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15/06/26

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I hope to help with voices in the fields I have identified that I work with in spirituality like African Americans have dealt with voices in their diverse literary tradition to challenge thew fields of modernism and postmodernism to become more inclusive and accepting of racial lines. The role of Hindus is complex and the field is not clearly drawn out in English as they lean on western experiences of spirituality to intimate their own diversity.

The role of Messiah and the Second Coming of Christ is about the Guru from India and someone who is able to function and take on all that life has to offer. They can explain anything about the world and carry with them a projection from the psyche about modern life and enact a role of being a saviour that politicians exploit and religious establishments have to manage on a regular basis as they confront religious evil and the stresses that enter British homes on a day to day basis.

I spend a lot of time looking for my mother and brother’s approval of me.

Modern spiritual cults ignore the family unit. Are they under the spell of Buddhism dealing with Kali Yuga and the idealism of aloneness set forth by Henry David Thoreau with a penchant for modern meditation that pulls in Buddhist archetypes and Hindu moulds to represent the seated lotus position and expose people to yoga teachers working for profit and reputation in the industry?

What role with Hindus play in the British film industry in the future and how can they integrate as part of the country under the Royal Family?

The same was that Jews access the unconscious to dominate the modern pain body, Hindus are caught between two rocks with Yoga and Spirituality / Mind Body Spirit dominating narratives and being unable to shift racial boundaries for sexual tensions and real world concerns that include family life and the actual making of progress on the spiritual and religious path.

Stoicism took over as England’s main religion as the Chinese took the Bible away and rumours of a British Asian rebellion at ISKCON with Prime Minister Rishi Sunak swearing on The Bhagavad Gita. The Chinese studied the Bible again for some years and explored classical England for its democracy and royal houses as India and other countries lay in the rubble of eastern democracies and the internet boom of the 2000s and rush for journalism to question their leaders and enslave the human race into bondage at home while religions struggled to keep up and stay relevant to the world at large. If this did not happen in real time circles and in cosmic under focus for all that was seen to happen in Birmingham around me and during the course of my family and extended family’s life.

Dr Avril Bruten used to question me personally and try to find out why I was such a loner at St Hugh’s College. When she found out that my parents were divorced she backed off and said she understood why she was proving me. We never studied British Asian consciousness together like I did with Professor McDonald and she gave me a copy of the play she wrote called Mortal Conditions and called me “enigmatic”. She said to try to experience “serious enjoyment” in life; whatever that means.

I never bonded so personally with another tutor away from my subject books and essays.

Jamie Morris was a colleage at St Hugh’s College. His father was on the Times 100 rich list. He never told me he was on this list.

I am and always have been a very quiet person. You could call me an introvert but I shy away from labels these days. I am always thinking about God and God is not an exciting subject with lots to talk about. Including my family, I have been self conscious for the past few years about how quiet I am and starting work in February 2026 was daunting for the liveliness of teenagers and twenty somethings around me. My mum pulled me up on my demeanour yesterday and criticised how much I meditate and how I don’t display the characteristics of a happy man.

I carry a lot of the collective and deep within is shame and also a fair bit of blame for thw way my religious experiences have been dealt with since 2002 as I face being an Arjuna and hapless victim for psychological purposes for poise and higher development.

Yesterday I could not sleep. I was upset because my mother had chided me about my spirituality and how I was letting myself fall down in life. She was right to approach me and caught me off guard but I’d had not been easy to find myself when my days have been empty and I find working on my website with work is a good balance to help me come out of religious hysteria and to direct my attention and gaze back to Drs and Academics who have power to make me rich and famous.

It is like Frodo in Lord of the Rings and I felt myself overcome by darkness as I wrote about politics and the royal family. This is Harry Potter territory when he deals with snakes and the dead devil Voldemort and black ley lines as he tries spells to protect himself. I definitely let the blogosphere get the better of me and was too excited to see my journal and articles up in print with the white light and energy that they generate on my phone being with Krishna and harnessing my past lives to be “simultaneously one but different” from Krishna and pipping my brother to the post as an energy healer.

From my memory of Oxford English literature was about pain. The pain charachters experiences in their growth and development and the pain I went through reading the books and struggling to write essays to tight weekly deadlines. People who doubt my claims to past life experiences would do well to recall that I was once an Oxford man whose wilderness in life has prepared him for a future with Krishna as Arjuna that is exploitable as I create space for new relationships and for other people to experience spiritual and religious things.

Jesus and diabetes is a good topic. Drs can ask of the user is grasping and clinging for Christ and if indeed they see a white light or are a believer that their energy problems will be healed by the Holy Ghost.

How much unhappiness we experience in our home in 6 Shilton Grove because of Mr Dipak Mohan – mum’s younger brother who only lives down the road in Kings Norton and used to live in Solihull. his materialistic Hindu ways have cast a net ensnaring our family at the Shree Geeta Bhawan temple and shrouding us in the kleshas of Buddhism as we deal with his protection of Mr Ranvir Turner who lost his father when he was very young and continued to blame me for the very bad things in life and set up a rivalry as I went off to study and Ritesh failed at The Church of Scientology. It’s like trying to get on and do your own thing but someone keeps crapping on your doorstep to let you know they are still there and want to be a part of your life if even to keep an eye on how poor you are and what you’re going to say about them. Granted the uncles are vegetarians and tea totallers but so was Hitler as the violence within them finds its pet project with Ranvir taking over the Mohan family empire and family occasions with his drinking and Bhangra ways and penchant for violence. Me and my brother just can’t find any peace in our home with our mother still caught in motivational speeches about being able to make it in life and about being rich and having our own houses and cars and things and ignorance about the phone calls from India that spoke of greatness. I guess I will just have to leave Israel behind and my links to the Holy City and put in my request for riches so my family can move out of our home and the world at large can fund my writing and career.

