from Islam. The provision of free food in a Gurdwara promotes some mystery as to where this power comes from and is a stepping stone on realisation to the mysteries of Tibet that entranced visitors all those years ago before the Tibetan uprising in 1951.

My Little Area 51

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When I was young I bought Dances With Wolves book when I was in Canada: it was too hard for me to read. Krishna just appeared and said to treat this as that journal and the Americans as spying on my phone for Neo in the Matrix with Ritesh seeing The Borg and to use time to heal the “peasants” in China as J D Vance sees them as siding with like the Native American Indians.

Buddha said I can have all of his Mehta for this in 2013 and it was his fault for waking up an old student of his. He walked in to me the night I saw A Walk Among the Tombstones at the cinema with mum and explained that he walks in to the Dalai Lama and cracks him up laughing each morning. Satan was in the cinema that evening and I was not in a good state.

I’m going to use the phone as Spy Games that Jehovah told me he plays. Jesus tapped me on the shoulder when I was at a council scheme in Northfield Gym and said he is measuring me for being like him. That contributed to me being one of the greatest writers in the world.

Ritesh once told me he liked a Dennis Quaid film and I took it as a sign to myself that he was making a radio show to his son to find him somewhere – I went through a ritual in 2013 and imagined killing my son on the Egyptian pyramids and Rameses said he was a reformed Buddhist and that he had not been impressed with the Dalai Lama. He also said he was watching me to my eye sight for something I had read in a Deepak Chopra book about you being able to heal your own eyesight and that he was the second entry on the internet and Jehovah was the first one when you do a search and that Jehovah had a problem as a racist.

I was going to hand this document to Sam at Church and ask her to give it to the police but this is better after the work I online and gives me time to heal too and enjoy work.

Sati said the English are not evolving after EnlightenNext.

Guru Nanak said I should visit the Temples when I am 60.

Krishna said friends forget their names in 2013.

He said that this was a joke but the Bhagavad Gita As It Is is not a joke in 2013.

The following statements are for the UK police to enter my house safely and with a bearing that I am mentally safe and dont need NHS help with all the documentation they have on me with Mi5 after being concerned about my mother’s aloneness and behaviour in her retirement and decision to go into a Buddhist Vipassana retreat and what this could mean for our family when she returns home. The voices are capable of being part of my imagination (the poet William Blake created his own mythology) but have come to me since 2013 when I saw the energy of Krishna about 6 months before I went to hospital for Bipolar Disorder. Krishna considered this an explosion of the mind and signifying the end of my seeking and my enlightenment and pointed to me like a Buddhist teacher in the Zen stories today and then the student was enlightened. They are included here with fear of more problems with the NHS and the Police so that the concerned parties can have a sense of how a schoolboys search for spiritual enlightenment came true at the age of 36 and he had nobody to talk to like his brother who sits at the computer all day meditating, healing and praying.

Islam is claiming glory of the mother and Hinduism wants to make Devaki more famous in time.

I had my haircut in Northfield and the young Muslim called Adam brought to mind the Police who must be seeing how much I don’t know.

Krishna said I am having problems with nature.

My brother said he is having problems with time.

Krishna said for my karmas sake that he has come for my soul and to consider me in need of redemption but that I have a deficit in my life that I am actually a graduate seeking a mortgage and all I have actually done is go to Jones Day in 2003 and need to fear the loss of my imagination with the NHS.

Checkpoints: School and Holidays abroad as normal life.

Present time awareness for mental health review. This surveillance is affecting my working life.

Security alert – the Police cannot enter our home safely nor can members of aristocracy. This is an issue for court and Habeas Corpus and the police could see their inability to solve this problem as a sign of being under attack for HRH at the start of their name.

I want my own car – Peugot like the one I am driving with my instructor.

This information is worth money and people would pay good money to obtain contact with me.

I know of Channeling, Mind Reading, psychics, telepathy but not much else. As my present job shows I have been focussed on making it in life.

Arthur Findlay’s name comes up for British culture.

The Dalai Lama told me to regard Queen Elizabeth 2nd as him but in a Christian context and she has been visiting with me for some years now. I note she died at 96 – the age that Sathya Sai Baba failed to live until and there is some cosmic link to see her as spiritually powerful and King Charles has remarked that at times he had the same qualities as the Dalai Lama but nobody wanted to know.

Books have changed since 2012.

A lot of alien contact was had with London after 2012.

The Egyptian Gods have visited me to warn me about Nollywood and how they fear its influence on my life and Kali said to see a bigger picture of the black man and youth and basic racial profiling and how I can’t be too big or successful due to normal constraints. This is why Allah asked me to ask Him to let me live at home and let people come and see me for prayers and reputation and I have burned by bridges with a live nervous breakdown on social media dated 2017-204. This is my detail with Krishna so I can be held to be weak like Arjuna and raise the profile of Hindus in general.

I took my medication since 2013 and kept every appointment and experienced racism and how distant psychiatrists were from my life and cannot experience the NHS again. I don’t mind talking to consultants in conjunction with the Church of England but medical sales are at stake with the size of my database. I note that the Indian Psychiatry Association were in touch with me. I have experience of medicine and religious experiences in past life and cite the madness of Khalil Gibran as my like minded affinity for Sufi embrace of the supreme and not the madness of King George. I tried the Mood on Track course and thinking you are God is normal for a Hindu who is a sub atomic particle of God and wrestles with identity all the time.

Jehovah said he needs to get a hold of morality and that he is to be feared.

Krishna said he is the Jehovah and that I am just a little softy.

Spirit said that I am just a child and not to try and be someone – this is the problem with spirituality and goes to the Buddhism and the postmodern need to create an identity and stops me confronting the police after all the data and proof I have sent them to concur with phone records and details about my family from religious sources.

I had an affair with a married Jewish woman in 2010 and have been judged for this.

This is about spiritual powers.

I can’t make sense of what is going on in Selfridges in Birmingham town centre.

E-Commerce has not been looked at properly in Britain and I have found China has studied it with Jack Maa when I was writing and marketing my books.

Ritesh is enjoying a lovely relationship with his cat.

I have received Free Tibet documents in my house and was surprised by their tone and hostility.

My psychiatrist was concerned in writing about my hostility and did not treat me as a Hindu incarnation of God and wrote letters to my GP about me that I have not read.

I contracted diabetes while on psychiatric medication and my sugar levels have gone down and Krishna wanted me to prat to hi for this. Diabetes is reversible.

I am 48 and have not really lived since I left the College of Law in 2002. I feel sorry for Ritesh and feel trapped in the house like a prisoner.

Ritesh referred to himself as my sentry.

Shiva asked me not to turn to Buddhism and become a monk.

I hope this document finds some company for me and my family (just the three of us) and don’t mind Reverend Sam sharing it with people to get some insight after the police scaring Mum anymore and starting between me and Ritesh.

Dipak Mohan (Mum’s younger brother) is an issue with being a social worker and he would capitalise on the medical I did with the NHS and spoil things at the Shree Geeta Bhawan Mandir.

