10/06/2026

September 2, 2026 / rrishi99 / Leave a comment

In my early years folder I deal with the first 48 years of my life and a lot of childhood memories and feelings as well as the first 13 years of my life being twice born again as a Christian for 2 years and dealt with this in a months worth of writing. This leads me to question what time is? How into formed and where does it come from? In Hinduism it is called a God called Kala and in Christianity Jesus is for moon control of it the Creator in Genesis and ruler of his own prophecy for his advent on earth as the Messiah. Allah once spoke to me about aeons taking past lives for millions of years and asked if his people could have past lives too as Buddha explored Kali Yuga and the devil looking at Buddhist eschatology.

Kali Yuga is a period of irreligiousness on earth when the prevailing deity Kali will rule and man will be given to conflict and chaos.

The ability to experience time appears uniquely human until we note that time is not merely clock time but the passing of seasons and the coming and going of night and day with the sun and the moon oscillating duties to govern the world and attend cosmic forces. If Jesus is to rebirth He will need to be in control of these forces and the book of Genesis needs to withstand more ridicule from atheists as the imagination stands up to abuse and is defended for what is possible with time when God is in control of it.

When will the Pope visit the UK?

The NHS diagnosis of me as suffering from Bipolar Disorder occurred in 2013 and listed Schizophrenic, Mani, Depression, Racy Thoughts and Psychosis in its report on me. This was following a consultation with my mother and maybe one observation of me in interview. These diagnoses were never discussed with me and I wonder what would have happened if I had not read the report saying I thought I was a Hindi incarnation of god?

This reminds me of J Krishnamurti and his teachings on how misleading the Guru was and how you could never ask another person how you can be saved and what the right answers are for you in your life. It combines with what Jesus taught on the dangers and pitfalls of trusting the world when the kingdom of heaven was full of peril and deceit and how in the end I was grateful that the NHS arrested my development for fear of what lay ahead but mistreated me as a member of ethnic and religious grouping which left me with delusions of grandeur to work out by myself. Jesus told Drs to “heal themselves” as he warned the kingdom of heaven is near at hand and available for anybody to reach out and grab it. The simplicity of the Holy Ghost is what baffles medics in a world of sensationalism and marketing where American mystics and priests sold everything including the kitchen sink to get popular and used Islam to defend their antiquated beliefs.

I healed the Nazi Holocaust with Jehovah and they have moved in cosmic space and in Heaven and Hell and this should make space for new things in the world. I have also healed the Viet Cong.

Prior to 2012 Dr Deepak Chopra towed the party line of the Democrats to insult Mahmoud Ahmedinajad who had airtime online speaking at the United Nations. In keeping with the USA’s dominance of mental health, he called Ahmedinajad a “psychotic” and has since been deleted on YouTube along with a lot of other videos where he called for a “critical mass of humanity” to raise consciousness and force world leader to adopt new peaceful policies in alignment with spirituality online.

How come the United Nations has not built offices abroad in the UK?

My brother and I missed out on a family inheritance in Jalandhar, Punjab with our grandfather’s ball bearing business IBI Ball Bearing PVT Ltd. He had six children and our father was the youngest brother who was sent to England to study at Bournville College in the 1970s. He met my mother and got married instead of completing his course and they fell in love and had my elder brother. Eventually they divorced in 1988 and my father moved to London to drive minicabs and keep in touch with me and brother. My brother was disenfranchised with the family situation and wanted to be left alone. I would socialise with my mother’s Islamic partner Karamat Ali who had been in prison for car theft and try to keep the peace with my father with regular visits to London Hounslow to see him. All he could really do was take us out shopping and try to bribe our affections as he worked 7 days a week driving taxis and would cook good food for us as we remembered him doing so when we were a family.

He eventually moved back to India in 2000 and me and my brother lost touch with him as we evolved and grew spiritually. I saw him in 2000 but suffered a nervous breakdown upon having spiritual realisation in 2002. I have spoken to him briefly since then but found being in touch on the smartphone too stressful and mixing bad memories in the home as he wanted to know about my mental health. He sold the family business and moved to outside Delhi and me and my brother did not get any shares in the business – something I lost out on when I chose God instead of corporate law in 2000-2002 and failed to develop into a healthy corporate man who travelled the world and did business while having a family of his own to boast of to keep up with the rest of my graduates from Oxford and King Edwards.