When I refer to films I make use of my mind and see a hidden language that has been used through the ages building up in art work that develops my English degree and fascination with the differences between the worlds of appearance and reality and the inner and outer world of men and women. I grew up believing that it was unhealthy and mentally unsafe to quote Hollywood as reference guides for life and always remember seeing Star Wars as the pinnacle of the best film making possible with the Jedi Force transcending racial and ethnic boundaries and developing the faiths and paths of different religions.

As I grow older however I see the limits placed on the imagination and the dangers inherent in referencing the films as a substitue for reality. Doing so is just a matter of research and a detout for the mind for a while as the pressure builds up to describe reality and the world of manifestation.

Where did World War Three go in the imagination of man? The 1980s were full of apocalypse in Hollywood and China and an India struggled to compete with the violence and sex harboured on America’s shores.

It is like the scene when Morpheus shows Neo what the world actually looks like and to see the world at play and not the BBC defined world to include an American matrix and some odd descriptions of activities in other countries and leave it at that. The skies were planned to be scorched by nuclear atomic warfare and the prophecy held out that 800 years of darkness were planned in response to America’s request for global dominance and in defiance of the Dalai Lama’s prayers for peace and resistance. Who were his Neos and Morpheus’s and who did he teach to develop a twenty first century that look a lot different to the one the Americans hatched when Sadaam Hussein and Osama Bin Laden were vilified on social media as Barack Obama showed his true Christian colours and plotted Crusades to destroy Israel and summon the end of the dharma so that either Krishna or Christ would come back to the world and fix things.

“You must become like a child to enter the kingdom of heaven” – Lord Jesus in the Bible

A few years ago I experienced a sonic boom from America.

There are 3 5G towers manifest within 1 square mile of our house and Weoley Castle is not an affluent area.

ASDA opened up a 24 hour supermarket the year I went to a mental hospital just down the road from us in Weoley Castle. The Barnes Hill dogs home was subsequently shut down and the ASDA store stopped trading 24 hours. The Heron food store in Weoley Castle replaced Budgens and Sommerfield and has been there for some time. New hairdressers moved in from Europe and brought with them new staff and Daoist artwork in one shop opposite ASDA.

This is culture and the coming and going of appearance and reality with the individual mixing in society at various levels of interest.

I would be interested to listen to someone a Birmingham historian explain how Birmingham has changed in my life rather than have Dr Yasmin Khan of Oxrord University make racist dramas about the so called British Asian experience on the BBC. Broad Street and Harborne are linked by the same bus routes and it could benefit me to find out how they both changed due to European influence to shut out alcoholic traders as the Harborne mile of Paul Ready shut down as new students paid fees and travelled better in Birmingham.

Biringham is the land of J R R Tolkien who also moved to Oxford to research theology and litereature; when it was still profitale to do so and before the advent of AI and how The Matrix defines how we sleep and eat and dream. His initials are a match for mine and Radha Ranis and I day dream about fantasise about the Land of Rohan and my avoidance of a marriage ring to defy convention to cause unrest in the Bardos and alert China to unusual activity and suspicious of Neo Christian artwork and the dominance of science to control husbandry in English throughout the world.

Writing on the phone is like a Scientology auditing session – you never know what you’re going to hit as you mine consciousness to find things to say. There is a lot of energy involved and the mind travels through time and space and is engaging matter to deal with one’s mind and bodily relations across the 8 dynamics.

I contacted my first lot of academics yesterday. I sent an email to several contacts now that I have The Office of Rohan Rishi set up and I contacted English Professors and Tutors at Birmingham University with my website. I realise that things don’t work out exactly like a computer and I need to write to people individually and reflect on the contents of my emails. This means I can think and develop and grow spiritually and process the work I have done and life I have lived as I invite people in to have a look at my work via my private website.

I like to repeat things and rewrite them in my articles. I never know who is going to read what where on my website and in what order. My chronology is spread out over different topics and biography is not so simple as reading a timeline when my CV bears down on my personal life.

One day my blog will be published and these are the humble beginnings of my book written on my iPhone 14 on the x12 bus from near Chelmsley Wood on my way back to Birmingham City Centre from which place I get the 21 bus to Weoley Castle and am home about 8pm. I have my dinner and watch a bit of TV or log on and maybe have an ice cream and am in bed for 9pm. As I get more into my writing and progress beyond the creativity phase of writing poertry I won’t watch TV anymore unless I am having my dinner and then I will be able to cope with and make the news palatable to me as I go on. My mother is quite the spy. The way she spends hours reading the news and watching blogs helps her stay up to date with her brothers. Her sisters are not very political except for Sudesh and her elder brother Madan Mohan from Canada who lives in Coventry is a motor mouth when it comes to the news and current affairs and whenever he and mum catch up they have lots to talk about. This is not like myself and Ritesh who spend our days in silence working on the mind I am opening up that mind to communicate online. Today I had a vision of myself as a buddha – something I have not seen before.

