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12/06/2026

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“I have never in my life
Felt more alone than I do now
Although I claim dominions
Over all I see
It means nothing to me
Without love”

  • Sting Mad About You

I feel suffocated by death. I am 48 and cannot afford to die. I have no life insurance and cannot afford my own funeral. I sometimes think I cannot afford to go to my own mother’s funeral if something unexpected happens and thankfully am able to drive now. I don’t know what my brother would do as he never goes to family occasions and might be offended by the relatives turning up to my mother’s funeral. After all they did to her and her children the twelve brothers and sisters have a lot to reflect on as I start to vice my concerns about their materialism and wealth and their ways with alcohol, sports and sex. I don’t know what to do if something should happen to Ritesh as he has never discussed funeral plans with us and lives an ascetic and stoic life alone his room. Finally I don’t think I will see my Dad again and always think that one day I could get a phone call from India letting me know he is gone.

If Shakespeare lived today and experienced the profound state of awakening that he did, would he have to go through mental health processes to please the government and King and Queen? What about other writers and what is Mike Flexer doing at York University and how long will it take for him to research mental health and literature?

My mother still wakes up at 7.30 and showers and then meditates and prays for about 30-60 minutes. She then has her toast or cereal and routinely flicks through the news channels. She then cleans the kitche, bathroom and living room for about an hour or so before taking herself to her room to use the internet – something she does in the afternoon and early evening to catch up on world events. I can’t imagine how she spends so long in front of the computer and what she looks up – I can just see the British patriarch and make Dr observing her making judgements as he looks after his own mental health and mutters something about yoga. She lives in one room and I worry about her knees getting cramped as she hobbled about after a car crash hurt her. None of these things were discussed in my mental health as the British government find things for their youth to do and chat about called mental health with no spirituality in it and an ignorance of the mind that goes back to Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health in the 1950s by L Ron Hubbard. My mother was a Scientologist in the 1990s until I wanted to leave Oxford and join. I never made any white friends at Oxford and found them tedious at The College of Law and took to skipping college and studying at home. They made me depressed and sad about how the world of money is structured and what a corporation actually is. My mum survived in all this world as a businesswoman who worked at the BBC. EDS, Rolls Royce and the NHS – all the while her two sons were hurting at home. The way the NHS treated me was like a pig and the police were no better dropping by to question and threaten me on various occasions. Good luck to them all in their afterlife if you think that the Church of England is going to save you.

“Do you know a white person who has ever been kind to you?” – Spike Lee’s film Malcom X starring Denzel Washington

I am a writer who thinks he will have the same effect on creation as Shakespeare.

Do the British newspapers make sense without the Royal Family in them. They have massive business interests and have immunity from prosecution as well as anonimity to not reflect proper business interests in The Economist as well.

Where did these paintings come from of William Blake and William Shakespeare? Did they manifest and if so when?

How can a woman rule a country until the age of 96 like Queen Elizabeth 2nd did and be the head of the British military? She was ever so rarely which means never on the TV to address her nation while claiming to be the Head of the Church of England. What kind of mental health did she have ruling until 96 and to install her son in his 70s as a King after her? Whos starts work in his 70s and starts a new job at that age while ruling his own family? Why does Prince Harry leave the Royal Family to become an author? Is it our fate to have to sit back and wait for one of them to marry a Hindu now?

With the level of awareness of the some Drs and Nurses who visited me and made sure I was taking my medication, the British medical authorities may have violated principles of ahmisa. It felt like violent thugs had bullied and battered me and insutled my mother and brother’s house and sacred space. I wonder what Partition felt like and why Gandhi was so important in the face of Winston Churchill’s racism.

India is not really a country. It is more like a God – an energy or force that is incomprehensible and cannot be explained. The same could be said of Africa and the world of JM Coetzee explain this with his very simple use of English as they try slowly to map civilisation and catch up with plans for Nollywood. India has gone to Arundhati Roy and Salman Rusdhie has simplified prose after the lengthy novels from Satan in his past when he courted Middle Eastern tensions and dominated education and resources. Anita and Me was on the GCSE curriculum when I was a private tutor in 2010 and this was too advanced a text for the youth to be reading and I found the school teacher cancelled the book and just watched the film. This polluted the Monarchy in England and you could say India or modern India is ISCKON for the details in The Bhagavad Gita As It Is and Srila Prabhupada’s attempt to map the religious history of India. It is called Bharat and they find that the Monarchy makes their lives miserable as they mine for gold in India and enjoy secret meetings at Buckingham palace and conjugal visits from Krishna.

