In my early years folder I deal with the first 48 years of my life and a lot of childhood memories and feelings as well as the first 13 years of my life being twice born again as a Christian for 2 years and dealt with this in a months worth of writing. This leads me to question what time is? How into formed and where does it come from? In Hinduism it is called a God called Kala and in Christianity Jesus is for moon control of it the Creator in Genesis and ruler of his own prophecy for his advent on earth as the Messiah. Allah once spoke to me about aeons taking past lives for millions of years and asked if his people could have past lives too as Buddha explored Kali Yuga and the devil looking at Buddhist eschatology.
Kali Yuga is a period of irreligiousness on earth when the prevailing deity Kali will rule and man will be given to conflict and chaos.
The ability to experience time appears uniquely human until we note that time is not merely clock time but the passing of seasons and the coming and going of night and day with the sun and the moon oscillating duties to govern the world and attend cosmic forces. If Jesus is to rebirth He will need to be in control of these forces and the book of Genesis needs to withstand more ridicule from atheists as the imagination stands up to abuse and is defended for what is possible with time when God is in control of it.
When will the Pope visit the UK?
The NHS diagnosis of me as suffering from Bipolar Disorder occurred in 2013 and listed Schizophrenic, Mani, Depression, Racy Thoughts and Psychosis in its report on me. This was following a consultation with my mother and maybe one observation of me in interview. These diagnoses were never discussed with me and I wonder what would have happened if I had not read the report saying I thought I was a Hindi incarnation of god?
This reminds me of J Krishnamurti and his teachings on how misleading the Guru was and how you could never ask another person how you can be saved and what the right answers are for you in your life. It combines with what Jesus taught on the dangers and pitfalls of trusting the world when the kingdom of heaven was full of peril and deceit and how in the end I was grateful that the NHS arrested my development for fear of what lay ahead but mistreated me as a member of ethnic and religious grouping which left me with delusions of grandeur to work out by myself. Jesus told Drs to “heal themselves” as he warned the kingdom of heaven is near at hand and available for anybody to reach out and grab it. The simplicity of the Holy Ghost is what baffles medics in a world of sensationalism and marketing where American mystics and priests sold everything including the kitchen sink to get popular and used Islam to defend their antiquated beliefs.
I healed the Nazi Holocaust with Jehovah and they have moved in cosmic space and in Heaven and Hell and this should make space for new things in the world. I have also healed the Viet Cong.
Prior to 2012 Dr Deepak Chopra towed the party line of the Democrats to insult Mahmoud Ahmedinajad who had airtime online speaking at the United Nations. In keeping with the USA’s dominance of mental health, he called Ahmedinajad a “psychotic” and has since been deleted on YouTube along with a lot of other videos where he called for a “critical mass of humanity” to raise consciousness and force world leader to adopt new peaceful policies in alignment with spirituality online.
How come the United Nations has not built offices abroad in the UK?
My brother and I missed out on a family inheritance in Jalandhar, Punjab with our grandfather’s ball bearing business IBI Ball Bearing PVT Ltd. He had six children and our father was the youngest brother who was sent to England to study at Bournville College in the 1970s. He met my mother and got married instead of completing his course and they fell in love and had my elder brother. Eventually they divorced in 1988 and my father moved to London to drive minicabs and keep in touch with me and brother. My brother was disenfranchised with the family situation and wanted to be left alone. I would socialise with my mother’s Islamic partner Karamat Ali who had been in prison for car theft and try to keep the peace with my father with regular visits to London Hounslow to see him. All he could really do was take us out shopping and try to bribe our affections as he worked 7 days a week driving taxis and would cook good food for us as we remembered him doing so when we were a family.
He eventually moved back to India in 2000 and me and my brother lost touch with him as we evolved and grew spiritually. I saw him in 2000 but suffered a nervous breakdown upon having spiritual realisation in 2002. I have spoken to him briefly since then but found being in touch on the smartphone too stressful and mixing bad memories in the home as he wanted to know about my mental health. He sold the family business and moved to outside Delhi and me and my brother did not get any shares in the business – something I lost out on when I chose God instead of corporate law in 2000-2002 and failed to develop into a healthy corporate man who travelled the world and did business while having a family of his own to boast of to keep up with the rest of my graduates from Oxford and King Edwards.
My religious transformation was even more painful than Eckhart Tolle with terrifying states of emptiness and nothingness to face alone with the silent support of my mother and brother who appear to have gone through these things before in previous births.