Saying that Jesus existed before the world was made and come down to earth from Heaven is being repeated at ISKCON. There it is written that Krishna existed in his original form in the planet Goloka Vrinadavan and he advented on the earth in the year 3102BC. It is of note that the Bible history would have been running parallel to His life in ISCKON, unlike with Rama whose lifetime was before history began. Shiva too is outside of the scope of Biblical historical why can’t they be God? who came down to the earth as Jesus and redeemed the human race? Shiva once imparted to me that he was part of Jesus’s creation with other Devis and Devas. Who else was there to start the ball rolling at 0? Will we see a Before Krishna one day and how like Christ is Krishna in starting a new religion right before our very eyes?

I experience a lot of Tamas and Rajas Guna. I feel heavy and lethargic and sluggish and am quiet and withdrawn from life only travelling to work by bus for two hours plus and back. I listen to Hare Krishna mantra on YouTube which is itself a sign of the industrialised mind churning over like a machine regurgitating today and tomorrow for what remains and can be thought of as yesterday, while engaging in human relationships with family and new colleagues at work while experiencing the range of emotions from happiness to distress and witnessing gain and loss as my lot in society.

I have never taken part in a political protest in the UK

Sometimes I feel claustrophobic and that don’t have much room to move in. When I reflect on how life is interconnected and how I have been followed since I was a youth and spied on by various forces, I see that my former acquaintances Amal Clooney and Rishi Sunak have both met the Royal Family and that when I was campaigning with Gary Sambrook MP he also met King Charles and Rishi Sunak in 2024. This leads me to realise that my writing has been read by people in the highest quarters and that I have effectively been well known and that I have suffered stress in 2013 when I went to the Tazetta Suite at the new QEHB but that we don’t need to wait for America to interact with us but that this is a country run by the Royal Family and British MPs and they have seen my work and that I need to acclimatise as I start writing to British academics to read my poetry and stop acting like a poor person who is unknown and elevate myself slowly and be expectant of success.

A few years ago around 2022 I wrote t the Police in the UK and provided access for them to read what is on my desktop. I realised in London that I was being spied on so when I started writing my consciousness was a bit strained to be so poor and not to have a mortgage as a graduate for so many years from 2013 when I started writing on my iPad to now. So when I wrote to the Police in the UK I updated them on Birmingham’s progress as the second city of finance and gave them space from my use of Krishna and religion and EnlightenNext on the field of Oneness. I also helped them see what was wrong with the Dalai Lama and helped them prepare for his death and the change of data on YouTube and the karma attached to Rishi Sunak as Britains first British Asian Prime Minister.

Now what remains is for me to come up above the line and balance my consciousness as I write to British academics to review my poetry and contact other resources in time to modernise myself and fit in with British culture.

My experience with mysticism led me to write like I was being spied on to not have secrets from government forces. In particular my experience with Sathya Sai Baba from India and my observation of his karma as an avatar and someone proclaiming to be godly and the backlash against his type of person led me int empirically grounded approaches to truh to verify myself as Rohan Rishi and confront mental health in the UK. This way I am not hiding things from the British aristocracy who get to choose how they treat my work and the relationship they have with me and the American data that fuels my research and the experiences I have had with magic and witchcraft with the 14th Dalai Lama of Tibet. The roles of India and China come to play as I use the WiFi on my phone but are distant as I contact reality and play the part of my normal social consciousness.

I realised as I had a nervous breakdown that I would do well to record it on social media and on Twitter/X, Facebook/ Meta and Instagram and TikTok. There would be facial gestures that are not common to the British Asian and would do well to help Bollywood with their research into social advancement and westernisation.

The actress Aishwarya Rai Bachchan had already interacted with me via social media and in response to my reactions to her as well as other forces she put on a lot of weight and I am guessing suffered mental health problems and was medicated as she wuite the acting business and raised her daugher in public. This was also after Sathya Sai Baba dies prematurely and before his prophecies 96 years and contacted me about his creation of an online avatar system to continue his ministry with Prema Sai Avatar being a play of EnlightenNext (where I saw Sai Baba in London experimenting with his third incarnation as Prema Sai Avatar in 2010) and the Telos of Pierre Teilhard de Chardin and the eventual return of Jesus Christ to earth.

When priest prophecy the return of Jesus Christ to earth they just imagine the first one living his life again and looking the same. Sufficient work has not been put into this field.

Sri Krishna Chaitanya is due to emerge on earth in the next 1500 years and could be mistaken as the second coming of christ.

I have problems watching the news. Meditating and organising my life as a writer is helping with that. I feel too stressed keeping up with the charlatans and chatterboxes on the news and trying to match their frequencies to keep up with their dialogues and interactions. Fortunately Donald Trump has maintained a continuum from the past that I recognise with George W Bush and Bill Clinton and I am ready to resume keeping up with the news via Social Media and YouTube now that my blog is up and running and above the line as a spy to engage social services properly and maintain my distance from West Midlands Police forces.

How the chief of police in the US State differs from the PC who is racist in this country and cannot help me or provide protection for my family.

When Jesus came to earth and put on a show of being treated badly for his divinity, he was interacting with the history of the world and how religious authenticity is something to be fought for. This is apparent in the Sermon on the Mount when he appluads those who are persecuted in His name and for standing up for His values. It is embedded in the Jewish faith to be outcasts for the sake of the Messiah and Jesus came to the world to show the history of the Jewish people and other faiths and how they squabble for religious pride.

Being a religious avatar is not so easy as stepping out of my front door and getting the bus to work. The online world mirrors the deep mind I have where I feel connected to many facets of life – the Dalai Lama of Tibet being one of them. The task ahead of me as a writer is to engage normal time of 7 days and 7 nights and to leave cosmic time and deep time and the Yugas to my meditation and other calendars so that my personal life improves and I am able to handle interaction with people better; both online and in person.