My religious transformation was even more painful than Eckhart Tolle with terrifying states of emptiness and nothingness to face alone with the silent support of my mother and brother who appear to have gone through these things before in previous births.

The female goddess Devi on the left hand side of the Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple represents my past life in India. I have been guided to this revelation by Durga who said how else could I have accomplished all that I have done and had such a successful relationship with my mother. Santosh is my mother’s name and there is a small statue of Santosh Mata in the Temple too. Santosh Mata originated from India and is worshipped in film and this symbol is fertile ground for the imagination and the path to ruin for our family as my painting sits behind glass and has a jyoti burning in front of it. During this past life I was acquainted with Lord Rama and worshipped Him and note that the glass that separates my painting from reality is the distance I have in Kali Yuga from such an opulent lifestyle. I don’t speak Hindi and don’t know Hindu scriptures beyond the Bhagavad Gita. But I can attest that the separation from reality represents The Soul Cages by Sting and now the “mind forged manacles of man” of William Blake that I saw when I was about 12 and fixated on throughout my English studies and makes its way into my poetry online. I listened to Sting obsessively every day from 12 to 24 when I stopped listening to music to look after my mind and body and saw in him a higher light to a deeper reality that was in keeping with contemporary spirituality that we all come from God and are heading there through transcendental means.

“the young so educated they never grow old” – Prince, Seven

Another empty day with money to fill that void instead of God.

The worship came through from Krishna a decade ago to watch my passion and confidence. I have been up since 4am meditating this morning and it is 7.30 and I see from the shifting shapes and patterns what he means. It is quite one thing to dwindle on my phone about celebrity life and the royal family. It is quite another thing to interact with them. My mother and I went to London last the day after Lillibut’s funeral and spent a day there and rode the Elizabeth line. That’s as close to royalty as we have come in our life. When I was in the Tazetta Suite of the QEHB for Bipolar Disorder my Buddhafield was the size of the West Midlands as Rama had tole me and I noted that Prince William came to Birmingham and did a public appearance. I feel affinity for him and Catherine because of their student life and interacting with the normal side of humanity and see myself influencing their generation and the younger one more than Prince Philip and King Charles for whom I had something to say online about corporate India with my social media videos between 2017-2024. But in keeping with what Krishna writes about in the Bhagavad Gita this is the age of my life when passion rules my Gunas and I am likely to be too over confident in one moment then too under confident in the next as I rule myself from my home in Weoley Castle and live out of one bedroom and deal with all these forms and shifting patterns to find a way to cope with living normal working life and waking up and travelling to work and earning a salary and building my webpage slowly so I can see and develop a plan to market it to British universities and even some people abroad for further research.

If I publish my work and advertise it to world leaders, my karma from school is strong. I have had many spiritual experiences since then and revealed my past lives too but the link to schooling and the role of parenting with my mother and the buried emotions of my father are located there in my unconscious as well as the ties to all the relatives and all their socialising. The rest has to be put to my higher self.

In India there was a holy man called Shirdi Sai Baba who is worshipped in India to this day. There was a TV Show of him which showed him healing someone and getting sick himself. Doubtless this is what happened to me and still does occur to this day as I experience weakness and suffer fearful states of being after encountering NHS Drs and Nurses who were heavy handed with the medication and did not want to discuss cause and effect in relation to my medical diagnosis as a Hindu incarnation of God. I have seen people make speeches claiming to be divine and write webpages proclaiming their human relationship with the people – after my trust has been burned with the DWP who charged me for PIP and ESA since 2013 to 2025 for my services and used me to fix this country’s spiritual apathy and non religious nature – I will let my webpage do the talking and rely on poetry to abstain from claiming religious perception.

I have been trying to answer the question What is a Healer for some years now and cannot arrive at a satisfactory concise explanation of a phenomenon I have been experiencing since I was very young. I can answer people’s prayers with recourse to Angels and help them fulfil their goals and ambitions in life by asking Hindu Gods and Goddesses. This is a step in the right direction of expanding on my current role as a poet and IT support technician and helps me further define the Buddhist Wheel of Suffering in terms of Abrahamic and Vedic deities.