“Me. No-one knows.” – Krishna in the Bhagavad Gita As It Is

“… with a fraction of my energy I pervade and sustain all the material universes”- Krishna in The Bhagavad Gita As It Is

“I am not manifesting to the foolish or ignorant persons” – Krishna in The Bhagavad Gita As It Is

When I was mostly bedridden in the 2000s with depression and avoided hospitalisation it was revealed to me that this was Ravaan in my Vedic astrological house.

The American Empire lacked benevolence. That is why it was closed down and resorted to CNN and 24 new media to get some quiet.

What if England ruled the world and leaders took to using England as a base for knowledge and the arts? With the concentration of universities here the opportunity exists to harness English as an international language and grant primacy to England above other nations for diplomatic things. Rather than trying to catch up with England other countries could rely on England for research after Brexit and we could flourish as a multicultural society whose academics worked with the HRH police to give good information about our differences and took the weight and pressure off having to think so much in our own time outside of work.

Salman Rushdie is suspicious. To whom does he pray and why did he abandon Science Fiction with his debut novel Grimus? Literary scholars need better databases and connections to enquire about his life and find out the ways in which Americans bought his favour to target Iran. The Satanic Verses is an impenetrable text that insults The Prophet Muhammed and laced the imagination with heat and cold about Amitabh Bachchan and his son. Salman Rushdie had changed his tune with simpler books of late and evn his own critical book which was not very good and a big disappointment since Imaginary Homleands. What impact did he have with others on the quality of British TV and where did children’s TV go since the 1980s with the launch of satellite TV and sports to dumb down the populace as literature became scarce to write scripts and create good British comedies and dramas? Was he working for the Americans to spook the Royal Family and rely on the race card for Blacks in America and how far India has to go before it can compete literarily with American and English literature? Where have Chinese films gone as he punches with Terry Gilliam and sells drugs and what happened to Netflix once George Clooney and Brad Pitt made whatever money they could out of it with Wolves? The world of men is not done with these players and eats to see them use our resources so future generations can learn of greed and power and corruption and not the petty details in our universities at the moment.

How much did Abishek Bachchan and Aishwarya Rai Bachchan cost India to be self styled followers of Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie with Brangelina? Did Aishwarya adopt any Africans in the years she was missing after giving birth to her only child? And what of relations with England for their views on Sathya Sai Baba with the BBC’s tv show on him The Secret Swami? How did thi affect our diplomatic ties and how powerful was Aishwarya Rai as “the world’s most beautiful woman” (Versace and what happened to her contract and photos with Longines? Where does Abishek Bachchan pray and is he a member of ISKCON and who is his guru as British people look on for the emptiness surrounding British Asian culture after Nitin Sawhney stayed away from the TV after one hit wonders with Goodness Gracious Me and the jokes they made about Hinduism and Hare Krishna?

Srila Prabhupada said that he had come to teach the Americans the true religion of Krishna. There is only one religion of Krishna. Never war with him.

Shiva spoke to me in 2013 and told me I was frustrated with love.

How did Jewish woman Natalie Portman get to star in Christian English Christmas commercials for perfume in 2025. Her films aren’t even released in the UK.

Suraj’s Indian sweet shop on the Soho Road has a nice mix of cultures with a Buddha statue near the window and old Indian film songs playing in the background. Their food is second to none and we go there regularly as a family to pick up snacks and sometime eat in and have some chai.

Where is Christian TV in the UK to compete with Islamic TV and would the Americans tolerate the Bible being interpreted by the world’s finest academics at Oxford and Cambridge live on our TV sets? What have they done to the UK imagination by targeting our media and buying Nigel Farage with immigration bullshit from a racist who used to run UKIP? What do Americans do to memory and can they see how much money I made China with Tibet for my mental health medical – none of which was sent to George Clooney’s Hollywood or Donald Trump’s White House with that wierdo Joe Biden now that Barack Obama betrayed us and carried on with George Bush’s policies regardless of the faith the world had put in him for a fresh start.

Who in the UK has imagined India and laughed at them for their sex life and rules on Bollywood for kissing and nudity and manners of having sex in pornography?

Barack Obama’s performance as America’s President for two terms and eight years was modelled on African cinema and he now towed to the Nigerian government’s ties with African Americans to mould cinema and TV after his election.

Was it the Middle East or America with the Nation of Islam that made Muslim perform so prominently in Indian cinema?

