Krishna has warned me that my mother’s death will hit me like a thunderbolt and every now and then I get insight into what he means. The Hindus deal with woman as Maya and an illusion and have a whole sales patter to preach to the Pundit at the Temple about Mother and family dynamics with Arjuna spinning around the battlefield in Mahabharata and other Hindu stories. It is my hope to build a community that keeps in touch with me to guard against too much aloneness with Henry David Thoreau in Walden and helps me cope with growing old. The world of change is now really in the Now and the Buddha is a tough task master with so much at stake with putting Great China on show to compete with foreign markets and use social media so they can develop new technologies well and benefit from Sathya Sai Baba’s book which I sent them on the Golden Age to seek to solve old problems in new ways and find a space for the Dalai Lama to return there in years and ages to come.
This Blog is not an official government document. It is my private webpage for home use and to be added to as time goes by and then marketed in accordance with my personal resources as I work and earn a wage of £18K a year as an IT apprentice to fund my work as time goes by and I see things and have visions of the Chinese government and see them looking at the phone for phone prices and not spiritual enlightenment.
This morning I woke up with the memory of the devil tempting me into the world of corporate law and with one interview at Gouldens with Charters MacDonald Brown and Clare Deansley and then the merger with Jones Day mixing my life in London.
I grew up enamoured by the differences between loving someone and being or falling in love with them. I was ignorant about love and come from the split between my mother and father and I had distrust built and developed over time as I was continually heartbroken finding out that potential partners were not my mother and did not acquiesce to my needs as I wanted.
The secret to life is to find your class and station and then stick to that. Too much meditation floats in England and is influenced by America but what are you doing when you meditate and who are your role models and what are you learning about and where is this settling your distinctions of caste and creed? Mine is to go to work and to come home and pass the evening with some food and TV and spend time with my mother and brother at the weekends. it is also to play a social game of Township on my phone and build a village with crops and animals. It is not to aspire to world rule but to live in 6 Shilton Grove and release these article maybe years from now when I get around to marketing them on my laptop and I will have to email them to myself from my phone and then cut and paste them from my email on my laptop. it is like Emerson or Whitman or Thoreau – men more advanced in society than me but men content with their station of being a writer. Krishna told me to look within and see a graduate who is culturally condition and who does not have a mortgage and this soars into highs and lows with Ranvir Turner and other cousins in the Mohan and Turner family tribe as my mother’s brothers and sisters have conventional family’s that enjoy the world of material things and partake in social affairs as normal. That is what they grew to do and something I took part in within the wealth when I was student from the ages of 17-24 when I listened to Sting every day and spent money on CDs and books and had a Spartan wardrobe recycling the same clothes at social events and going out to keep up with the Jones’s and affront the Oxford social scene the best I could with the social skills I had at the time. That was my class. Not very high. Then it came time to have a nervous breakdown in 2002 and that is something that occurred again in 2013. Had Krishna not involved himself in my life God knows where I would have been.
What is the personality when the I AM is with the 10 commandments and the Prophecy of Jesus is at play?
How many chakras do I have because of past lives? Who or what am I responsible for as Krishna says: “Those that are wise grieve for neither the living or the dead.”
I am God. This phrase is located in the genitals and comes from the experience of ejaculation and power over another and control of the mind and needs to be broken for the Indian man to get control over his base chakra.
Apart from the works of Salman Rushdie all I know is Anita and Me. So I write biographical to clear myself of guilt in a Christian country with the account of blasphemy on my NHS record and a sketchy timelines of depression and poor mental health issues living in poverty with my brother since our father went back to India in the 2000s and sold his car and gave me the instalments as maintenance payments to supplement the loan I took out to fund my legal studies between 2000-2002.
I want the Chinese government to come and meet me in England so I can administer my work and deal with my past life karma and face the fact that the corporate life gave me a nervous breakdown and drove me to smoke marijuana and drugs.
Jehovah is measuring a Parish in Weoley Castle. He has erected two 5G towers to observe my habit on the internet and has comparisons with my early childhood with St Brigid’s Church from 1985-1989 with Ritesh being the first non-Roman Catholic that the Church admitted under Sister Marjorie due to an administrative error that granted him a place after my mother had it explained to her that her son was not the proper caste to study at the School and Church. I was back at St Brigid’s after I left Elim Church around 2024 until the Father told me that I would need to do a course to continue to receive Eucharist. I have written to him since then explaining my position. Krishna told me to give him a copy of the Bhagavad Gita and The Works of William Blake as He wants me to be like William Blake for Hindus. St Gabriel is the patron saint of telecommunication online so he can control media before “ether” was documented in ISKCON as one of Krishna’s creations and constituted parts of the human race and earthly world. Rameses II told me that Birmingham had been used to measure alien races intervening in a big way in London after EnlightenNext collapsed in 2012 and this measurement with distance and space is more up Ritesh’s street and things he likes to look at being so long posted to take care of Arcturus and Greek heritage with Scientology precision on the reactive and active minds to live as a monk devoted to Christ for his sexual abstinence who doubts Krishna’s efficacy for the modern age.