I am a Healer. I use the Wheel of Suffering in Buddhism to elevate people from their current state and use my connections from past lives to improve situations on the planet: I am very quiet and barely talk as I am usually engaged in some transcendental activity and craving time to myself to meditate and recharge my batteries. I am very low on energy and find working life a bore. It takes a lot for me to travel to work and back and get the bus there for 2 hours and back for the same amount of time. Futhermore whilst I respect people’s time and money, I find the NHS has many rude callers who expect their work to be done in miracle timing and people are rushing me to complete my job. I would much rather stay at home and work as a writer but this is not fair on my mum and brother who need me to get out and prove that I don’t have mental health problems under the mental health act after the train wreck the Drs and Nurses brought into our lovely home.

I can interact with daily life normally and carry out normal duties and functions while attending to my spirituality and looking after myself as a graduate who has suffered many years unemployment (24) and is looking at being a 50 year old soon. So knowing that this writing is spied on and used to update databases and legally allow for 2012 arrangements after the world leaders tried to mainstream spirituality through their polling of people’s data: I am renouncing healing everyone and stating the tax code as reasonableness for what I can achieve.

I occupy a basic rate of tax and cannot afford to heal people in higher bands and that includes celebrities and politicians who come to me as well as royalty whom I see from time to time requesting healing.

In 2002 an energy worker did a reading on me and said that people were asking me questions. I can now see what she meant and see this occurring in the spiritual and religious realms with divine importance of earnest actions that have karmic consequences. I cannot continue to support this country’ government and media circus and will retrain myself to keep my energies to myself and just wish for good things for people of the same economic bracket.

I do not charge for what I do as Lord Indra told me there is no charge. But people are going to have to pay for this and stop saying I am like other people for equalising my life with others. It is enough humiliation to have the NHS imply that I am not special but it is even more to have to explain the difference between myself and others on this blog when spiritual teachers and masters have been dominating the internet for decades while I and my family receive nothing. Jesus writes in the Bible that you cannot mix God with money and this is doubtless part of some tests to make sure I am true and authentic but that does not give rich people the right to abuse me whatever nation they are from.

The original Christians had no libraries to speak of. They were just enamoured with duty and the word of God to create the Christian Church. Books and bibliographies have been built and they challenge our sensibilities today and are confronted by science to prove the veracity of their claims – that Jesus lives and His word is worth following. The King James Bible has taken centre stage and there are countless translations across the globe attesting to modernity and espousing the words that Jesus is alleged to have spoken and the Logos that is to be studied in Universities. England is different to America in that it has completed its colonial expansions and apart from Indian politics there is joy at the heart of the Christian Church. Americans are much more anxious and I feel their presence in my house for their post colonial moment of I Amness and proclaiming the greatness of the American nation, peoples and project while other countries get on with Christianity as business as usual. Stoicism supplements Greek Christianity and presupposes that the western people want to ruled by Aquarian gods with goddesses that have sexual ways on the surface quite different to eastern countries with their gods led by Krishna in the west doing his best to modernise things after only being 60 years old at ISKCON and bending with American naivety to rule the roost and proclaim a new gospel of Brahma about the life and disciplic succession of Krishna.

This is a blog. It is my personal webpage. Being spied on has done strange things to my head. There is not just America and England but hundreds of countries and this has affected my estimation of material wealth and what I am worth.

Brideshead Revisted by Evelyn Waugh tells the tale is dwindling authority at Oxford University and the growing need for the priesthood to cement its role there when dealing with student care. It is my hope this blog will circulate amongst academics and clerics alike to deal with issues of authority and morality nationwide so the out getting bogged down with topos and location The internet moved too quickly for some classes and groups and society and it’s time to have another go at it.

I caused 9/11. I have cause natural disasters on earth – earthquakes and floods and blackholes.

The Vietnam War was caused by the senses as the American were short sighted and could not see into the East. This is like the Ukraine War with Russians losing their sight and sound about Europe and getting lost after Brexit. The conflict in Iran is an extension of The Crusades.