My mum used to sell frozen food and clothes in an indoor market before working for two decades as a British Asian businesswoman. She pulled me up on Saturday about being too aloof. There’s nothing much I can to about this other than try to relate to people better at work and get out more at the weekend, but I see what she means – that I am too much in a trance and enamoured by my own enlightenment to be adrift in the world looking for God again and thankfully taking my medication more regularly and not listening to my naturopath brother to stop taking them and regress decades of work to modernise myself and keep up with the modern day and age. My mother is also of the mind that there is nothing wrong with me and it is all in my head and these are just labels that people put on yourself as mental health and in some part she is right – Bipolar doesn’t really do much for me and I would have preferred Depression with some acknowledgement of my spiritual and religious resources to have visions that the UK medical authorities did not deal with.

I was studying Religious Studies A-Level when I was 16-18 and we had a Priest as our school teacher: The Reverend Michael Beech. The lady who accompanied him as our other R.E. teacher was Mrs Christine Higgs. She was responsible for the New Testament and I found her lessons difficult to concentrate in. The lesson still stays with me of Redactive Criticism and the fact that the Gospels differ in their account of Jesus so as not to worry about being an expert in them. Reverend Michael Beech studied the other half of the curriculum with us: Philosophy of Religion and I got on with that very well. The largest essay I wrote was 16 pages and Mr Beech said I was writing degree standard essays at school.

We studied Cosmology, Teleology, Ontology and Faith and Belief. Studying RE helped me realise I was a good writer and to apply to Oxford to study English. The Reverend Beech passed away during our first year at school and was replaced by a Russian Orthodox minister, Mr Prior who took us for our second year of study. Paul Ready was in my class and he kept in contact with Christine Higgs via letters for years after school and during our stay together on our flat in Maida Vale while reading eastern texts and studying modern Buddhism with Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, the Tao of Pooh and the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying. He was also in my English class and we studied E M Forster’s A Passage to India together as well as Othello and Philip Larkin. He went on to study acting at LAMDA and appears next to me in my divinity missing a year in his life as he spent four years studying a three year diploma at LAMDA and has an unexplained gap year that cannot be accounted for as I was at Scientology with my brother and yet he keeps up with me until I go to a mental hospital in 2013. He has not recorded his birthday normally on Wikipedia and is missing the date of the 25th October as one day before mine on the 26th October as of writing this blog.

If you read my poems that deal with the Yugas and Kalpas of Hindu time as well as Deep Time of the Aquarian and Classical Christian calendar: How do you feel? What do you gain spending time with me online? Do you feel more experienced or do you feel more able to cope with life and death? I hope to enrich your experience of life and better equip you to deal with the world of Shiva and appearance and reality that he let me through since I was 16 and when I left school and went out into the big wide world to suffer and pick up scars that are evident in my rough free verse and turgid prose. Do you feel a voice beyond your lifetime calling you to a different experience of yourself from the mainstream media and medical consensus. I hope to impress upon your soul an affinity for transcendent thinking and an elevation beyond the conscious mind’s present day obsessions with sport and gambling and sex and party lifestyle – I have fallen prey to these pastimes in my life. I hope we can come together and celebrate Jesus Christ and discuss his works via Email and look at the new uprising of Krishna Consciousness and perform some comparative religion via email and build a new network learning from the disappointments of the past and the collapse of EnlightenNext and how much that cult cost us in the short and long term with Greek culture and religion buried so deeply within it, as to take down all of Mind Body Spirit culture with it and leave us with Queen Elizabeth’s Christianity in its place.

When I started Grammar School in 1989, my brother was in the sixth form as a prefect. I remember because he was not wearing uniform as we waited for the bus together. How could this be? He is only 4 years older than me and should have been in year 4 Furthermore he asked Michael Lane to keep an eye on me when he left and Michael Lane was in the fifth form when Ritesh was in the upper sixth. Two brothers called Alex and David Emery mirrored myself and Ritesh and were also six years apart but had birthdays that were temporarily inconsistent.

I don’t know the significance of these missing years other than Zeus was having his way with me and planning his role with me in the world.

Spies have been using video recording to delete culture and cause amnesia. This has affected Tibetan negotiations.

I very rarely watch films nowadays and spend my evenings working on my website and doing research for historical purposes and so I can enter the Greek canon of great writers and be preserved for history’s purposes.

“The issue appears to be ownership” – Lord Jesus Christ

Kim Cattrall seems to have deleted her edition of The Kama Sutra following the wake of Mind Body Spirit destruction in 2012.

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10/06/2026

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In my early years folder I deal with the first 48 years of my life and a lot of childhood memories and feelings as well as the first 13 years of my life being twice born again as a Christian for 2 years and dealt with this in a months worth of writing. This leads me to question what time is? How into formed and where does it come from? In Hinduism it is called a God called Kala and in Christianity Jesus is for moon control of it the Creator in Genesis and ruler of his own prophecy for his advent on earth as the Messiah. Allah once spoke to me about aeons taking past lives for millions of years and asked if his people could have past lives too as Buddha explored Kali Yuga and the devil looking at Buddhist eschatology.

Kali Yuga is a period of irreligiousness on earth when the prevailing deity Kali will rule and man will be given to conflict and chaos.

The ability to experience time appears uniquely human until we note that time is not merely clock time but the passing of seasons and the coming and going of night and day with the sun and the moon oscillating duties to govern the world and attend cosmic forces. If Jesus is to rebirth He will need to be in control of these forces and the book of Genesis needs to withstand more ridicule from atheists as the imagination stands up to abuse and is defended for what is possible with time when God is in control of it.