Even though she would cook for the two of us, our mother was looking after herself when she was a working businesswoman and single mum. She would come home from work and cook her own Indian sabzi and be in bed for 9.30 after watching Eastenders and getting some more work done. Ritesh put his foot down towards the end of her career and told her off for watching Eastenders and that she should not watch it as it was bad for her health.

Folklore and money has it that a Teacher is God along with one’s parents and a guest who enters your house in Hinduism. How does this affect the repute of university academics who do not contemplate energy 60 years on from when Krishna gave Srila Prabhupada divine passage to America?

Krishna cited genetics and asked me to look inside myself to see a strain in 2013. He was referring to the strain that persists with my birth charts and karma to be graduate who has his own mortgage.

Note:

The Indian High Commission building is in Birmingham and is not an Embassy building for land law and human rights in the UK. It follows to ask what is the status of special powers at Hindu Temples after Churches have closed their doors because of the British medical elite who performed an exorcism of this country during COVID as the world faced judgement from higher worlds and heavens.

The jealousy of Drs in the UK because of salaries is a real problem. They are immature as students and then recent graduates complaining about pay and measuring their salaries with the banking profession. When the Drs and Nurses were treating me for psychiatric problems I got a real sense of how my interest in popular culture was frowned upon as a negative influence in my life as they were jealous of the salaries of rich people and celebrities. The NHS needs to confront celebrity culture in the UK and deal with the spiritual experiences of celebrities.

The UK has been under attack from the USA who have wanted to buy the NHS and privatise it. This has placed Drs under undue pressure and has mixed Church doctrines to spoil the Church of England and limit its influence and outflowing of information. Church leaders are not national leader and the dwindling Church numbers are creating a weaker field for evil to occur in the UK and invite American evangelists to give advice and spread their influence on British Churches. This involves spiritual phenomena from Mind Body Spirit and Church leaders are too guys with the very dense Bible to attend to Self Help and defend their Parishes properly.

“Religion is the opiate of the masses” – Karl Marx

“Religion is evil” – Chairman Mao

Stephen Fry has been saying blasphemous things about Jehovah and spelling out his wrathful nature and has led a homosexual rebellion against the Church with support of Bipolar experience and medication while taking cocaine and being free with his new expression in private.

Peter Mandelson was a spin doctor for New Labour and affected the country’s media with his homosexual culture and views on the Monarchy’s right to have the culture of the Church of England screened on UK TV. He came to power in the late 1990s and was influential in the spread of atheism with Professor Richard Dawkins and Christopher Hitchens and tried to create a colonial empire online.

Prince Andrew was quite prominent in the media after he married Sarah Ferguson and had a relationship with her in public circles that rivalled Princess Diana and Prince Charles. This has been deleted from public memory and the BBC need to answer as to how they remember Prince Andrew and how their correspondents use memory to select the news.

I feel like the Drs and Nurses still listen to me and that my writing is like talking and they are reading it and listening to it. I am 48 and I entered mental health procedures when I was 36. Before that Drs came to see me when I was 25. I have had diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder and Depression and have been medicated Olanzapine, Carbimazole, Risperidone, Depakote, Sertraline and Metformin. I see the Drs and Nurses in my mind and it is as if my life starts at 36 when they came into my house.

It sounds like there’s a riot going on outside with the mob mentality and the crowd control of the police and government laying waste to spiritual experiences and higher consciousness.

Jehovah told me to treat this like a little Area 51.

Why don’t Hindu Pundits speak in Hindu Temples and lecture on Hinduism and speak the meaning of the Hindu Gods and Goddesses? How long before we get an explanation of who these Gods and Goddesses are in English?

I don’t want to see the Royal Family. They have been by for plenty of healing.

Because of my work EnlightenNext can be researched in universities. The American Guru Andrew Cohen stated that his work was 60 years ahead of its time and that it was for the top 4-5% of wealth holders.

The implications of my website for future development are grand. The empire of Amitabh Bachchan without any biographies in Bollywood and India’s literary culture has massive scope for development with the internet challenging laws of nature and conspiracy theories abounding about American hegemony and Mukesh Ambani’s hold on power with Reliance Industries.

Donald Trump ran as an independent for his first term in office and never confirmed that he was a republican even though he vocally denounced the policies of Joe Biden. Before his term in office the internet was ripe with calls to end the two party politics in America and get on with business interests and stop personality attacks and bipartisanship.

Where was Prince Charles in the media and on photographs and on TV with his mother and father when Barack Obama was dominating social media and running his campaign with Oprah Winfrey?