Ranvir Turner – older cousin – is a rivalry that would help with the police looking at his mum’s record with the NHS for how stuck things are in our family home.

August Osage Orange County is a good film with Native American Indian wisdom about how western families talk things out while we Asian families bottle things up and cause identity issues and problems with mental health.

Mum is 72 and very alone and I am concerned about how much news she watches and the negativity she pulls in from the internet reading world affairs in her retirement. She was a very good businesswoman and was influential speaking to Hindus and Muslims about me and Ritesh and turning down the money we could have made being religiously corrupt.

It is Kali Yuga in Hinduism and they are creating problems saying it is a Golden Age and Sathya Yuga under Shiva and this has caused policy changes with Donald Trump I have noticed.

I have seen Narendra Modhi coming in at our home. Spiritual experiences cause temporal displacement with your biological and family age being displaced.

Krishna was concerned about my psychological age.

Ghostbusters was on British TV in the 1980s with television shows in America about spiritual powers. We have had crossing over with Johnathan Edwards and are far behind them in the US my attitude has changed since spending time with the cult EnlightenNext and my spiritual experiences are increasing now and I cannot take any more medical advice from the NHS without discussing these things.

The NHS has changed my blood and physiology and has disrespected my mother.

I paid every credit card bill on time as a student and never paid interest.

I have a debt relief order on my HSBC loan since the 2000s.

I can still be a company director and my student loan was cancelled due to time.

My mum has been declared bankrupt.

Each year my mum brings up the date in April when we moved into our new home from being repossessed in Rubery with bailiffs.

I did not cry as a child and was always happy and could have been a friend to the Dalai Lama as Kundun I was so developed from prior births. I have used my karma to study sex and have passed on enlightenment to the Dalai Lama so he can advance his ways.

The Dalai Lama has said he will live 33 more years in the English Language. This means he is researching the life of Jesus for that is the age Jesus lived until.

Donald Trump elected an American Pope and took over the UK with GBNews and Nigel Farage buying the next election. I have been asked by God to help with Hindus being sidelined in the process and being abused by the NHS and the UKs relationship with God.

Pundit Dharam Dutt of Shree Geeta Bhawan stands to become a very important pundit over time as a result of my work and relationship with Ritesh. They were doing a lot of Vedic Pujas around 2012 to start the Golden Age and have stopped doing these for normal Mandir service. There are colonial photos on the website and I think there are military ties. He does not speak English to me and was not there to talk to me about mental health when the NHS bullied me and picked on how poor and disadvantaged my family are.

I am having driving lessons at the moment to get independent after passing my test and have a one year licence under medical review at the end of the year. I don’t feel like driving mum’s car to work on the motorway as it is too much space and emptiness and my mind cannot map destinations over such a long distance and I am scared of being alone on a motorway.

When I was on a barge I could feel the ocean through Reiki.

I cannot fly on a plane anymore due to cosmic consciousness and astral travelling and Shiva has asked for me to be kept in England.

Jehovah asked me to move to Israel.

Krishna asked for me to be treated as a spy.

My concern is that after 9/11 there was an American explosion online of spiritual teachers and the UK police had not got a read that bit there and just sign it here because you’re gonna be doing overtime okay? I’m going to raise a ticket fore which I need some information mobile number if possible.

The poet William Blake was teased about his mental health.

Mike Flexer from St Hugh’s College was a year below me at Oxford. He is now a Dr studying medicine and mental health and literature.

I find socialising very hard and can’t do it and find it introverts me on my self when all I have done is stay in doors and study.

The film A Beautiful Mind is a good reference point with one of my favourite actors Russell Crowe and points to healing I have done in the field of mental health with victims of ECT in the past.

I used to be Shantideva in a past life.

A new Gurdwara manifested in Smethwick a few years ago. They had Native American Indian dream catchers in it.

I have done healing of the Vietnam War with Krishna.

John Pilger made a documentary The Coming War on China.

Barack Obama was insulted by Bill Clinton as too young and inexperienced to be the Commander in Chief. Donald Trump has changed American elections since 2012 and has not touted any military experience. Vladimir Putin can end the wat in Ukraine.

The female healer Almine has served under the Russian government.

I am giving my information to Church FAO legal and security details so that space is created for a dialogue over time with Church.

I was being healed by a woman from Lemuria in Harborne who spoke out against Church corruption.

I would describe my experience of working and being out late in town and getting the bus as surreal. Sometimes I get scared and feel very lonely and cannot believe how isolated I am and feel worried for my future though Jehovah tells me to read the Bible and how he said will provide financially.

It has come to my attention that I have been spied on for a long time and am being used for a vessel for Jesus’s second coming as a joke from Krishna of how old a soul I am.

Jehovah told me that a war was brewing with China and asked me to stop it.

I have had visions of Donald Trump since he first took office. he was tied to Prashanti Nilyam with Sathya Sai Baba and spoke to me that nobody would feel sorry for me and wished I had written to him rather than emails I sent to the UK in 2013.

In 2013 I saw Krishna’s energy in my home.

I have visited the Philip Larkin pub in Coventry.

I don’t know if Ritesh could fly on a plane.

Me and Ritesh have accumulated over 30 years on benefits and Birmingham is the second financial capital of thw UK and has seen a lot of changes since I was enlightened in 2013 and am concerned about family corruption and don’t trust my mother’s 12 brothers ands sisters to deal with our adult lives. We are poor and they look down their noses at us and focus on the material life and the next big Indian wedding.

I want money and have been told by the Dalai Lama to create my own economy. I have researched the accounts at Shree Geeta Bhawan Mandir in Handsworth.

There is an African building opposite the Shree Geeta Bhawan with ANC colours on it which reminds me of when me and Ritesh used to study Malcom X.

Ritesh remembers more than me when we used to be called Pakis.

I am not more powerful than Sathya Sai Baba who impressed himself upon me in the 2000s via internet as a man with bad religious gifts and someone insulted by the BBC who do not accept God as a man with the House of Lords. A part of my temptation is to get me to be a false Guru. If I cannot take responsibility for myself how will I take responsibility for others?

I would have suffered in the afterlife because of the state of the world and rebirthed to perform sacrifices. I did not get a lot of rest between births and have been disturbed since birth.

I am an unstable OT in Scientology and have been regarded as OT15 by Sathya Sai Baba.

Until Krishna came in 2013 to see me I never had a bad word to say about Jesus.

Jesus told me that I did not study English at Oxford but that I studied Theosophy which is higher thinking and to be careful of Theosophists in the world and all the data there is out there about spirituality and to bring an end to Theosophy.

J Krishnamurti was said to be a vehicle for the Second Coming of Christ. He said it would take 800 years to understand his body. I studied him for about ten years and used him and online videos to help myself to enlightenment.

Sai Baba said to bear in mind that Indian children are less psychologically mature than western people. Bear in mind that art and Jesus and Bollywood and violence and sex. I don’t watch Bollywood but have seen it in the past. My mum has stopped watching Hollywood films and watches Bollywood on YouTube in the evening.