When will the Pope visit the UK?

The NHS diagnosis of me as suffering from Bipolar Disorder occurred in 2013 and listed Schizophrenic, Mani, Depression, Racy Thoughts and Psychosis in its report on me. This was following a consultation with my mother and maybe one observation of me in interview. These diagnoses were never discussed with me and I wonder what would have happened if I had not read the report saying I thought I was a Hindi incarnation of god?

This reminds me of J Krishnamurti and his teachings on how misleading the Guru was and how you could never ask another person how you can be saved and what the right answers are for you in your life. It combines with what Jesus taught on the dangers and pitfalls of trusting the world when the kingdom of heaven was full of peril and deceit and how in the end I was grateful that the NHS arrested my development for fear of what lay ahead but mistreated me as a member of ethnic and religious grouping which left me with delusions of grandeur to work out by myself. Jesus told Drs to “heal themselves” as he warned the kingdom of heaven is near at hand and available for anybody to reach out and grab it. The simplicity of the Holy Ghost is what baffles medics in a world of sensationalism and marketing where American mystics and priests sold everything including the kitchen sink to get popular and used Islam to defend their antiquated beliefs.

I healed the Nazi Holocaust with Jehovah and they have moved in cosmic space and in Heaven and Hell and this should make space for new things in the world. I have also healed the Viet Cong.

Prior to 2012 Dr Deepak Chopra towed the party line of the Democrats to insult Mahmoud Ahmedinajad who had airtime online speaking at the United Nations. In keeping with the USA’s dominance of mental health, he called Ahmedinajad a “psychotic” and has since been deleted on YouTube along with a lot of other videos where he called for a “critical mass of humanity” to raise consciousness and force world leader to adopt new peaceful policies in alignment with spirituality online.

How come the United Nations has not built offices abroad in the UK?

My brother and I missed out on a family inheritance in Jalandhar, Punjab with our grandfather’s ball bearing business IBI Ball Bearing PVT Ltd. He had six children and our father was the youngest brother who was sent to England to study at Bournville College in the 1970s. He met my mother and got married instead of completing his course and they fell in love and had my elder brother. Eventually they divorced in 1988 and my father moved to London to drive minicabs and keep in touch with me and brother. My brother was disenfranchised with the family situation and wanted to be left alone. I would socialise with my mother’s Islamic partner Karamat Ali who had been in prison for car theft and try to keep the peace with my father with regular visits to London Hounslow to see him. All he could really do was take us out shopping and try to bribe our affections as he worked 7 days a week driving taxis and would cook good food for us as we remembered him doing so when we were a family.

He eventually moved back to India in 2000 and me and my brother lost touch with him as we evolved and grew spiritually. I saw him in 2000 but suffered a nervous breakdown upon having spiritual realisation in 2002. I have spoken to him briefly since then but found being in touch on the smartphone too stressful and mixing bad memories in the home as he wanted to know about my mental health. He sold the family business and moved to outside Delhi and me and my brother did not get any shares in the business – something I lost out on when I chose God instead of corporate law in 2000-2002 and failed to develop into a healthy corporate man who travelled the world and did business while having a family of his own to boast of to keep up with the rest of my graduates from Oxford and King Edwards.

My religious transformation was even more painful than Eckhart Tolle with terrifying states of emptiness and nothingness to face alone with the silent support of my mother and brother who appear to have gone through these things before in previous births.

The female goddess Devi on the left hand side of the Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple represents my past life in India. I have been guided to this revelation by Durga who said how else could I have accomplished all that I have done and had such a successful relationship with my mother. Santosh is my mother’s name and there is a small statue of Santosh Mata in the Temple too. Santosh Mata originated from India and is worshipped in film and this symbol is fertile ground for the imagination and the path to ruin for our family as my painting sits behind glass and has a jyoti burning in front of it. During this past life I was acquainted with Lord Rama and worshipped Him and note that the glass that separates my painting from reality is the distance I have in Kali Yuga from such an opulent lifestyle. I don’t speak Hindi and don’t know Hindu scriptures beyond the Bhagavad Gita. But I can attest that the separation from reality represents The Soul Cages by Sting and now the “mind forged manacles of man” of William Blake that I saw when I was about 12 and fixated on throughout my English studies and makes its way into my poetry online. I listened to Sting obsessively every day from 12 to 24 when I stopped listening to music to look after my mind and body and saw in him a higher light to a deeper reality that was in keeping with contemporary spirituality that we all come from God and are heading there through transcendental means.

“the young so educated they never grow old” – Prince, Seven

Another empty day with money to fill that void instead of God.

The worship came through from Krishna a decade ago to watch my passion and confidence. I have been up since 4am meditating this morning and it is 7.30 and I see from the shifting shapes and patterns what he means. It is quite one thing to dwindle on my phone about celebrity life and the royal family. It is quite another thing to interact with them. My mother and I went to London last the day after Lillibut’s funeral and spent a day there and rode the Elizabeth line. That’s as close to royalty as we have come in our life. When I was in the Tazetta Suite of the QEHB for Bipolar Disorder my Buddhafield was the size of the West Midlands as Rama had tole me and I noted that Prince William came to Birmingham and did a public appearance. I feel affinity for him and Catherine because of their student life and interacting with the normal side of humanity and see myself influencing their generation and the younger one more than Prince Philip and King Charles for whom I had something to say online about corporate India with my social media videos between 2017-2024. But in keeping with what Krishna writes about in the Bhagavad Gita this is the age of my life when passion rules my Gunas and I am likely to be too over confident in one moment then too under confident in the next as I rule myself from my home in Weoley Castle and live out of one bedroom and deal with all these forms and shifting patterns to find a way to cope with living normal working life and waking up and travelling to work and earning a salary and building my webpage slowly so I can see and develop a plan to market it to British universities and even some people abroad for further research.