American Guru Andrew Cohen was rude about Healers saying that they are not evolutionary and keep going back into the past. As I write my blogs and plan to publish them in the future I can see the worth of my retrospective gaze and role as a global Healer and one of divine proportions connected to Christ to preserve memory and take the pressure off world leaders to look for new things to fill the news with. Andrew Cohen was also rude about Mayan gods and goddesses calling them “savages” and saying that the Mayan Prophecy of 2012 was not to be trusted and that we need to get on and create the future. I have experience with ancient Mayan culture from the past and worked with Shiva over 2012 periods with the Golden Age to be transcendentally situated to be on Ayuasca to be connected to my past roots with Machu Pichu to contemplate a statue of Buddha on Machu Pichu and just what is being asked of Gods and Goddesses in this day and age. I have experience of Xenu from OT3 with Scientology and have been told that the presence of Xenu is astrologically bound up with a Mayan past life I had thousands of years ago.

I have seen my mum channeling with Aphrodite and Kali.

When I left London in 2011 and after my Vipassana 10 day retreat, I sent the Russians a copy of Enlightenment is a Secret by Andrew Cohen via cosmic channeling and light work and asked them to take a look at it like a Zen Buddhism book and see what they thought of Tibetan negotiations seeing as they had been having diplomatic relations with China for millenia.

A photo of Vladimir Putin sitting next to a computer and being seated at a desk popped up on my laptop a few years ago. There ws a TV program on our TV called ‘Living Next Door to Vladimir Putin’.

I and my family have been spied on by the Russians. Donald Trump complained that Russians were affecting his first election and loss to Joe Biden.

Scientology wad made a religion in the UK the year I went to a mental hospital. I would refer to the hospital as a monastery as I healed the madness in the world outside me. Tom Cruise came to Birmingham and filmed some scenes for Mission Impossible.

Birmingham had been called the second financial capital of the country and had also been called the “jihad capital of Europe” by American politician.

I have never taken an acid tab in my life. I was influenced by L Ron Hubbard who created the Sea Org division of higher level work in Scientology. He stated that when it comes to higher level work and reclaiming your spirit from past life influences the presence of LSD in the system could lead to biased results and cause ones authority to be bought into question. As I meditate I can see that acid would be quite good for me to take in moderation to release some pressure so must be keying in to collective drug taking and performing some sort of healing of the nation and world. it is linked to sex and the role of ejaculation and masturbation and the imagination that goes with wanking. I think of Sting’s interest in tantric sex and his drug taking as providing fertile ground for the courts to update the medical text books after my medical with spiritual experiences and special powers in the courts and new languages introduced to the medical profession that looks ahead at the role of India and Yoga and what that poses for proper science and fair treatment of individuals and families struggling with mental health to hold on to their identities.

I acknowledge the need to take a substance to increase my happiness. So I am having Coca Cola. I drink a can every day and think that people drink alcohol every day and this can’t be bad for me. This reminds me of the film Equilibrium and the modernisation of Big Brother with the intervention and casual talk about dopamine and serotonin. They were taking acid and other drugs in Angel Islington with EnlightenNext in 2010 and invited me to come out with them. MPs were studying EnlightenNext.

Even in Ancient Greek times death was a cause for concern and prompted questions about the afterlife that touched upon God’s existence.

One of my spiritual experiences with Xerxes showed me that what happened in London in 2010 with the collapse of EnlightenNext after I had gotten angry with them and threw it out of England and Europe. He said that all the Greek knowledge was in that and that cult and that he wanted me to do some work to reclaim the organisations materials. This was to see Mind Body Spirit books disappear in the UK and for YouTube to change and host large lectures from spiritual teachers rather than short entertaining videos. This must have affected the Middle East and perhaps things don’r move as fast as they appear in the west to slow down and share these resources and develop better imaginings than just day dreaming about 2012 and the Golden Age with all the health implications forbidden knowledge has from the Bible.

When I was in London in 2010-2011 I had an affair with a married Jewish woman with three children and tried cohabitating. I had given up my programme to study a Masters in English at Queen Mary University due to funding and was visiting EnlightenNext cult headquarters in Angel Islington every now and then. There were members far more embedded than me and I was just a casual visitor who saw Andrew Cohen give lectures three times. He spoke out against sex life and procreation and reminded me of something that Jehovah had spoken to me about saying not to get attached to a lease with the partner I was living with. He also meant that she was Analese from Home and Away and that these sexual sanskaras go deep and that I had illusions I needed to transcend still on the path to enlightenment.

Home ownership is quite an advanced subject in Greek theory of civilisation and something that I was not prepared for leaving school and going underground at Oxford.