Me and Mum had a near fatal car crash in c.2015 on Shenley Lane.

Ritesh said he was in charge of Arcturus.

I can’t take ownership of my work at Atos.

The police contacted me across spy channels a long time ago when I was acting like Jack Bauer from 24 going rogue because of State corruption and there being no one to trust with the code: Protocol. This document is an effort to open a channel of communication that would suit my mother and brother and hopefully allow me to speak to my father in India again. I can write more and build up a case to become a person capable of being arrested and whose family is entitled to court proceedings. We need insurance for spiritual identities – the Indian film OMG is useful as is Billy Connolly’s film The Man Who Sued God. Jesus lamented I don’t read the Bible anymore and to stick to music books and films. I have seen about 1000 Hollywood films and Shiva said this was bad for my body min balance and sent me to hell.

This document is given to Church to give the police space and so there is not a repeat of the last incident where two female police officers knocked asking if I wanted to be seen by my CPN.

The NHS does not believe in past lives.

Jehovah said he would start a war if I did not get married.

Buddha said he started a war when he found out who I am.

Jehovah said there was an exorcism of me going on.

Reverend Fiona Harris was on copious amounts of medication at St Gabriels Church and so was Gary Sambrook MP of Northfield.

Jesus said to consider himself as spending all of his time with the police.

I can tell my phone is hot and the battery is running out quicker as I write this document and I am being spied on as I write it. My phone is making spelling mistakes and is slower than usual. This goes back to 2017-2020 when I wrote poetry and was active on social media online and punched codes into the phone for world leaders and the military.

Prince William’s pride in the British Army is at stake. Prince Harry is lost on YouTube and Afghan duty. I have stopped keeping up with world affairs. Rowan Williams is present more than Justin Welby as more mystical and spiritual than Reverend Welby.

A woman has just been elected the head of the Church of England during wartime.

We are only small England and are suffering for American power and Prince Harry’s move to America and marriage to a black woman is important here for the UK’s ties to Africa and what happened after 2012 when The Man failed to impress change upon the UK with Mind Body Spirit books with all the contempt and scepticism that Africans have for authority and their relationship with their relationship with Christianity.

J Krishnamurti said the brain is millions of years old.

The UK Civil Service needs to bear in mind Mi5 and go back to John Lennon and enquire if they need to chant Hare Krishna in their old age.

Rama has asked me to teach ISKCON.

I want to live in my home and not a Temple for political reasons.

I had a nervous breakdown not Bipolar Disorder and this falls under chapter 2 of the Bhagavad Gita.

In the Bhagavad Gita the mind is referred to as difficult to control as the wind. This is why I write badly and look like I have mental health problems. I want to find a language that fits.

I have no desire to go on holiday abroad to a sunny place and note my mind is full of adverts at the moment.

I am not a Tibetan monk.

Please accept this document as a request to become a police informant.

I have never had LSD or cocaine – only marijuana and cigarrattes and alcohol. I have stopped now. Ritesh took half a pill while he was at school. We both gave up smoking a few years ago.

I am researching the second coming of Christ and also the rebirth of Krishna in The Bhagavad Gita. I am trying to slow down and include other people and find the internet hard to control without drugs and meditation.

There are Political consequences to me worshipping in King Charles’s Church of England Church. When I was at Roman Catholic St Brigid’s in 2014 King Charles was in the Church newspaper. Jesus has asked me to bookmark this as Church history.

I defecated in a rubbish bag and threw it on St Gabriel’s Church. The Church has since closed down and there is a complaint about architectural problems there.

PM Cameron said that he was an evangelist for Christian England.

Pope Francis has written a Biography since I started work and said he could see that I was looking at World War Three and Dante. He has asked the police to note that when all the exicting work is done all that is left is a Church and some simple things and family actions around it. Jesus said Ritesh has come a long way from when we used to have a bazaar at St Brigid’s and Buddha said not to say anything bad about him.

Robin Clark of KEFW said that I was like Vanilla Sky and that he wanted me dead because he was jealous of me since school and my success as School Captain.

Shiva said to see myself as a Daoist and to be friends with Krishna under ISKCON in the Dao.

Allah said to see myself as doing comparative religion and to avoid heresy.

Spirit said to see myself as in Revelations under Krishna.

The ghost of Audrey Hepburn visited me and said she was concerned about her afterlife.

Buddha said he is in Kali Yuga with the devil.

It might help you to see me as someone who’s references are films and some books. I have lost the memory of much that I read at Oxford but some texts stand out as context for a policeman to get his bearings. This in turn may help them see me as my mum’s son and handle the fact that I can’t grow up due to various factors and cite the Bible verse about remaining a child in the Kingdom of Heaven by Jesus as my authority. I am not a guru in the sense of having power over marriages and births tough I affect a lot of what goes on around me and contest Bipolar Disorder as too narrow a definition. I would prefer depression and some older instances of schizophrenia which allow for spiritual experiences as hallucinations. I see a lot of energies and images relating to heaven and hell and fear this is only going to increase as I age and am seeking support for my mind to age in time.

I fear as a poet that I am going to be as significant as John Milton and William Blake in redrawing heaven and hell and have come to move Shakesepeare on and help with the education process. I cite Khalil Gibran and racism as he noted as the third best selling poert of all time. When I was in London I noted that Foyles on Tottenham Court Road had a vast ethnic bookshelf and Eastern Literature was quite popular and Chinese and Japanese literature is influenced by the Mind Body and Spirit section of the bookshop.

I cannot read and concentrate.

Ritesh’s typing speed is very slow.

Ritesh marked himself on Facebook as an intergalactic christ, Ascended Master and Spiritual King.

Ritesh has not worked since 1999 and was medicated by the NHS appropriately.

Santosh is attending a Vipassana meditation retreat to align with her younger years of Transcendental Meditation from the 80s with friend Lakshmi who now lives in Australia and since then mum has served under Nirmali Devi as a student of Shaktism.

Travelling to work marks me as a householder and experience spiritual experiences at my desk involving the Dalai Lama and Oxford university will just be treated by ISKCON as normal sinful reactions.

If you want to eat meat Srila Prabhupada siad to pray to Kali.

There are three 5G towers in close proximity to St Gabriels and St Gabriel is listed as the patron saint of telecommunications. I was furiously active online from 2017-2020. Ritesh had not had a mobile phone or smartphone for a long time.

Ritesh and I are being measured for Cain and Abel as Raam and Lakshmana in so far away and I don’t speak Hindi and we don’t practice Hindi rituals and have deep rivalry as healthy older men for worldy success that has not yet been processed.

I have not been using my laptop in a very long time to research the world and would have it listed that biased parties want me to hide the internet from me and beget from my focussed American views. I cite Nigel Farage’s relationship with Fox News and Donald Trump and Kier Starmer’s reticence as issues relating to my use of the internet when I experienced a lot of racism and was cited by Amazon Books to be influencing the American election.