The female goddess Devi on the left hand side of the Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple represents my past life in India. I have been guided to this revelation by Durga who said how else could I have accomplished all that I have done and had such a successful relationship with my mother. Santosh is my mother’s name and there is a small statue of Santosh Mata in the Temple too. Santosh Mata originated from India and is worshipped in film and this symbol is fertile ground for the imagination and the path to ruin for our family as my painting sits behind glass and has a jyoti burning in front of it. During this past life I was acquainted with Lord Rama and worshipped Him and note that the glass that separates my painting from reality is the distance I have in Kali Yuga from such an opulent lifestyle. I don’t speak Hindi and don’t know Hindu scriptures beyond the Bhagavad Gita. But I can attest that the separation from reality represents The Soul Cages by Sting and now the “mind forged manacles of man” of William Blake that I saw when I was about 12 and fixated on throughout my English studies and makes its way into my poetry online. I listened to Sting obsessively every day from 12 to 24 when I stopped listening to music to look after my mind and body and saw in him a higher light to a deeper reality that was in keeping with contemporary spirituality that we all come from God and are heading there through transcendental means.
“the young so educated they never grow old” – Prince, Seven
Another empty day with money to fill that void instead of God.
The worship came through from Krishna a decade ago to watch my passion and confidence. I have been up since 4am meditating this morning and it is 7.30 and I see from the shifting shapes and patterns what he means. It is quite one thing to dwindle on my phone about celebrity life and the royal family. It is quite another thing to interact with them. My mother and I went to London last the day after Lillibut’s funeral and spent a day there and rode the Elizabeth line. That’s as close to royalty as we have come in our life. When I was in the Tazetta Suite of the QEHB for Bipolar Disorder my Buddhafield was the size of the West Midlands as Rama had tole me and I noted that Prince William came to Birmingham and did a public appearance. I feel affinity for him and Catherine because of their student life and interacting with the normal side of humanity and see myself influencing their generation and the younger one more than Prince Philip and King Charles for whom I had something to say online about corporate India with my social media videos between 2017-2024. But in keeping with what Krishna writes about in the Bhagavad Gita this is the age of my life when passion rules my Gunas and I am likely to be too over confident in one moment then too under confident in the next as I rule myself from my home in Weoley Castle and live out of one bedroom and deal with all these forms and shifting patterns to find a way to cope with living normal working life and waking up and travelling to work and earning a salary and building my webpage slowly so I can see and develop a plan to market it to British universities and even some people abroad for further research.
If I publish my work and advertise it to world leaders, my karma from school is strong. I have had many spiritual experiences since then and revealed my past lives too but the link to schooling and the role of parenting with my mother and the buried emotions of my father are located there in my unconscious as well as the ties to all the relatives and all their socialising. The rest has to be put to my higher self.
In India there was a holy man called Shirdi Sai Baba who is worshipped in India to this day. There was a TV Show of him which showed him healing someone and getting sick himself. Doubtless this is what happened to me and still does occur to this day as I experience weakness and suffer fearful states of being after encountering NHS Drs and Nurses who were heavy handed with the medication and did not want to discuss cause and effect in relation to my medical diagnosis as a Hindu incarnation of God. I have seen people make speeches claiming to be divine and write webpages proclaiming their human relationship with the people – after my trust has been burned with the DWP who charged me for PIP and ESA since 2013 to 2025 for my services and used me to fix this country’s spiritual apathy and non religious nature – I will let my webpage do the talking and rely on poetry to abstain from claiming religious perception.
I have been trying to answer the question What is a Healer for some years now and cannot arrive at a satisfactory concise explanation of a phenomenon I have been experiencing since I was very young. I can answer people’s prayers with recourse to Angels and help them fulfil their goals and ambitions in life by asking Hindu Gods and Goddesses. This is a step in the right direction of expanding on my current role as a poet and IT support technician and helps me further define the Buddhist Wheel of Suffering in terms of Abrahamic and Vedic deities.
I am a Healer. I use the Wheel of Suffering in Buddhism to elevate people from their current state and use my connections from past lives to improve situations on the planet: I am very quiet and barely talk as I am usually engaged in some transcendental activity and craving time to myself to meditate and recharge my batteries. I am very low on energy and find working life a bore. It takes a lot for me to travel to work and back and get the bus there for 2 hours and back for the same amount of time. Futhermore whilst I respect people’s time and money, I find the NHS has many rude callers who expect their work to be done in miracle timing and people are rushing me to complete my job. I would much rather stay at home and work as a writer but this is not fair on my mum and brother who need me to get out and prove that I don’t have mental health problems under the mental health act after the train wreck the Drs and Nurses brought into our lovely home.