“April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.” – T S Eliot The Waste Land

Much of what I write is due to memory and desire. I stimulate my own desire by publishing my thoughts and updating my consciousness for academic audiences. I fear the loss of memory in our country with American superdominance of our social media networks. We are not the history of Hollywood and the wars between Parliament and the Monarchy for power have left a gaping hole in British democracy where Nigel Farage is beating the BBC for ratings as he buys the next election with GBNews for the sake of the whole and to keep a cogent sense of what it means to be in this country with Monarchs too good for TV.

“Food eaten more than three hours after cooking it is said to be in the mode of ignorance (Tamas Guna)” – Srila Prabhupada, The Bhagavad Gita As It Is

When Srila Prabhupada was training for his role as a Sannyasi and when he finally embarked on his journey in America, fridges in India were not that common a phenomenon. This food cooked and eaten more than three hours after the time was said to be sullied and rotten having been left out in the heat. This posed a problem for meat eating and vegetarianism is common amongst Hindus. Some sacrifice their food before God and serve Him the food on their plate and thus give up the violence associated with the killing of an animal. ISKCON urge the noneating of meat but state that if you want to eat meat they pray and offer your food to Kali. I find it too hard to give up meat and offer my food to Kali and also go to Church and have been baptised so eating meat is not forbidden amongst Christians.

My mum started receiving phone calls about me in 2002. The phrase used was “the largest puja ever was done for me” and they have spoke about my special importance. Having Krishna near me is no joke and He advents to raise someone’s profile: “Wherever there is Arjuna and Krishna there is victory and opulence” (The Bhagavad Gita). I like the New Testament and the Gospels of Jesus but find the rest of the Bible too hard. The implications were that I would help the world with the prophecy of Jesus and one day would become famous. My mum had to cope with this all by herself and with both my brother and me knocked out of the race of life after Earth shattering events and hauntings in India in 2002. Ritesh could see a lot of evil being intended to me and was befuddled as to how it could be so. He was never one to try the rat race so sat back and watched the Drs treat me for depression when I lost my career as a trainee solicitor at Jones Day Gouldens. The mix of science and religion has been paramount to my success and Krishna warned me that I have no science in my life and this holds me back and stops me having choices. The plight of our family and the home remedies we tried to get better from evil and psychic attack lays fertile ground to those scientists who say that religion is too old fashioned and not relevant to today – something Andrew Cohen of the cult EnlightenNext was trying on as he was using India to be a fashionable guru and talk big.

My brother is a Naturopath and does not like Drs and Nurses. To him it’s all made up and Drs need computers to get their jobs done and read something off the screen. He would listen to the pundit from India in the 2000s that mum found in a village who said that I was not normal and that some people would come to visit me. The pundit would recite prayers and Ritesh would run the phone over his face believing in the Swami Vivekananda books he read when he was young and not the rough and shoddy diagnosis and speech of the Drs and Nurses who bamboozled me with processes and lexicon to leave me dumb before them as they performed Obs and wrote complicated words into their own laptops about their own health and keep up from studying their own health and keep up from studying their own degree which dovetails nicely with the racists n Parliament who don’t have one Daoist sitting with all the Muslims there and banter about terrorism and extremism from brown people. Where this leaves us with Nigel Farage and his immigration rants stirring up the nation is anyone’s guess and how much longer will be for my mum to suffer with her two sons is up for grabs too. What if this was another Hindu household, or what had been going on in Hindu households as they kow tow to Drs and Professionals to show up at their expensive houses and weddings with alcohol enough for the wine and whiskey drinking class who had too much to lose from my medical to play by the rules as the NHS does not hand out compensation as its staff are treated well and take up the headlines with propaganda since Tony Blair and his cronies dictated the news about the NHS and sob stories about shit.

The Indian education curriculum had been set on YouTube by George Walker Bush with his racist Islamaphobia and war mongering as youth clambered about looking for solutions to problems by protest and with democracy and Arundhati Roy with Salman Rushdie on Richard Dawkins’s social media with all those Hindu Bhajans on them and things that thw atheists do not understand.