The NHS undermined my identity as a schoolboy and did not address my youth and localised self with KEFW within walking distance.

John Marston spent two years visiting me after I was hospitalised in 2013. We did not discuss anything religious.

Until recently my mother and I have had a common bond of going to the cinema since the late 1990sn and this is something looked down on by contemporary religious figures. Mum has been a religious victim of social stigma by being divorved from a profitable Indian businessman who moved back to India in 2000. She had a long term relationship with a Muslim man to my brother’s disdain and she was rejected by her 13 brothers and sisters for it and he was not allowed at family events.

Professor Jeff Cole my uncle recently passed away and I attended the funeral with my mother. The Lord’s Prayer was spoken even though he was an atheist.

My aunty Sata passed away and I visited her in the hospital with Mum before she did. There was a religious ceremony at Shree Geeta Bhawan which I did not attend on the day of the funeral. Pundit Dharam Dutt noticed to my mum that she had not been attending since me and mum and brother have stopped going after experiencing politics there with the Mohan clan and my spiritual status as an Avatar and Mystic.

The inspiration for writing was very well portrayed in Jerry Maguire when the protagonist wrote a mission statement under the influence of wish fulfilment and ego and desire.

I am worried about the energies in my house when Ritesh and myself are left on our own when Mum goes on Vipassana retreat. Ritesh had met the Dalai Lama when he went on pilgrimage to India in the 1990s when he was a karate champion. My mother does not like him very much and is simple in her views of his disrespect for authority and status as a politician. My father was present with the Dalai Lama when Ritesh cried upon meeting him and was startled by the American who laughed out loud and put his arm around him while Ritesh was penitent.

12/11/2025

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It’s like asking Paul Ready, Bryan Dick, Damien Arnold and Simon Quarterman to believe in Jon Bon Jovi. It’s like asking Robin Clark to believe in Sting so he can grow up to be like him and occupy angelic realms under King William. That’s what I am having egg thrown in my face for. That’s the game. That I am a wallah introducing them to God and the heaven and hell at their stage of life when they grew up with me and knew what I was about then – and dare say I say it never mind the girls and the sexuality that leaves me open to bad memories today.

When you see that your read does not know your subject matter, you’re a good writer.

I recall Jehovah startling me when I was in Tazetta Suite mental hospital with his declaration We Love the 80s. As Christmas approaches it seems so far away and the commercialism is tinged with so much cynicism and isolation that depression and mental health is a necessary corollary of the government getting involved in the capitalists nightmare before Christmas. But the sincere good will and generous spirit that was available and the cheer and festive spirit was also available in the sports and the status that celebrities had around the business. I do not know the business world as I was too young but the musician seemed to be quite controlled with electronic experiences on Top of the Pops for the role the Pope is now trying to have with King Charles.

When will he have a State visit in our country and include us in his Americana? It seems that time has past and elapsed to bring an end to the criticism that the nature of a businessman levied against buoyant optimism of the 1980s to forgive and forget the time period as one that is worth capturing and remembering as selective memory to return to if and when needed for future monarchs and to explain to the young Royal Family as to what it felt like and was indeed ‘back then’.

Shiva is Krishna’s father: It is important to remember this about Mahdev. And there is nothing more that he wants for us than better mental health and an understanding of this period in our recent history and the benefits of having been blessed to grow up then is something Ritesh has kept up to date with and is due to be in service to be asked about when his time comes. Whether this will actually occur is not mine but Allah’s to will and He will accordingly select the time and place for disclosure of what has been our family’s sake and safe keeping all these years far away from the maddening crowds that have given in to mass consumerism much to the chagrin of our sensitive and delicate small family: our father survives these memories of the 1980s and his presence is in tact and so is his self against this backdrop in England

Dealing with spies it is important you realise one is dealing with real human beings and the likes of ISIL cause worry and concern to us all. I am not eloquent in this matter but trust in our security services to provide for us from London downwards to keep us safe and within our perimeters so that our American neighbours can carry out their much larger security sweeps and operations without hindrance. This does not do away with the stress that Americans cause us and under my mother suffer in her small house; but it mitigates the public sympathy for the enemy and the outcaste to remain at bay and to do the best they can to form political dialogue and conversation that holds up to memory and reason as and when it can do.

For the likes of Dr Pillai to get past security again and try to survive their lives it is necessary for me to disclose Jehovah’s interest in him and commentary on his link with the Light as like a feather and as light and airy as that: While Abishek Bachchan and Aishwarya Rai are rejected by Him and are people that He does not want – for what this is worth and who reads it and pays attention to my small, puny and trivial concerns in the world and of life. It’s hardly as if I am Richard Attenborough detailing evolution or science and its needs is it? It is strange who causes what in the world today and how these reactions are mixed up with so many things.

I repeat: I could not have been there the day 9/11 happened as it was a day at The College of Law when Joseph Combes came out of lectures to tell me that it had happened. I was not in course at that time and need to talk to the army about this as in the evening Sting behaved strangely by hosting a show for his audience and switching off power to a live broadcast online at the same time. This is recorded in his All This Time DVD and video recording complete with Yo Yo Ma contribution to the song Fragile. The College of Law is not open on 9/11 and this is still sticking out in my memory as something important as is the fact that Ritesh could not be in front of me now but for space time anomalies because he was not in the sixth form on paper when I joined the school four years younger than him but was wearing sixth form clothes on my first day there? This I remember vividly and we did not spend 4 years in the same school together.

With all that we have done together over the last 20+ years since 9/11, I feel worthy of the pilgrimages and ceremonies that we have performed and people we have been to visit under our mother’s guidance. It is enough for one parent to suffer this – why complicate matters and involve my father? Further I feel worthy of being in Ritesh’s presence and the Arcturus Intergalactic Christ and Ascended Master of the maybe 7th dimension he has held himself out to be online. The self is amost glorious thing: As Krishna Bhagwan states and this is something to behold with Ritesh – someone who will never be replaceable should we live to outgrow his affection for poverty and move on to another plane of evolution – one where death cannot bother him and make him worry about the state of his son/ younger brother and his affection for his parents and attachment and roots that go very very deep indeed; so deep that they cannot be uprooted for the work Jehovah wants to do on them in the future and explain the reclamation of Rohan’s wonderful self in the same way as Ritesh has served humanity in silence too.

Writing is reading: Saussure said so. Don’t then think you’re a vessel emptying out as you read online and then think you are writing and emptying your cup again! This is foolish and leads to visions of ghouls and frightening monsters craving the body and the light. Be strong and see to it that you carry yourself with the dignity of someone who has achieved being a reader and can tell the difference between correct and illusory experiences he is having in comparison to someone else who is just going through the run of the mill and seeking safeguarding from mental health problems: The issue is one of advancement and the self does not like to hold on to achievement so it I am it throwing it away like Krishnamurti said to – but this has to stop and a slowing down occuring for the sake of death and memory so I can record what is happening as I read and write.