I can interact with daily life normally and carry out normal duties and functions while attending to my spirituality and looking after myself as a graduate who has suffered many years unemployment (24) and is looking at being a 50 year old soon. So knowing that this writing is spied on and used to update databases and legally allow for 2012 arrangements after the world leaders tried to mainstream spirituality through their polling of people’s data: I am renouncing healing everyone and stating the tax code as reasonableness for what I can achieve.
I occupy a basic rate of tax and cannot afford to heal people in higher bands and that includes celebrities and politicians who come to me as well as royalty whom I see from time to time requesting healing.
In 2002 an energy worker did a reading on me and said that people were asking me questions. I can now see what she meant and see this occurring in the spiritual and religious realms with divine importance of earnest actions that have karmic consequences. I cannot continue to support this country’ government and media circus and will retrain myself to keep my energies to myself and just wish for good things for people of the same economic bracket.
I do not charge for what I do as Lord Indra told me there is no charge. But people are going to have to pay for this and stop saying I am like other people for equalising my life with others. It is enough humiliation to have the NHS imply that I am not special but it is even more to have to explain the difference between myself and others on this blog when spiritual teachers and masters have been dominating the internet for decades while I and my family receive nothing. Jesus writes in the Bible that you cannot mix God with money and this is doubtless part of some tests to make sure I am true and authentic but that does not give rich people the right to abuse me whatever nation they are from.
The original Christians had no libraries to speak of. They were just enamoured with duty and the word of God to create the Christian Church. Books and bibliographies have been built and they challenge our sensibilities today and are confronted by science to prove the veracity of their claims – that Jesus lives and His word is worth following. The King James Bible has taken centre stage and there are countless translations across the globe attesting to modernity and espousing the words that Jesus is alleged to have spoken and the Logos that is to be studied in Universities. England is different to America in that it has completed its colonial expansions and apart from Indian politics there is joy at the heart of the Christian Church. Americans are much more anxious and I feel their presence in my house for their post colonial moment of I Amness and proclaiming the greatness of the American nation, peoples and project while other countries get on with Christianity as business as usual. Stoicism supplements Greek Christianity and presupposes that the western people want to ruled by Aquarian gods with goddesses that have sexual ways on the surface quite different to eastern countries with their gods led by Krishna in the west doing his best to modernise things after only being 60 years old at ISKCON and bending with American naivety to rule the roost and proclaim a new gospel of Brahma about the life and disciplic succession of Krishna.
This is a blog. It is my personal webpage. Being spied on has done strange things to my head. There is not just America and England but hundreds of countries and this has affected my estimation of material wealth and what I am worth.
Brideshead Revisted by Evelyn Waugh tells the tale is dwindling authority at Oxford University and the growing need for the priesthood to cement its role there when dealing with student care. It is my hope this blog will circulate amongst academics and clerics alike to deal with issues of authority and morality nationwide so the out getting bogged down with topos and location The internet moved too quickly for some classes and groups and society and it’s time to have another go at it.
I caused 9/11. I have cause natural disasters on earth – earthquakes and floods and blackholes.
The Vietnam War was caused by the senses as the American were short sighted and could not see into the East. This is like the Ukraine War with Russians losing their sight and sound about Europe and getting lost after Brexit. The conflict in Iran is an extension of The Crusades.
“April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.” – T S Eliot The Waste Land
Much of what I write is due to memory and desire. I stimulate my own desire by publishing my thoughts and updating my consciousness for academic audiences. I fear the loss of memory in our country with American superdominance of our social media networks. We are not the history of Hollywood and the wars between Parliament and the Monarchy for power have left a gaping hole in British democracy where Nigel Farage is beating the BBC for ratings as he buys the next election with GBNews for the sake of the whole and to keep a cogent sense of what it means to be in this country with Monarchs too good for TV.
“Food eaten more than three hours after cooking it is said to be in the mode of ignorance (Tamas Guna)” – Srila Prabhupada, The Bhagavad Gita As It Is
When Srila Prabhupada was training for his role as a Sannyasi and when he finally embarked on his journey in America, fridges in India were not that common a phenomenon. This food cooked and eaten more than three hours after the time was said to be sullied and rotten having been left out in the heat. This posed a problem for meat eating and vegetarianism is common amongst Hindus. Some sacrifice their food before God and serve Him the food on their plate and thus give up the violence associated with the killing of an animal. ISKCON urge the noneating of meat but state that if you want to eat meat they pray and offer your food to Kali. I find it too hard to give up meat and offer my food to Kali and also go to Church and have been baptised so eating meat is not forbidden amongst Christians.