What is the internet and how does it fit in with stories of creation? The Bhagavad Gita As It Is lists ether as one of Krishna’s many attributes. Krishna has said he will create the internet with me after he created space from the 1960s.

One of the reasons that EnlightenNext collapsed and offended me was the reasons it had for claiming that a modern disease was Narcissism for the postmodern self. Ken Wilber had created an online documentary called Boomeritis and alleged that baby boomers were suffering from mental health delusions and were in need of spiritual care. In this diagnosis there was no mention of Hollywood or celebrity life and the insight did not go deep enough to penetrate into Greek culture to herald the interaction between the stars and the earth to produce civilisation capable of such views as the need for people to meditate and take an interest in comparative religion as the magazines What is Enlightenment were based on. The development of self help was saturated as people’s bookshelves in powerful places laid them open to cults and any Christian sentiments with the development of mind body spirit culrs since the onset of ISKCON and transcendental meditation that was not the recitation of God’s name as per India heritage and the growth of the movement since the introduction of the Maha Mantra to the west.

With ISKCON decrying the fate of “dog eaters” and China waiting in the wings, these things had not been thought through well enough and Donald Trump came to power to show the weakness of the liberal elite with Joe Biden and to take totalitarian control to stop such internet leaks after COVID caused massive social breakdown.

What would the Africans make of my mother being from Kenya Nairobi?

When I was walking the streets campaigning for the Tory Party after Rishi Sunak’s election win with MP Gary Sambrook and seeing what Professor Noam Chomsky meant about “social democracy”, I was struck by the scope of Deepak Chopra’s vision of Yoga and his use of the internet. I walked streets close to where I grew up in Rubery Birmingham and they were quite lonely compared to the love in the house where I lived as I contemplated Dr Chopra’s dominance online and war with Professor Richard Dawkins to dominate online resources and TV rights in the wake of Oprah Winfrey’s billions and TV Empire. To see Dr chopra walk beside me and see him want Krishna worship and meditation in all the homes I visited was a terrifying vision of emptiness and to remember the Russians saying through Mikhail Gorbachev that they urgently wanted the knowledge in Dr Chopra’s books is to see where we are heading as a medical community investigating the link between kind and matter and cutting through Drs preconditions for medical prescriptions. This is all taking place in a land where the royal family enjoy rude health and do not have any guns while trying to emulate the american way of life and have issues with violence in schools which the medical community medicate as they did me for hostility without a clear military exam for peacefulness and no real models or speeches for the people to follow to assess their peace.

When I was at EnlightenNext a beautiful Hindu woman showed up one time for Wednesday evening meditation session. She asked a question: If someone showed up claiming to be the Messiah how would we know they were psychologically sane? It was somewhat uncharacteristic and never came up again or met with mute response from Christopher Bruce Parish who was the executive director of the premises and who hosted meditation evenings.

Jehovah had a word with me that Andrew Cohen was an American Psycho in London and cited his book 11 days at the Edge when he said that if you hear voices when you meditate you are psychotic. So Jehovah was saying that Andrew Cohen hears voices and that his plans for society and his worldview was one of psychosis and was not a sound civilisation and had betrayed American idealism and that He was saving me from them and their travelling ways of finding new recruits to harness their views about society.

I locate the desire in my body for sugar. I have been diagnosed with type two diabetes. Krishna told me to pray for this to be healed. I have brought my sugar levels down to normal with medication and advice from Dr Dahl at Millennium Medical Centre.

The musician Sting has issued a press release calling for a mature discussion on drugs and does not gloss over the health side effect of taking them. He has openly said he smokes marijuana to free up an idea and write songs.

It is important when healing and accessing higher domains of awareness to not get into agreements with the living and the dead. I am not a Co-Creator with anyone and have made no bonds other than with Sting and the Dalai Lama in 2002 to operate on terms with Brahma Vishnu and Shiva. I never was and am not a member of EnlightenNext. I was too poor to research it at University and nobody was interested in my literary thesis to research spirituality and TS Eliot and EM Forster to PhD level. I feel I have accomplished this with Shiva’s grace with my poetry website accompanied with biographical detail modifying how my poetry will be read and researched to accurately reflect my life since leaving Grammar School in 1996 where my brother studied too and time jumper two years to stay with me on the spiritual path.