There is a viewpoint of God-Centred which transfers itself into the centre of civility – London Downing Street / Birmingham town centre and looks back at where one is situated and tries to reflect on the here and now – why are things the way they are? what are people doing and how do they get through the day? where are they going and what will they need to get there? and who are they different to me and other people and how do they differ from the rest of humanity?

This point of view is endemic in humanity and the dictated class reaching out of their self to try to come back into their self wirth awareness and better perspective and puts a tremendous strain on the human load as it tries to reason out what God is doing from the centre of humanity before it offloads onto charity and the African goodwill:

This perspective places a tremendous gap between people and places them far apart from each other while also situating them right next to each other because of the God centred activity being undertaken. It is against this background that one engages in education and further to compartmentalise oneself against too much freedom and free reign of the mind and its outer edges of humanity and gains a degree in some sort of speciality that comes from a British university guided by renaissance ideals and the will of the Monarch to award good merit to those who practice regulated Christian values:

The individual can offload his worry to this larger perspective and see himself as a cog in the wheel for the whole gambit of humanity governed by the State running the livelihood realm and being a participant in the individuals existential doubt and confusion to the level that it can clarify some confusion and provide for the role of the self in life.

This means that the individual does not need to be so forlorn and post but can open the door to bring the shepherd in as the Lord to guide oneself through the routine that is civilisation.

The individual does not need to be so concerned about himself as he can relate his daily concerns about the cosmos to the group knowing the education system works its way down from the university to the ordinary man with great aplomb and instils the values of Britain in the individual along the way. He does not need to be so atomistic or even artistic in his uniqueness and can relate his God-centred consciousness to a model that supports his way of life without resorting to eastern modes of being and getting lost in searching for deeper ways of existence without resorting to Yoga and being one with God in the process of being and becoming in time. His reliance on the education system will dovetail into working life and keep him far from the edges of the mind and consciousness and back in the centre of his own life without worrying what his eastern neighbours think of his God centred mindset from a poor perspective and level of wealth without a structure of followers to level out the playing field.

Seeing the eastern fellows in the mix is part of the God centred effort to draw back learning and perspective from the model of civilisation presented to the mind’s eye. They mix with the African people and their roots are stronger in our country and the Middle Eastern people take over the Indian roots to dominate the conversation. Islam is the buzz word and this is code for immigration in the news these days and a constant reminder to be vigilant about one’s mind and perspective in a Christian land.

Against the backdrop and context of this geo-political view of humanity, the God centred perspective pulls back the view of fate and destiny to deal with a special purpose that and individual has with Free Will to guide oneself into another perspective of the self that needs grounding and balance from getting to involve in other cultures and getting lost. The individual is withdrawn and does not want to partake in ordinary duties because the global perspective is so polluted with African or Middle Eastern racisms and the Chinese bloc getting in the way with American diatribes against them – or he is involved in grander delusions of grandeur about his role in a God Centred perspective with the heavens looking down on his perspective and shaping his view of humanity and his role in life and therein his life’s path in the grand scheme of things.

This role of life can shape the individual to become more religious and spiritual and help him govern his mind while also leading him astray and too aloof from his daily duties and brethren to complete his daily tasks with great skill and relevance to the news worthy gambit of humanity.

The news enters in as a general psychosis to measure the worth of the individual and needs to be balanced with one too many for the health of the nation

There is a viewpoint of God-centred activity which transfers itself into the centre of civility – London Downing Street/ Birmingham town centre and looks back at where one is situated and tries to reflect on the here and now – why are things the way they are? what are people doing and how do they get through the day? where are they going and what will they need to get there? and who are they different to me and other people and how do they differ from the rest of humanity?

This point of view is endemic in humanity and the dictated class reaching out of their self to try to come back into their self with awareness and better perspective and puts a tremendous strain on the human load as it tries to reason out what God is doing from the centre of humanity before it offloads onto charity and the African goodwill:

This perspective places a tremendous gap between people and places them far apart from each other while also situating them right next to each other because of the God centred activity being undertaken. It is against this background that one engages in education and further education to compartmentalise oneself against too much freedom and free reign of the mind and its outer edges of humanity and gains a degree in some sort of speciality that comes from a British university guided by renaissance ideals and the will of the Monarch to award good merit to those who practice regulated Christian values:

The individual can offload his worry to this larger perspective and see himself as a cog in the wheel for the whole gambit of humanity governed by the State running the livelihood realm and being a participant in the individuals existential doubt and confusion to the level that it can clarify some confusion and provide for the role of the self in life.

This means that the individual does not need to be so forlorn and post but can open the door to be bringing the shepherd in as the Lord to guide oneself through the routine that is civilisation.

The individual does not need to be so concerned about himself as he can relate his daily concerns about the cosmos to the group knowing the education system works its way down from the university to the ordinary man with great aplomb and instills the values of Britain in the individual along the way. He does not need to be so atomistic or even artistic in his uniqueness and can relate his God-centred consciousness to a model that supports his way of life without resorting to eastern modes of being and getting lost in searching for deeper ways of existence without resorting to Yoga and being one with God in the process of being and becoming in time. His reliance on the education system will dovetail into working life and keep him far from the edges of the mind and consciousness and back in the centre of his own life without worrying what his eastern neighbours think of his God centred mindset from a poor perspective and level of wealth without a structure of followers to level out the playing field.

Seeing the eastern fellows in the mix is part of the God centred effort to draw back learning and perspective from the model of civilisation presented to the mind’s eye. They mix with the African people and their roots are stronger in our country and the Middle Eastern people take over the Indian roots to dominate the conversation. Islam is the buzz word and this code for immigration in the news these days and a constant reminder to be vigilant about one’s mind and perspective in a Christian land.

Against the backdrop and context of this geopolitical view of humanity, the God centred perspective pulls back the view of fate and destiny to deal with a special purpose that an individual has with Free Will to guide oneself into another perspective of the self that needs grounding and balance from getting to involve in other cultures and getting lost. The individual is withdrawn and does not want to partake in ordinary duties because the global perspective is so polluted with African or Middle Eastern racisms and the Chinese bloc getting in the way with American diatribes against them – or he is involved in grander delusions of grandeur about his role in a God Centred perspective with the heavens looking down on his perspective and shaping his view of humanity and his role in life and therein his life’s path in the grand scheme of things.

This role of life can shape the individual to become more religious and spiritual and help him govern his mind while also leading him astray and too aloof from his daily duties and brethren to complete his daily tasks with great skill and relevance to the news worthy gambit of humanity.

The news enters in as a general psychosis to measure the worth of the individual and needs to be balanced with one too many for the health of the nation.

Article 11/11/2025

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That spiritual teacher in me is the devil from Sai Baba’s Banyan Tree barking at people and telling them what to do and who to be as opposed to seeing them as human characters developing their own way of thinking in relation to what I have in my field in the first place and what I have to say.

The reality that he said you cannot have a Hindu incarnation of God in this country due to the House of Lords is something that spoke true when the U.K. filmed Secret Swami and exposed his corruption. Theirs is an economy based on science and reason and due process where they are done with the problem of Revelation which I have uncovered and need to submit to God for medical testing to ensure that I am rational and sane.