Was Dr Ernie van Woerkhom channeling me when he was treating me for Bipolar Disorder?

Have Drs and Academics been seeking the power of the mind over matter in the UK and do they seek power over life with the ability to kill people with their minds and send them insane?

“The future of the British economy lies in science”- Gordon Brown PM in c.2000s on BBC

There is no review process from the NHS to deal with my family’s case. This is a shortcoming of Drs centralising out of London while listening to crap about Drs strikes and not enough pay when they have a job in this country developing strategies of creating insane people who use social media videos aimed at children where the Drs can start young giving advice while missing out on all that spirituality that came from America and was lost when EnlightenNext collapsed, mimicking Partition in India, taking all of the mind body spirit with it in America so the Drs escape without liability in this country and have Princess Catherine in their back pockets with her swimsuit body invulnerable to psychic attack and without armed guards around her while utilising the world’s resources.

“The debt you owe your mother you will never repay”- Sathya Sai Baba

These writings are coming out of a city slicker and someone who has always been in a big city. The countryside of England is a different matter but the English character is the same. The NHS is to be examined and updated from 1983 regardless of my status as a past life Hindu. What of my other lives in Greece or when I lived in England in Jacobean times? ISKCON is stating that people have had a million lives and need to remember their time with Krishna to make this a successful life. That is why Tibet is so powerful for its ancestry into the darkness and where historians have yet to lead politicians and their money. In Tibet and on Buddha Bar a past life reincarnation is known as a Tulku and Chinese medicine boasts the Dao to be able to take into consideration spirituality without shutting it down like the NHS does and denies my mother her human rights and freedom of expression with the one in one out right of a Dr to be by himself with a patient.

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July 23, 2026July 23, 2026 / rrishi99 / Leave a comment

What am I so sure is wrong with my poetry?

Confidence.

It’s you feeling bad about your life and painting everything as all in one in your poetry and seeing the poetry as existence itself again and blaming others for your work practice. Otherwise known as writer’s block and creative suffering and problems with your art workload.

Going to Church is a matter of confidence – not praying to get what you want or some religious practices that will help you in this matter. Church is for life and is interwoven with this confidence problem I am having seeing entering all jumbled up an Id interconnected which is a theme of my poetry so it leads to Amazon breakthroughs and that is why I don’t want to read the subject matter that caused me pain and suffering and get worried and anxious about it.

What is experience meant to look like?

What is the experience of someone who asks this question?

It is one where he sees comparison and compares himself to others in his environment because the questioner is built upon that comparison. It is mechanics. It is doing this with AI and computing recognising the need for human sacrifices and examples to justify the use of the imagination which was also engaged in carnal lists of experience based on lust and sexual desire. It normalises and eases into the now

How do I edit my poems?

What is the goal in sitting down to edit poetry I have not read in years? Is my poetry about me as the writer and not the literary subject with a form and definite object of a structured piece of writing before him?

I wanted there to be something special about my way of perception so much, I hoarded books to show my regimented intellect. I traversed worry like a caressed blanket covering a swamp of understanding. I harboured guilt under a covering of masculinity for all to see.

It’s an online legal drama with the consciousness of social media since the 1990s informing the reader about the British Asian voice.

What is the question by which all others are answered? How is this forwarded by you ivory tower approach to the news?

It would seem that the NHS has been blackballed and COVID has passed and the news is none the wiser about conspiracy and religion. What was surely a divine retribution to judge our world leaders and exact revenge on humankind for their treatment of Spirit is behind us and it is business as usual at the top and the Americans are continuing where George Bush Jr left off – dominating the airwaves with war rhetoric and Donald Trump and declaring tariffs on all who pass its ways.

This leave the BBC to watch in awe as Nigel Farage steals his way to the next election after talks with the Trump empire to model the UK on America and Fox News to stall the ordinary man’s emotional growth and the multicultural views of our nation have been set off and do not reflect on our nationalised TV sets. GB News is on too much and the citizens of our country are televised in an effort to fill the TV so that adverts can make revenue for the big fat cats and the Royal Family can concoct some engagement for themselves with Environmentalism while Bloomberg News screams about AI.