I was not here when 9/11 happened. Through some mystical and magical happening I experienced 9/11 during term time while studying at the college of law in 2001. That cannot be so as September 11 was during my summer holidays and I was on holiday in Egypt with my family and also I went to Portugal with my friends that year for a week. I recall going to Oxford to see my tutor and that would have coincided with the end of September and beginning of October and he offered me a job in research aqnd I told him I couldn’t because I was studying law. I recall my colleague Joe Combes came out of the College of Law bulding and told me that two planes had just flown into the World Trade Centre and my first thoughts were “the chickens have come home to roost”. But that means it would have been during term time and term at the College of Law starts after October.

Also Sting was scheduled to perform a broadcast from his Italian home in Tuscany that night and cancelled ir due to 9/11. He can do this due to occultism and Satanism and it is a day when our energies can be fairly well examined by Shiva for the appearance and disappearance of this world in Kali Yuga and also for the establishment of an Age of Shiva when ignorance dominated my life about conspiracy theories and what is possible in this world of form.

Professor Noam Chomsky has stated that there was a second 9/11 in South America when the Americans were engaged in diplomatic affairs. This is Bible Code therapy and that 9/11 refers to Mayan Gods and Goddesses taking power away from the Americans with Xenu as well from Scientology and OT 3 for how they treated human being after so called World War Two. That second 9/11 is within my grasp as an internet user who stayed at home and watched YouTube during the 2000s and keeps his memory in spite of the Americans watching on as the British medicated me with British mental health without spirituality and religion with all the resources they had in America. It is a move towards my independence as I master the GBO with £1300 a month real terms salary for 37.5 hours work a week as my brother looks on and is idle at home. I don’t recall phoning home on 9/11 to find out how my family were doing and this could help free up my brother’s awareness and get him out of American and British traps too. We are just Pakis to the West and they have not done the healing or clearing work we have to be so liberated to the Spirit to have earned these resources as our own and not to have to share them with the Americans who took my work with Amazon and spent the money without offering me any. So much for contracts and the myth of personality and the need for the UN in the future to rule the roost and lecture us on crap education about Nazi Germany with no meaningful references from politicians about history as a Paul Hegseth calls out the Royal Navy for not featuring in Donald Trump’s madness and attack on Iran with only Israel to stand by his side and act for the TV cameras and news comaraderie.

22/05/26

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Krishna has warned me that my mother’s death will hit me like a thunderbolt and every now and then I get insight into what he means. The Hindus deal with woman as Maya and an illusion and have a whole sales patter to preach to the Pundit at the Temple about Mother and family dynamics with Arjuna spinning around the battlefield in Mahabharata and other Hindu stories. It is my hope to build a community that keeps in touch with me to guard against too much aloneness with Henry David Thoreau in Walden and helps me cope with growing old. The world of change is now really in the Now and the Buddha is a tough task master with so much at stake with putting Great China on show to compete with foreign markets and use social media so they can develop new technologies well and benefit from Sathya Sai Baba’s book which I sent them on the Golden Age to seek to solve old problems in new ways and find a space for the Dalai Lama to return there in years and ages to come.

This Blog is not an official government document. It is my private webpage for home use and to be added to as time goes by and then marketed in accordance with my personal resources as I work and earn a wage of £18K a year as an IT apprentice to fund my work as time goes by and I see things and have visions of the Chinese government and see them looking at the phone for phone prices and not spiritual enlightenment.

This morning I woke up with the memory of the devil tempting me into the world of corporate law and with one interview at Gouldens with Charters MacDonald Brown and Clare Deansley and then the merger with Jones Day mixing my life in London.

I grew up enamoured by the differences between loving someone and being or falling in love with them. I was ignorant about love and come from the split between my mother and father and I had distrust built and developed over time as I was continually heartbroken finding out that potential partners were not my mother and did not acquiesce to my needs as I wanted.

The secret to life is to find your class and station and then stick to that. Too much meditation floats in England and is influenced by America but what are you doing when you meditate and who are your role models and what are you learning about and where is this settling your distinctions of caste and creed? Mine is to go to work and to come home and pass the evening with some food and TV and spend time with my mother and brother at the weekends. it is also to play a social game of Township on my phone and build a village with crops and animals. It is not to aspire to world rule but to live in 6 Shilton Grove and release these article maybe years from now when I get around to marketing them on my laptop and I will have to email them to myself from my phone and then cut and paste them from my email on my laptop. it is like Emerson or Whitman or Thoreau – men more advanced in society than me but men content with their station of being a writer. Krishna told me to look within and see a graduate who is culturally condition and who does not have a mortgage and this soars into highs and lows with Ranvir Turner and other cousins in the Mohan and Turner family tribe as my mother’s brothers and sisters have conventional family’s that enjoy the world of material things and partake in social affairs as normal. That is what they grew to do and something I took part in within the wealth when I was student from the ages of 17-24 when I listened to Sting every day and spent money on CDs and books and had a Spartan wardrobe recycling the same clothes at social events and going out to keep up with the Jones’s and affront the Oxford social scene the best I could with the social skills I had at the time. That was my class. Not very high. Then it came time to have a nervous breakdown in 2002 and that is something that occurred again in 2013. Had Krishna not involved himself in my life God knows where I would have been.