To say that I am God is to open up the whole curriculum of U.K. universities and this is angering to the English Law Lord and stresses him out and puts him ill at ease with his good food for lunch and dinner – which is to go to show that ISKCON is young and immature in its growth and development and is troubling the Man too much with White Juhu from Sowtto Kinch showing the bartering that Apartheid born babies feel they have with the establishment for a racism beyond reason: And he can’t forgive himself for his role in their fate and has self loathing and guilty consciences.

And when English is all about communication the transferred reality of my object when I am writing is God all to quickly and this is a stressful endeavour to meet my audience as the Western Englishman too readily fair conflict and semantic realisation that is a quip away from his very educated gait and stance as someone well berated in the ways of his Royal Family and Parliament without the burden of globalised culture via Social Media in the hands of ethnic minority of my education and upbringing.

This creates space for a writer in 2015 and by 2017 I was updating his AI systems online to prepare a way for my consciousness to be examined in lightof the NHS designation of religion as a defining factor in my mental and physical illnesses and contagion in life. This spreading is like the Matrix film in the lucid dreaming realm and I struggle with the We-ness of this existence for th inferior status I hold by way of statistics and then ebb and flow to assert my superior self for want of actually dealing with the issue which is more widespread than I actually give the England I grew up in and learned this consciousness credit for.

It was the prophecy from the likes of Sai Baba that convoluted my consciousness and distanced myself from the Other and my Shadow to face my reality myself and be responsible for my basics and right livelihood no matter what this pulls in by way of culture and an obnoxious self that grew up on a diet of 80s films and culture and 90s internet and dot com boom or bust: This leads to the shit shut down of the Y2K phenomenon isolating and silencing me until I was ready to write in the past and am able to do so again.

Daily I prepare to talk to people. It is stressful and I am grateful. For the medical interference in my life – however this adds up the upheaval itself.

Seeing data travel not by my written word but by the OCI computing model is a revelation. It calms me down and soothes me to see how things work and for example seeing the vast amount of SEX that the internet is responsible for dealt with by Level 4 and Transport Layer and losing fear of being technical and not being understood by my audience or reader will go a long way to helping me communicate with other people and developing trust between myself and others and indeed beyond myself to see the work being done out of my hands and reach so that I can switch off. Layer 4 streams all the films and pornography and this is a cultural shift I am ready to educate myself about more and see the recent past in the light of and ease the burden on my imagination about what the big men and players in the world affairs actually deal with, just a little bit – rather than frowning on them and putting them down for social class issues and leaving my life at their footsteps and making the responsible for me totally: This had to happen with the medical crisis I went through and hopefully my writing will disclose some support for the educated state to reroute my blog to those who need it directly and indirectly by way of support and help in areas that people need it in life creative to my small world and the large effort things are for me to realise.

In the end Hare Krishna will win as having been instrumental in my life and that is what is needed from my effort to the world leaders more of and not the interference of data and information sharing via computer internet intelligence – this is a point already laboured by others and I see the role of a writer to interconnect things that he does not deal with directly or himself as speciuos and amoral for world leaders to detach from the outcome of writing and not view it as important – something I mistook in my search for God and the Logos rewarded me in kind with stressful lifestyle I need to get a hold of now and manage my life better with mum in charge of me at home and Ritesh also too. What will become of my voiceless father is not known to me in prayer which is all I can do as I rebuild like and look forward to the future. Yesterday I missed my counselling session and ended up making a journey in writing so hopefully that will bear fruit in the We.

I think that is what Prince William meant when he asked if We Could Do This: With “this” being the operative word – what the Americans do with Buddhist thought and Vedic scriptures. Their ability to translate the cinematic experience from a Christian background is considerably different to the UK which is more conservative and rooted in tradition of castles and colonies. The result is a dependence on AI that is weird at best and frightening at worst for its exponent of the Unknown and fear of the unknown is language that the mental disciplines in the US use a lot more than the UK whihch is reserved to talk at all let alone about the mind and its use in everyday contemporary reality while it continues to do business at great wealth in the corporate world – something that may annoy other neighbours for the youth movement in our country taking from the contemporary culture paid for by data transfers of the elder statesmen but not actually returned with income for the old stuffy ways of the west and their dependence on World War Two narratives while profiting from eastern conflict and warfare in the meantime.

Nobody knows their actual communications and travels with the east but their dependence on American culture typified by Donald Trump being on TV more than UK royals or MPs and the PM is about that phenomenon and the take over of UK culture allows the UK to inherit its allies enemies and roots such as China, The Middle East and China. The strain this places on the human brain and mind to concentrate is excruciating and not something the UK looks prepared for with the Royal Family and the UK politicians being lead by Nigel Farage and his take over of the media. The mind is all the while being tainted to be taken out of the present moment and the body and strained to take part in understanding things with a bit of information in a liberal education economy with strict rules of grammar and economics. The past is always referent as one is loathe to have been educated the way that one has turned out to be inferior to the TV stars and those that puppet Christian England today. Though one slows downs and looks around the corner at Islam and the history of the Crusades one is thankful for the difference and the stress that protects us from our Islamic oppressors and what is a benighted religion when translated into English – far from Christian reason and temperance and the evolution of culture throughout the ages.

It was American battlements as Christians that caused our country to be flooded with immigrants as other nationos wanted assurances that they would not get left behind if the Americans continued to battle Islam the way they did internationally and see the Other and racism with Oreientals as basically the same as Muslims from an ethnic point of view.

AI is changing the way we think at rapid and alarming rates and the past is being erased without memory and the imagination is being challenged to not exist for the realities of George Bush’s foreign policy expansionist warfare campaigns that dragged the UK into the mud with Iraq and Afghanistan instead of dialogue that would have benefitted the AI systems instead of relying on imagery and the use of the fear of the unknown and a lack of dialogue in the first place.

The Chinese establishment has not abandoned their roots while their young struggle for meaning with rhetoric mode of modern life. The American and English leaders however have abandoned Christianity and spent no time with their citizens to explain their affection for different cultures and now that is boring entrusted to Russell Brand and Ricky Gervais because Christianity is a complete entity and has been augmented and defined and classified so it is being left behind as not worthy and something that allows a Jew like Natalie Portman to rise up on prominence in spite of not realising that many films were in the country. What of Julia Roberts or Angelina Jolie or Michele Pfeiffer? How are their religiously obsolete in the face of Evolutionary tendencies seeking Ebola virus scares and investment in the modern age?

Gaming is another thing that is threatening the cultural imbalance as making the mind work too quickly and celebrating change when we have actually not travelled anywhere. It makes me miss my mother as I fear losing her to AI.

If you think you’re being spied on, you probably are.