If I publish my work and advertise it to world leaders, my karma from school is strong. I have had many spiritual experiences since then and revealed my past lives too but the link to schooling and the role of parenting with my mother and the buried emotions of my father are located there in my unconscious as well as the ties to all the relatives and all their socialising. The rest has to be put to my higher self.

In India there was a holy man called Shirdi Sai Baba who is worshipped in India to this day. There was a TV Show of him which showed him healing someone and getting sick himself. Doubtless this is what happened to me and still does occur to this day as I experience weakness and suffer fearful states of being after encountering NHS Drs and Nurses who were heavy handed with the medication and did not want to discuss cause and effect in relation to my medical diagnosis as a Hindu incarnation of God. I have seen people make speeches claiming to be divine and write webpages proclaiming their human relationship with the people – after my trust has been burned with the DWP who charged me for PIP and ESA since 2013 to 2025 for my services and used me to fix this country’s spiritual apathy and non religious nature – I will let my webpage do the talking and rely on poetry to abstain from claiming religious perception.

I have been trying to answer the question What is a Healer for some years now and cannot arrive at a satisfactory concise explanation of a phenomenon I have been experiencing since I was very young. I can answer people’s prayers with recourse to Angels and help them fulfil their goals and ambitions in life by asking Hindu Gods and Goddesses. This is a step in the right direction of expanding on my current role as a poet and IT support technician and helps me further define the Buddhist Wheel of Suffering in terms of Abrahamic and Vedic deities.

I am a Healer. I use the Wheel of Suffering in Buddhism to elevate people from their current state and use my connections from past lives to improve situations on the planet: I am very quiet and barely talk as I am usually engaged in some transcendental activity and craving time to myself to meditate and recharge my batteries. I am very low on energy and find working life a bore. It takes a lot for me to travel to work and back and get the bus there for 2 hours and back for the same amount of time. Futhermore whilst I respect people’s time and money, I find the NHS has many rude callers who expect their work to be done in miracle timing and people are rushing me to complete my job. I would much rather stay at home and work as a writer but this is not fair on my mum and brother who need me to get out and prove that I don’t have mental health problems under the mental health act after the train wreck the Drs and Nurses brought into our lovely home.

I can interact with daily life normally and carry out normal duties and functions while attending to my spirituality and looking after myself as a graduate who has suffered many years unemployment (24) and is looking at being a 50 year old soon. So knowing that this writing is spied on and used to update databases and legally allow for 2012 arrangements after the world leaders tried to mainstream spirituality through their polling of people’s data: I am renouncing healing everyone and stating the tax code as reasonableness for what I can achieve.

I occupy a basic rate of tax and cannot afford to heal people in higher bands and that includes celebrities and politicians who come to me as well as royalty whom I see from time to time requesting healing.

In 2002 an energy worker did a reading on me and said that people were asking me questions. I can now see what she meant and see this occurring in the spiritual and religious realms with divine importance of earnest actions that have karmic consequences. I cannot continue to support this country’ government and media circus and will retrain myself to keep my energies to myself and just wish for good things for people of the same economic bracket.

I do not charge for what I do as Lord Indra told me there is no charge. But people are going to have to pay for this and stop saying I am like other people for equalising my life with others. It is enough humiliation to have the NHS imply that I am not special but it is even more to have to explain the difference between myself and others on this blog when spiritual teachers and masters have been dominating the internet for decades while I and my family receive nothing. Jesus writes in the Bible that you cannot mix God with money and this is doubtless part of some tests to make sure I am true and authentic but that does not give rich people the right to abuse me whatever nation they are from.

The original Christians had no libraries to speak of. They were just enamoured with duty and the word of God to create the Christian Church. Books and bibliographies have been built and they challenge our sensibilities today and are confronted by science to prove the veracity of their claims – that Jesus lives and His word is worth following. The King James Bible has taken centre stage and there are countless translations across the globe attesting to modernity and espousing the words that Jesus is alleged to have spoken and the Logos that is to be studied in Universities. England is different to America in that it has completed its colonial expansions and apart from Indian politics there is joy at the heart of the Christian Church. Americans are much more anxious and I feel their presence in my house for their post colonial moment of I Amness and proclaiming the greatness of the American nation, peoples and project while other countries get on with Christianity as business as usual. Stoicism supplements Greek Christianity and presupposes that the western people want to ruled by Aquarian gods with goddesses that have sexual ways on the surface quite different to eastern countries with their gods led by Krishna in the west doing his best to modernise things after only being 60 years old at ISKCON and bending with American naivety to rule the roost and proclaim a new gospel of Brahma about the life and disciplic succession of Krishna.

This is a blog. It is my personal webpage. Being spied on has done strange things to my head. There is not just America and England but hundreds of countries and this has affected my estimation of material wealth and what I am worth.

Brideshead Revisted by Evelyn Waugh tells the tale is dwindling authority at Oxford University and the growing need for the priesthood to cement its role there when dealing with student care. It is my hope this blog will circulate amongst academics and clerics alike to deal with issues of authority and morality nationwide so the out getting bogged down with topos and location The internet moved too quickly for some classes and groups and society and it’s time to have another go at it.