My mum started receiving phone calls about me in 2002. The phrase used was “the largest puja ever was done for me” and they have spoke about my special importance. Having Krishna near me is no joke and He advents to raise someone’s profile: “Wherever there is Arjuna and Krishna there is victory and opulence” (The Bhagavad Gita). I like the New Testament and the Gospels of Jesus but find the rest of the Bible too hard. The implications were that I would help the world with the prophecy of Jesus and one day would become famous. My mum had to cope with this all by herself and with both my brother and me knocked out of the race of life after Earth shattering events and hauntings in India in 2002. Ritesh could see a lot of evil being intended to me and was befuddled as to how it could be so. He was never one to try the rat race so sat back and watched the Drs treat me for depression when I lost my career as a trainee solicitor at Jones Day Gouldens. The mix of science and religion has been paramount to my success and Krishna warned me that I have no science in my life and this holds me back and stops me having choices. The plight of our family and the home remedies we tried to get better from evil and psychic attack lays fertile ground to those scientists who say that religion is too old fashioned and not relevant to today – something Andrew Cohen of the cult EnlightenNext was trying on as he was using India to be a fashionable guru and talk big.
My brother is a Naturopath and does not like Drs and Nurses. To him it’s all made up and Drs need computers to get their jobs done and read something off the screen. He would listen to the pundit from India in the 2000s that mum found in a village who said that I was not normal and that some people would come to visit me. The pundit would recite prayers and Ritesh would run the phone over his face believing in the Swami Vivekananda books he read when he was young and not the rough and shoddy diagnosis and speech of the Drs and Nurses who bamboozled me with processes and lexicon to leave me dumb before them as they performed Obs and wrote complicated words into their own laptops about their own health and keep up from studying their own health and keep up from studying their own degree which dovetails nicely with the racists n Parliament who don’t have one Daoist sitting with all the Muslims there and banter about terrorism and extremism from brown people. Where this leaves us with Nigel Farage and his immigration rants stirring up the nation is anyone’s guess and how much longer will be for my mum to suffer with her two sons is up for grabs too. What if this was another Hindu household, or what had been going on in Hindu households as they kow tow to Drs and Professionals to show up at their expensive houses and weddings with alcohol enough for the wine and whiskey drinking class who had too much to lose from my medical to play by the rules as the NHS does not hand out compensation as its staff are treated well and take up the headlines with propaganda since Tony Blair and his cronies dictated the news about the NHS and sob stories about shit.
The Indian education curriculum had been set on YouTube by George Walker Bush with his racist Islamaphobia and war mongering as youth clambered about looking for solutions to problems by protest and with democracy and Arundhati Roy with Salman Rushdie on Richard Dawkins’s social media with all those Hindu Bhajans on them and things that thw atheists do not understand.
Was Dr Ernie van Woerkhom channeling me when he was treating me for Bipolar Disorder?
Have Drs and Academics been seeking the power of the mind over matter in the UK and do they seek power over life with the ability to kill people with their minds and send them insane?
“The future of the British economy lies in science”- Gordon Brown PM in c.2000s on BBC
There is no review process from the NHS to deal with my family’s case. This is a shortcoming of Drs centralising out of London while listening to crap about Drs strikes and not enough pay when they have a job in this country developing strategies of creating insane people who use social media videos aimed at children where the Drs can start young giving advice while missing out on all that spirituality that came from America and was lost when EnlightenNext collapsed, mimicking Partition in India, taking all of the mind body spirit with it in America so the Drs escape without liability in this country and have Princess Catherine in their back pockets with her swimsuit body invulnerable to psychic attack and without armed guards around her while utilising the world’s resources.
“The debt you owe your mother you will never repay”- Sathya Sai Baba
These writings are coming out of a city slicker and someone who has always been in a big city. The countryside of England is a different matter but the English character is the same. The NHS is to be examined and updated from 1983 regardless of my status as a past life Hindu. What of my other lives in Greece or when I lived in England in Jacobean times? ISKCON is stating that people have had a million lives and need to remember their time with Krishna to make this a successful life. That is why Tibet is so powerful for its ancestry into the darkness and where historians have yet to lead politicians and their money. In Tibet and on Buddha Bar a past life reincarnation is known as a Tulku and Chinese medicine boasts the Dao to be able to take into consideration spirituality without shutting it down like the NHS does and denies my mother her human rights and freedom of expression with the one in one out right of a Dr to be by himself with a patient.