What is the personality when the I AM is with the 10 commandments and the Prophecy of Jesus is at play?

How many chakras do I have because of past lives? Who or what am I responsible for as Krishna says: “Those that are wise grieve for neither the living or the dead.”

I am God. This phrase is located in the genitals and comes from the experience of ejaculation and power over another and control of the mind and needs to be broken for the Indian man to get control over his base chakra.

Apart from the works of Salman Rushdie all I know is Anita and Me. So I write biographical to clear myself of guilt in a Christian country with the account of blasphemy on my NHS record and a sketchy timelines of depression and poor mental health issues living in poverty with my brother since our father went back to India in the 2000s and sold his car and gave me the instalments as maintenance payments to supplement the loan I took out to fund my legal studies between 2000-2002.

I want the Chinese government to come and meet me in England so I can administer my work and deal with my past life karma and face the fact that the corporate life gave me a nervous breakdown and drove me to smoke marijuana and drugs.

Jehovah is measuring a Parish in Weoley Castle. He has erected two 5G towers to observe my habit on the internet and has comparisons with my early childhood with St Brigid’s Church from 1985-1989 with Ritesh being the first non-Roman Catholic that the Church admitted under Sister Marjorie due to an administrative error that granted him a place after my mother had it explained to her that her son was not the proper caste to study at the School and Church. I was back at St Brigid’s after I left Elim Church around 2024 until the Father told me that I would need to do a course to continue to receive Eucharist. I have written to him since then explaining my position. Krishna told me to give him a copy of the Bhagavad Gita and The Works of William Blake as He wants me to be like William Blake for Hindus. St Gabriel is the patron saint of telecommunication online so he can control media before “ether” was documented in ISKCON as one of Krishna’s creations and constituted parts of the human race and earthly world. Rameses II told me that Birmingham had been used to measure alien races intervening in a big way in London after EnlightenNext collapsed in 2012 and this measurement with distance and space is more up Ritesh’s street and things he likes to look at being so long posted to take care of Arcturus and Greek heritage with Scientology precision on the reactive and active minds to live as a monk devoted to Christ for his sexual abstinence who doubts Krishna’s efficacy for the modern age.

I used the Sound of Light by Dr Judy Satori in c.2012 to clear blockages in my chakras and attempt to build a 12 strand DNA body. I failed to keep to the timing of these transmission of words of energy and fell asleep with them on one night and must have absorbed hundreds of transmissions. Jehovah told me it was the Sound of Satan and that there was a massive exorcism of me going on and showed me how to reach 60 dimensions to rival William Blake for the Marriage of Heaven and Hell and now to tell me to calm down as I have grounded my writings and Ritesh at St Brigid’s Roman Catholic Church for me to upload these articles to my WordPress site and advertise my poetry to academics to study and mental health academics too.

I find it illuminating about British racism and the lies of healthcare in the NHS that I spent 22 years waiting for the NHS to help me after India and was hospitalised 4 times while Russell Brand made people laugh and chanted Hare Krishna and the police sat back and watched his sexist jokes and racist routine.

What is a laptop and how does it control time and space? What is the internet and how can world governments lie about fibre optic cables all over the world and under the sea? These type of miracles are the stuff of Egyptian pyramids and need to be gotten a hold of so the world’s imagination is protected and working life is secured by good TV and social media? How does the TV broadcast and what is the science of telegraph poles in ancient America with the Native American Indians there? Is there a return to ancient ways with the golden age or is man speeding ahead with nuclear technology and politicians blocking up the TV and internet with their faces and policies?

It is telling that a distant relative called Omkar Nath Channa visited me in the 2000s when I was suffering from religious stress due to prophecies from India about my imminent success and birth chart: That nobody else from the 12 brothers and sister had been to see me or enquire about my well being. None of the cousins called and it is of not that Channan had written a book called the role of the Court Interpreter. I needed an interpreter to understand the distressing ways of the extended family as they held me in disdain for only speaking English. Dipak Mohan, social worker, was out building his little empire and did not respect our family’s space to help us with the phone calls from India.