I caused 9/11. I have cause natural disasters on earth – earthquakes and floods and blackholes.

The Vietnam War was caused by the senses as the American were short sighted and could not see into the East. This is like the Ukraine War with Russians losing their sight and sound about Europe and getting lost after Brexit. The conflict in Iran is an extension of The Crusades.

“April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.” – T S Eliot The Waste Land

Much of what I write is due to memory and desire. I stimulate my own desire by publishing my thoughts and updating my consciousness for academic audiences. I fear the loss of memory in our country with American superdominance of our social media networks. We are not the history of Hollywood and the wars between Parliament and the Monarchy for power have left a gaping hole in British democracy where Nigel Farage is beating the BBC for ratings as he buys the next election with GBNews for the sake of the whole and to keep a cogent sense of what it means to be in this country with Monarchs too good for TV.

“Food eaten more than three hours after cooking it is said to be in the mode of ignorance (Tamas Guna)” – Srila Prabhupada, The Bhagavad Gita As It Is

When Srila Prabhupada was training for his role as a Sannyasi and when he finally embarked on his journey in America, fridges in India were not that common a phenomenon. This food cooked and eaten more than three hours after the time was said to be sullied and rotten having been left out in the heat. This posed a problem for meat eating and vegetarianism is common amongst Hindus. Some sacrifice their food before God and serve Him the food on their plate and thus give up the violence associated with the killing of an animal. ISKCON urge the noneating of meat but state that if you want to eat meat they pray and offer your food to Kali. I find it too hard to give up meat and offer my food to Kali and also go to Church and have been baptised so eating meat is not forbidden amongst Christians.

My mum started receiving phone calls about me in 2002. The phrase used was “the largest puja ever was done for me” and they have spoke about my special importance. Having Krishna near me is no joke and He advents to raise someone’s profile: “Wherever there is Arjuna and Krishna there is victory and opulence” (The Bhagavad Gita). I like the New Testament and the Gospels of Jesus but find the rest of the Bible too hard. The implications were that I would help the world with the prophecy of Jesus and one day would become famous. My mum had to cope with this all by herself and with both my brother and me knocked out of the race of life after Earth shattering events and hauntings in India in 2002. Ritesh could see a lot of evil being intended to me and was befuddled as to how it could be so. He was never one to try the rat race so sat back and watched the Drs treat me for depression when I lost my career as a trainee solicitor at Jones Day Gouldens. The mix of science and religion has been paramount to my success and Krishna warned me that I have no science in my life and this holds me back and stops me having choices. The plight of our family and the home remedies we tried to get better from evil and psychic attack lays fertile ground to those scientists who say that religion is too old fashioned and not relevant to today – something Andrew Cohen of the cult EnlightenNext was trying on as he was using India to be a fashionable guru and talk big.

My brother is a Naturopath and does not like Drs and Nurses. To him it’s all made up and Drs need computers to get their jobs done and read something off the screen. He would listen to the pundit from India in the 2000s that mum found in a village who said that I was not normal and that some people would come to visit me. The pundit would recite prayers and Ritesh would run the phone over his face believing in the Swami Vivekananda books he read when he was young and not the rough and shoddy diagnosis and speech of the Drs and Nurses who bamboozled me with processes and lexicon to leave me dumb before them as they performed Obs and wrote complicated words into their own laptops about their own health and keep up from studying their own health and keep up from studying their own degree which dovetails nicely with the racists n Parliament who don’t have one Daoist sitting with all the Muslims there and banter about terrorism and extremism from brown people. Where this leaves us with Nigel Farage and his immigration rants stirring up the nation is anyone’s guess and how much longer will be for my mum to suffer with her two sons is up for grabs too. What if this was another Hindu household, or what had been going on in Hindu households as they kow tow to Drs and Professionals to show up at their expensive houses and weddings with alcohol enough for the wine and whiskey drinking class who had too much to lose from my medical to play by the rules as the NHS does not hand out compensation as its staff are treated well and take up the headlines with propaganda since Tony Blair and his cronies dictated the news about the NHS and sob stories about shit.

The Indian education curriculum had been set on YouTube by George Walker Bush with his racist Islamaphobia and war mongering as youth clambered about looking for solutions to problems by protest and with democracy and Arundhati Roy with Salman Rushdie on Richard Dawkins’s social media with all those Hindu Bhajans on them and things that thw atheists do not understand.

Was Dr Ernie van Woerkhom channeling me when he was treating me for Bipolar Disorder?

Have Drs and Academics been seeking the power of the mind over matter in the UK and do they seek power over life with the ability to kill people with their minds and send them insane?

“The future of the British economy lies in science”- Gordon Brown PM in c.2000s on BBC

There is no review process from the NHS to deal with my family’s case. This is a shortcoming of Drs centralising out of London while listening to crap about Drs strikes and not enough pay when they have a job in this country developing strategies of creating insane people who use social media videos aimed at children where the Drs can start young giving advice while missing out on all that spirituality that came from America and was lost when EnlightenNext collapsed, mimicking Partition in India, taking all of the mind body spirit with it in America so the Drs escape without liability in this country and have Princess Catherine in their back pockets with her swimsuit body invulnerable to psychic attack and without armed guards around her while utilising the world’s resources.