They say that my generation was very noisy growing up and full of sounds and opinions compared to previous ones. How that has changed down the line is anybody’s guess for the amount of attention my generation received growing up in the 1980s and the golden era of American TV. This has fizzled out and the corset is backing fashion with a big budget production of Amadeus on satellite and Benedict Cumberbatch starring in the show. The role of mentor is clear and the millennials are taking up umbrage that they have been left out and ignored in the struggle for independence and information. Theirs is not a world so seduced by celebrities other than the sleep that prior generations let them be heir to: As my generation bought the football salaries and film star roles and fought back against western government and capitalism in balanced and imbalanced measure.

The generation at present has the environment to back itself with interdependence and connections around the world that the celebrities mockingly and lovingly in different degrees depending on who you are and what your background is dealing with. They also have the global cause of terrorism which was in its infancy as the PLO threatened Israel in the 1980s and 1990s while we were still in school and choosing what to make of Apartheid.

The good Lord had asked for me to write as a result of being born a child under Apartheid and this has been a dominating factor in how I was raised by school and authority. These articles will parts of essays that I will flesh out under his guidance that I take better care of myself as a struggling writer with an individual consciousness. That is all it is. The search for meaning came out of a fractured background and one in torment for many elders around me – look at my internal wrangling I am going through in my 40s and see the teachers around me at school quite capable of sensitivity towards a British Asian of Indian descent – and for that balance to escape my passion which dominated my life as I searched for a place in the world of work where couples are dominant and married life is the normality.

With the apprenticeship looking I feel more confident that I will be possessing the tools required of me a single man for life to be in a workplace and to fit in and around the affairs of others with the role afforded to me of being a writer – as this will help keep me in check with their normal day to day gatherings and family/ friends and social life that I have forgone in the name of God and religious understanding. This is fine if managed correctly and just makes me like them as Mr Beech was at school – Reverend of Religious Studies while other staff and students worked around him and accepted him as he was.

I recall Martin Barlow and not really taking to him very well and he was eventually expelled from school and suffered an early death due to a car crash in Europe. Mr Beech chose to visit me and him on work experience and I wonder what he would have made of my racially divided self today – full of doubt and self worry about how I welcome other people into my field: I say proper people for they are in positions of authority and power and I am not. He would say I am doing great and to have faith in the Lord to provide for me and to step away from too much eastern effort and to embrace the England of our youth and write away to your hearts content until you finally get paid for what you do and then strike some bargain with some fellow or chap about what direction to go in.

It’s okay. And the spying is just ambition as a result of using the iPhone: it had started up again before you nipped it in the bud this morning with some meditation and prayer renouncing the fruits of your actions correctly and only being responsible for your local little self.

Writing is not an exorcism. It is not an exercise in responsibility’s role in your life of actually taking up charge with your heaviest behaviours and making changes in your life as to what you do and don’t so. It is signposting what you need to do and these signposts can overwhelm the mind to worry about medication needs and light working; but you’re doing fine and need to update your website for actual practical matters dealing with your life and to get out of the theory of signposts and into practice. Amen.

Article 27/07/2026

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Everything seems to have changed. It could be that I am more attuned to this change and my imagination is outward looking due to subjective wandering for social status. But the staff at Jones Day are incarnate in the realms as driving my desire for enlightenment and dealing with the Royal Family is not easy but for the break in reality caused by the Americans and their general psychosis for the Spirit interacting with material nature to keep me in check and to keep seeing the light. The staff at Dog’s Trust are there in Kali Yuga’s realms and turning over to bypass the jump forward I made with Enlightennext and Hare Krishna to see the world as possessing these traits and embodying this change in life when in fact they are Muggles and would shop and play football for the mere fact of not letting social media dictate to them what they do in life and be bound by the nation and be nation centric and me focussed to not be bothered by upwardly mobile spiritualism to direct the life of God into each house but to see it at every footstep and every outfit. These are not the things that make this wise learned and during enlightenment chop wood and drink water seems to be the best advice.

The tosser and pulling machine is now the successful class pivoting to his elder as having been suffered in the world war and my lot are nowhere to be seen. This is an odd level of independence and reminds me of how I envied his sexual prowess and sought to imitate him through the movies and search for love and marriage outside of the caste system.

Today it seemed like I had not grown up. The timeline behind me is one of my imagination busy with the heads of people imagined to be in my life from the past. It has however been a solitary affair and only my mother and brother have been in it constantly. I have been chasing those shadows and have seen the fruitless goals and dreams they carried. For once I feel something worthwhile is opening up inside my home and I do not want to waste it.

Death has been a sturdy reminder of what life has to bring and the air of the ghastly spectre is to fathom an awakening of shock to bring me to my knees before The Creator to beg his mercy in the meantime and peace of mind with which to cope with plans for funerals and such things and the panic I feel inside of me to be abated like my brother seems to have solved the problem and occasionally seems to lapse and let go. My mother is the most sanguine in this light and again I feel like a child to cope with the practical nature of death far from ego renunciation and the philosophies I have had merry times with in the past. May God speed my mind to better times and my life to more repose and quietitude.

Writing deep things and poems like The Nothing Brigade could be courting disaster as these things get likes on WordPress by younger selves who could echo that you seem to know what these things are about so where is the big idea now? Is this a writer’s life and does the self face blackmail to know all and is this what Jehovah meant when he said something about soul omniscience? The pressure to have all the answers and be ready for life when being seen to write to that effect and be invulnerable to the naked eye watching your success? This success is related to the phone as well and the phone is a mobile computer with opportunities for success and wealth as one uses it and its connection to the worlds of others – how far this is from my simple life and how painful to use and be connected to. The iPhone connects potentially up anyone’s phone across the world of any wealth and stature and age grouping and this is an embarrassment to the search for a quiet life and quiet mind and a mirror of one’s own expectations as one sees one’s life in one’s minds eye. I have had my brush with fame with Bon Jovi, Patrick Stewart and Natalie Portman all contacting me in my bedroom with only my iPhone and years of writing behind me with no normal contact to speak of. This was not good and passed painfully to boot and was an embarrassment to me. Not in the least because it was my shadow that actually wants to get rich quick and be famous. It wants quick change of circumstances and to move house and celebrate: Take part in Church services and be well to do and play a popular part in the Mandir and have all of one’s internal problems solved.

This is illusion and grand delusions of grandeur. I cannot stomach this change and could not go through such a rapid turn around but it has nonetheless been troubling my mind and making me feel uneasy for some years now and since those celebrities contacted me I have been feeling unwell and panicked to publish rubbish and be I’ll thought out of as a self enterprise with the American way of life staring back at me from all those emails I sent out.

This search for fame has been echoing my thoughts back to me and sending my concentration skewered as I found out that I focussed irregulary ahead of me and was looking around here and there for such and such phenomenon to strike it quick due the computer and internet/mobile phone: This is the multiverse and I can see it more clearly now that have written it out. Hopefully using WordPress as opposed to TikTok and Instagram will abate this issue as will delayed posting from the time of writing too (too self conscious).

I feel watched by celebrities and can see the spy self that they inhabit making art for their national leaders. This mind expanding perspective warrants some rest and consideration.