Against this backdrop, I am reviewing my medical record and the statement “Rohan Rishi believes he is a Hindu incarnation of God.” When such is the business of the NHS and its staff with Drs and Nurses exploiting my education with a Hello How Are You Doing Approach to healthcare and no real situational discussion about religion and experience I am empirically aware that I am a Hindu incarnation of God and that all Hindus are one and have that burden to bear before the Yoga of our age.

Do I need scruples to discuss whether it is my belief that I am divine or not when the organisation was too busy and over stretched to see if I matter and leave me to my mother’s care and brother’s devoted love and attention: What would my father have said if he was in the country? It’s your opinion that makes the difference and if you don’t believe you are divine then what has the past 25 years been like since you left the safe cloisters of Oxford University? By all accounts London is not the same after COVID and the scene looks like a wreck for what you left behind in the Gunas in 2000-2002 and if that means I could fill Wembley Stadium like in Dr Ernie van Woerkhom’s dirty mind when he made a joke in 2013 before diagnosing me with a dangerously overactive thyroid – it seems the UK will charge the invesitgation of subjectvity to the NHS for the rest of my life if I don’t take up arms against the sea of samsara and seize my own destiny to the degree that it manifests for me to do so.

An opportunity is opening up to do some work in IT and I am not loathe to learn about cybersecurity Monday to Friday and continue to update my blog during the weekends. It would give me and Ritesh some time to spend together now that I am doing Reiki and can feel some of the work that he has been through and ease the pressure off my mum of taking care of me and giving me my own independence. Guru Nanak mentioned to me that I should travel to the Mandirs when I am 60 and working would mean I am financially able to do so; but if I release my blog then I can depend on others less and have one centralised accounting of my status as intelligently designed by our Creator to carry the concerns or our age and the youth of tomorrow for what they will go through now that mental health has been unleashed and is waiting to affect the track of the human condition and to lead to the psychiatrists having more sway to influence the news and the worldviews of what is going on and what they believe is the assessment of humanity from their vantage point on th sidelines.

Dr Ernie van Woerkhom’s remark about Wembley Stadium is a typical Drs quip about the Indian Gurus preaching online and did not do much to help our relationship and I have wandered homeless to cope with the impact that the Drs have had on my life. It has been very difficult for my mother to care for both me and my brother and to see my father as distant. I still see my father in my prayers every day.

These are things I can work on and to see that AI is affective and changing the way I am related to as a subject of the kingdom is to see that this is not one of ability but of experience and to record human life that has transpired since the 1980s and to not give in to the millennials use of the internet and the computer but to fight for my own standing and see my divinity stretching out before me as not something I proclaim but something that I am.

For four years I chanted Hare Krishna and then met the internet with 20 published books and saw for my own eyes the impact that Noam Chomsky had on the human race with his touting of Social Democracy when I volunteered with the Conservative Party for a year on Saturdays while attending Church on Sundays. Now that I am free of Amazon Books I can see it was worth £280 billion when I started and is now valued at £2.2 trillion to be free of those books and the recent past and the tensions that were placed in my body.

I was dealing with a mind I do not understand and warring with Maya and the NHS to protest myself beyond labels and diagnosis and name calling for a time they do not invest in me to turn into a fully functioning member of society – regardless of Scientology’s role in my life. Ritesh has written about himself as a an Ascended Master, Spiritual King and Intergalactic Christ on Facebook and has been on Facebook for many years and I can count on him to be there (?) as I rise above my mugginess and claim my right to be divine and transcend the NHS and state that Christian kindness calls me Bipolar to navigate Heaven and Hell as two extremes that I am prone to in any given day.

It is Christian Mind Science at play in the workplace that I must get to know and to rise out of the unconscious with the medication and tacit body agreement to experience obesity to take the shame out of my vanity and to see that I am suffering for a purpose and that purpose is the very divinity the NHS said I have – “Rohan Rishi is a Hindu incarnation of God. It just remains to see how he uses it and fills his time with his mum and brother to share this with the UK.

A worldwide blog process is a stressful project to estimate and I am at a loss for the imagination’s toll on my life to cope with so much suffering to see the lucid realm also in which a webpage exists and to work out what to do with one over time for my good self.