The poet William Blake wrote that “Energy is eternal delight” and even fancied he was writing with prophets in The Marriage of Heaven and Hell. My list of original religious and spiritual names and experiences owes its courage to William Blake to express myself with honesty and candour and expect to be ridiculed for it – especially after the threat and fear of Drs and Nurses claiming a relapse and more irrational and unwarranted and unexamined medication. They really are pill pushers and one imagines if this was some years back I would have been subjected to ECT. The energy in question with my religious experiences is Krishna’s energy which also belongs to Allah, Jehovah and Buddha and then there is also Qi and Reiki which I have experience of too with the Dao balancing things and waking me up early in the morning too.

I don’t think I have ever really enjoyed a happy day in England since my teenage years. There was one girlfriend I got off with when I was 17 and I recall feeling happy the day after but that was short lived. The Drs have nailed happiness to the cross and the local GP knows nothing about me other than my reticence to take medication because nobody talks to me properly and they keep their police work to themselves. They too are snobs because I don’t speak Hindi and have never mentioned military detail or religious work in all the years I have been living in Weoley Castle since 1993. They just stupify the mind to behave like a graduate and be normal and don’t know the strain this puts on my life – it is a sign of a poor intellectual and economic class indeed to not be able to talk about spiritual experiences with Drs and Consultants who are more concerned with how much money they can make and spend quickly.

Buddha stopped by in 2013 to show me what a demon looks like and how far some souls have to travel before they reach enlightenment. It would have been so much easier if I could have just told my Drs that I am searching for spiritual enlightenment ansd not take medication with no discussion of my racial predicament. Krishna bought a lot of demons to haunt me that year and said they went so far as to examine me medically as to cope with my mother’s funeral. Vishnu charged me with suffering for not being independent and this is something I am working on with getting into an IT career to stabilise my normal and ordinary waking activities to please the Drs and Nurses and to fulfil my requirements under the Mental Health Act 1983.

Notably I have not gone bankrupt and can hold the position of Director of a Company as can Ritesh and my mother in spite of years of suffering in Weoley Castle where our Parish with St Gabriel’s is starting to make sense.

I have £8000 on credit in my Barclays account and have set up an ISA. This equates to 80,000 rupees. My grandfather once gace me 40,000 rupees to spend over my summer holiday in 2000 when I visited my father in Jalandhar for five weeks. I spent about 15,000 rupees and returned the rest back to him.

Seeing the Golden Light or Krishna’s energy move as I write on the iPhone or think about writing while I sit at my desk at work is quite a surreal activity. It looks like I am doing things as a Healer and had the effect of astrally travelling to see people.

I suffer from the Imposter Syndrome and have discussed this with AI to bring it to the surface so it stops me worrying about being found out especially at work. It affects me in my stomach and chest and suffers me to experience pain and anxiety as I fear being found out as a Healer. I recall watching the TV show Merlin and how such castes are shunned by society and attacked – this is something I have experienced with the NHS and something my mother knew to be very hard with me about as I sauntered around as a high school graduate with an Oxford degree while my brother sat at home and meditated and practised his own religion and never went to university or saw London and Oxford life like I do. He is born and bred in Birmingham and travels by his at the age of 52.

Getting some direction: Now that I have set the goal in my life of emulating William Blake I find that I am resolved to better brain frequencies and can breathe a bit better. Many years ago I was visited by the spirit of Shakesepeare and I have seen him again recently towering down a chronology of literature that suits me and steers me away from the Hindu guru I have faced since I was very young with setting such as Oxford and London to challenge my own brand of spirituality and materialism surfing the waves of samsara to see if I could make sense of this things called God. Last night I was tossing and turning for four hours with the Word of God and Dao seemed to be triumphant again to warn me of the Dalai Lama and great men who stand on other people’s shoulders to be even greate in times of war and distress.

My mother has come through a lot more peaceful and happier to enjoy her old age without too much religious stuff going on and better resolved to know her sons childhood reading habits will be out to the workers via the internet and off to the academics to study and make popular. My brother can rest knowing I have some direction to use my time out of work once I have completed my apprenticeship in IT to good use and the struggle against evil and the spectre of Guru is won. It’s like Lord of the Rings – it is a darkness that blights my English speaking life and shuts me out of Hindu circles but it will come back again I’m sure to test the waters the farther I progress into society. It occurred to me I am not a great doer and man of action so staying at home and writing letters and using email to market myself after I have completed my webpage and used Krishna’s energy on the phone and the laptop means I have something to do and some direction on the voices and screams I hear of pain in the cosmos like Avalokitesvara: He who hears the cries of the world.