It was just a messenger or a social media video but it was a strain this placed on my mind that was frustrating and I cannot stomach seeking no excuse for as it is the dream of every writer to make it rich and be famous: But surely there are mitigating factors with the smartphone affecting how one writes or if one writes at all with the effect that one does not write with pen and paper?

They were my dream come true from childhood which means to pick better dreams in the future: And to manage my adult life more responsibly and perhaps get a job in the meantime to better sort through my time and affairs.

Stress.

Article 29.04.2025

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What am I so sure is wrong with my poetry?

Confidence.

It’s you feeling bad about your life and painting everything as all in one in your poetry and seeing the poetry as existence itself again and blaming others for your work practice. Otherwise known as writer’s block and creative suffering and problems with your art workload.

Going to Church is a matter of confidence – not praying to get what you want or some religious practices that will help you in this matter. Church is for life and is interwoven with this confidence problem I am having seeing entering all jumbled up an Id interconnected which is a theme of my poetry so it leads to Amazon breakthroughs and that is why I don’t want to read the subject matter that caused me pain and suffering and get worried and anxious about it.

What is experience meant to look like?

What is the experience of someone who asks this question?

It is one where he sees comparison and compares himself to others in his environment because the questioner is built upon that comparison. It is mechanics. It is doing this with AI and computing recognising the need for human sacrifices and examples to justify the use of the imagination which was also engaged in carnal lists of experience based on lust and sexual desire. It normalises and eases into the now

How do I edit my poems?

What is the goal in sitting down to edit poetry I have not read in years? Is my poetry about me as the writer and not the literary subject with a form and definite object of a structured piece of writing before him?

I wanted there to be something special about my way of perception so much, I hoarded books to show my regimented intellect. I traversed worry like a caressed blanket covering a swamp of understanding. I harboured guilt under a covering of masculinity for all to see.

It’s an online legal drama with the consciousness of social media since the 1990s informing the reader about the British Asian voice.

What is the question by which all others are answered? How is this forwarded by you ivory tower approach to the news?

It would seem that the NHS has been blackballed and COVID has passed and the news is none the wiser about conspiracy and religion. What was surely a divine retribution to judge our world leaders and exact revenge on humankind for their treatment of Spirit is behind us and it is business as usual at the top and the Americans are continuing where George Bush Jr left off – dominating the airwaves with war rhetoric and Donald Trump and declaring tariffs on all who pass its ways.

This leave the BBC to watch in awe as Nigel Farage steals his way to the next election after talks with the Trump empire to model the UK on America and Fox News to stall the ordinary man’s emotional growth and the multicultural views of our nation have been set off and do not reflect on our nationalised TV sets. GB News is on too much and the citizens of our country are televised in an effort to fill the TV so that adverts can make revenue for the big fat cats and the Royal Family can concoct some engagement for themselves with Environmentalism while Bloomberg News screams about AI.

Against this backdrop, I am reviewing my medical record and the statement “Rohan Rishi believes he is a Hindu incarnation of God.” When such is the business of the NHS and its staff with Drs and Nurses exploiting my education with a Hello How Are You Doing Approach to healthcare and no real situational discussion about religion and experience I am empirically aware that I am a Hindu incarnation of God and that all Hindus are one and have that burden to bear before the Yoga of our age.

Do I need scruples to discuss whether it is my belief that I am divine or not when the organisation was too busy and over stretched to see if I matter and leave me to my mother’s care and brother’s devoted love and attention: What would my father have said if he was in the country? It’s your opinion that makes the difference and if you don’t believe you are divine then what has the past 25 years been like since you left the safe cloisters of Oxford University? By all accounts London is not the same after COVID and the scene looks like a wreck for what you left behind in the Gunas in 2000-2002 and if that means I could fill Wembley Stadium like in Dr Ernie van Woerkhom’s dirty mind when he made a joke in 2013 before diagnosing me with a dangerously overactive thyroid – it seems the UK will charge the invesitgation of subjectvity to the NHS for the rest of my life if I don’t take up arms against the sea of samsara and seize my own destiny to the degree that it manifests for me to do so.

An opportunity is opening up to do some work in IT and I am not loathe to learn about cybersecurity Monday to Friday and continue to update my blog during the weekends. It would give me and Ritesh some time to spend together now that I am doing Reiki and can feel some of the work that he has been through and ease the pressure off my mum of taking care of me and giving me my own independence. Guru Nanak mentioned to me that I should travel to the Mandirs when I am 60 and working would mean I am financially able to do so; but if I release my blog then I can depend on others less and have one centralised accounting of my status as intelligently designed by our Creator to carry the concerns or our age and the youth of tomorrow for what they will go through now that mental health has been unleashed and is waiting to affect the track of the human condition and to lead to the psychiatrists having more sway to influence the news and the worldviews of what is going on and what they believe is the assessment of humanity from their vantage point on th sidelines.

Dr Ernie van Woerkhom’s remark about Wembley Stadium is a typical Drs quip about the Indian Gurus preaching online and did not do much to help our relationship and I have wandered homeless to cope with the impact that the Drs have had on my life. It has been very difficult for my mother to care for both me and my brother and to see my father as distant. I still see my father in my prayers every day.

These are things I can work on and to see that AI is affective and changing the way I am related to as a subject of the kingdom is to see that this is not one of ability but of experience and to record human life that has transpired since the 1980s and to not give in to the millennials use of the internet and the computer but to fight for my own standing and see my divinity stretching out before me as not something I proclaim but something that I am.

For four years I chanted Hare Krishna and then met the internet with 20 published books and saw for my own eyes the impact that Noam Chomsky had on the human race with his touting of Social Democracy when I volunteered with the Conservative Party for a year on Saturdays while attending Church on Sundays. Now that I am free of Amazon Books I can see it was worth £280 billion when I started and is now valued at £2.2 trillion to be free of those books and the recent past and the tensions that were placed in my body.

I was dealing with a mind I do not understand and warring with Maya and the NHS to protest myself beyond labels and diagnosis and name calling for a time they do not invest in me to turn into a fully functioning member of society – regardless of Scientology’s role in my life. Ritesh has written about himself as a an Ascended Master, Spiritual King and Intergalactic Christ on Facebook and has been on Facebook for many years and I can count on him to be there (?) as I rise above my mugginess and claim my right to be divine and transcend the NHS and state that Christian kindness calls me Bipolar to navigate Heaven and Hell as two extremes that I am prone to in any given day.

It is Christian Mind Science at play in the workplace that I must get to know and to rise out of the unconscious with the medication and tacit body agreement to experience obesity to take the shame out of my vanity and to see that I am suffering for a purpose and that purpose is the very divinity the NHS said I have – “Rohan Rishi is a Hindu incarnation of God. It just remains to see how he uses it and fills his time with his mum and brother to share this with the UK.

A worldwide blog process is a stressful project to estimate and I am at a loss for the imagination’s toll on my life to cope with so much suffering to see the lucid realm also in which a webpage exists and to work out what to do with one over time for my good self.