“The debt you owe your mother you will never repay”- Sathya Sai Baba

These writings are coming out of a city slicker and someone who has always been in a big city. The countryside of England is a different matter but the English character is the same. The NHS is to be examined and updated from 1983 regardless of my status as a past life Hindu. What of my other lives in Greece or when I lived in England in Jacobean times? ISKCON is stating that people have had a million lives and need to remember their time with Krishna to make this a successful life. That is why Tibet is so powerful for its ancestry into the darkness and where historians have yet to lead politicians and their money. In Tibet and on Buddha Bar a past life reincarnation is known as a Tulku and Chinese medicine boasts the Dao to be able to take into consideration spirituality without shutting it down like the NHS does and denies my mother her human rights and freedom of expression with the one in one out right of a Dr to be by himself with a patient.

25/05/26

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My mum had a hysterectomy in the 1990s. She later found out that she did not have to have it. I remember my father coming back from India to look after her.

Is Jones Day a Christian law firm? What was Gouldens? What religion is the College/ University of Law? Has Oxford gotten complacent with Christchurch and Corpus Christi and Jesus College? What has the internet done to the dominance of Oxford and Cambridge and can other nations compete for knowledge with them and end London’s dominance and Victorian society over the world and the imagination?

I’m not a corporate shareholder. This affects my role in time and makes me suffer as someone who rents a room in my mum’s house for £150 a month and makes me feel the long term effects of having smoked marijuana and feeling the pain of criminals and those who give in to sex life.

The Prophet Muhammed is wound up with me with Shantideva’s biblical life in the 700s and his made up role as a Boddhisattva and covering for Muhammed and the Messia with his prayer for salvation of all beings. Kuan Yin is tied to Shantideva and China is being asked to get involved with Islam – especially in Africa and to spare us the religion of Englishness as they get tired and try light working in the universities and give in to special powers and suffer for want of reading ability and explain where they get their money from.

My father shared with me openly after the divorce how much he missed my mother and how in love with her he was. He attempted to commit suicide because she was leaving him and slashed his wrists. I know because I saw the bandages on his wrists and walked in on them together; my father crying on my mother’s lap.

The Queen wants to research my father in relation to my own poetry and success and failure in life. His life from Jalandhar and travels to England and his influence on proceedings as living in this country for 20 years will be a game changer for studies and culture in the future.

My brother had eczema growing up and failed hi A-Levels because he was having panic attacks during exams. He was under too much pressure to uphold the family tradition and had been burdened by my parents to shiled me from the relatives during the divorce and act the part of a big brother – something he doe to this day.

Loving and living at home with one’s elderly mother is stressful and it is not easy being poor and not being to take her out and have lunch. She has always watched the pennies and I need to catch up with householder and start earning money and paying my way in the world.

My brother was an excellent Karate instructor and reached brown belt under Shukokai Black Belt and now tenth Dan Malcom Hudson. He had to give up the martial arts because Malcolm told him that having one leg shorter than the other could lead Ritesh being in a wheelchair when he was older. I studied Karate too and got up to green belt. I went down to orange belt because I missed too many lessons.

It’s all just change.

I had haemorrhoids from the age of 13 to 24. I went to hospital for an operation. My colon would protrude from my anus by about 2-3 inches when I went for a shit. After my operation they had gone but soon came back. I did not tell anyone and suffered poor bowel movements until I came back from India when my body was healed. It was punishment from Buddha for choosing a rebirth and not being able to pray to Him and sit in Lotus while affecting the Dalai Lama’s practice and negotiations with Tibet. Jehovah told me I was like Adam and then I fell from grace when I left Jones Day in 2003 and the woman I was living with Kate Warnock Smith who now works at Hull University. he said he punished all of mankind for my sin and haunted me for a decade afterwards.

Sexual lust seems so childish when viewed in hindsight and is tainted with sexual guilt on the way of the boddhisattva.

I left home at 17 to study at Oxford and came back i the holidays or went to my father’s flat in London. And when I left Oxford in 2000 I moved to London for two years. I still don’t feel like I have properly come back home. I spent the years 2010-2011 living in London. There is something about London and making it that has not settled in Birmingham. My mum has been at work ever since we were children in Birmingham and worked in London in the 2000s at the BBC. Ritesh has visited London but never studied or lived there. It must be like New York or Las Vegas and have a tie to people through the news as the capital of the UK that it frequently figures in my thoughs and stops me from settling down at home in Birmingham. My mum bought the house in the 2010s after going on a buy to rent scheme from the council since moving on in 1993. Every year she marks the date that we moved in and when our father stopped paying the rent on the old house and when bailiffs came and kicked us out of our family home in Rubery. We lived with a school friend for a week while the Council found us somewhere to live.

I saw The Never Ending Story a couple of years ago at the cinema. It was a retro showing of an old film – something that is quite a good idea for the cinema. I had seen it in my youth and enjoyed the adventure. Where did they get the special effects from and how was it made – these are documentaries that would have bolstered the imagination over time – not having stars pose on Facebook, Instagram and Tik Tok. It occurred to me when watching it just how far away Krishna Loka is from conventional reality and the everyday affairs of western men and women. The end scene when they show the princess trapped in her palace in the stars: What if she is dreaming of getting to Krishna Loka and needs a connection to the earth to establish her reality.

Presently I take Sertraline, Risperidone, Atvorstatin and Metformim medication. I am struggling to keep up with the western calendar and take it every day as I see China a lot and am thinking about the Tibetan calendar and am naturally linked to the Indian calendar with my tolerance of the treatment I am receiving as the Devi in the soul cages at the back of the Shree Geeta Bhawan Mandir who has been rebirthed an ordinary Rishi householder life in Birmingham UK and only speaks English.