I used the Sound of Light by Dr Judy Satori in c.2012 to clear blockages in my chakras and attempt to build a 12 strand DNA body. I failed to keep to the timing of these transmission of words of energy and fell asleep with them on one night and must have absorbed hundreds of transmissions. Jehovah told me it was the Sound of Satan and that there was a massive exorcism of me going on and showed me how to reach 60 dimensions to rival William Blake for the Marriage of Heaven and Hell and now to tell me to calm down as I have grounded my writings and Ritesh at St Brigid’s Roman Catholic Church for me to upload these articles to my WordPress site and advertise my poetry to academics to study and mental health academics too.
I find it illuminating about British racism and the lies of healthcare in the NHS that I spent 22 years waiting for the NHS to help me after India and was hospitalised 4 times while Russell Brand made people laugh and chanted Hare Krishna and the police sat back and watched his sexist jokes and racist routine.
What is a laptop and how does it control time and space? What is the internet and how can world governments lie about fibre optic cables all over the world and under the sea? These type of miracles are the stuff of Egyptian pyramids and need to be gotten a hold of so the world’s imagination is protected and working life is secured by good TV and social media? How does the TV broadcast and what is the science of telegraph poles in ancient America with the Native American Indians there? Is there a return to ancient ways with the golden age or is man speeding ahead with nuclear technology and politicians blocking up the TV and internet with their faces and policies?
It is telling that a distant relative called Omkar Nath Channa visited me in the 2000s when I was suffering from religious stress due to prophecies from India about my imminent success and birth chart: That nobody else from the 12 brothers and sister had been to see me or enquire about my well being. None of the cousins called and it is of not that Channan had written a book called the role of the Court Interpreter. I needed an interpreter to understand the distressing ways of the extended family as they held me in disdain for only speaking English. Dipak Mohan, social worker, was out building his little empire and did not respect our family’s space to help us with the phone calls from India.
The poet William Blake wrote that “Energy is eternal delight” and even fancied he was writing with prophets in The Marriage of Heaven and Hell. My list of original religious and spiritual names and experiences owes its courage to William Blake to express myself with honesty and candour and expect to be ridiculed for it – especially after the threat and fear of Drs and Nurses claiming a relapse and more irrational and unwarranted and unexamined medication. They really are pill pushers and one imagines if this was some years back I would have been subjected to ECT. The energy in question with my religious experiences is Krishna’s energy which also belongs to Allah, Jehovah and Buddha and then there is also Qi and Reiki which I have experience of too with the Dao balancing things and waking me up early in the morning too.
I don’t think I have ever really enjoyed a happy day in England since my teenage years. There was one girlfriend I got off with when I was 17 and I recall feeling happy the day after but that was short lived. The Drs have nailed happiness to the cross and the local GP knows nothing about me other than my reticence to take medication because nobody talks to me properly and they keep their police work to themselves. They too are snobs because I don’t speak Hindi and have never mentioned military detail or religious work in all the years I have been living in Weoley Castle since 1993. They just stupify the mind to behave like a graduate and be normal and don’t know the strain this puts on my life – it is a sign of a poor intellectual and economic class indeed to not be able to talk about spiritual experiences with Drs and Consultants who are more concerned with how much money they can make and spend quickly.
Buddha stopped by in 2013 to show me what a demon looks like and how far some souls have to travel before they reach enlightenment. It would have been so much easier if I could have just told my Drs that I am searching for spiritual enlightenment ansd not take medication with no discussion of my racial predicament. Krishna bought a lot of demons to haunt me that year and said they went so far as to examine me medically as to cope with my mother’s funeral. Vishnu charged me with suffering for not being independent and this is something I am working on with getting into an IT career to stabilise my normal and ordinary waking activities to please the Drs and Nurses and to fulfil my requirements under the Mental Health Act 1983.
Notably I have not gone bankrupt and can hold the position of Director of a Company as can Ritesh and my mother in spite of years of suffering in Weoley Castle where our Parish with St Gabriel’s is starting to make sense.
I have £8000 on credit in my Barclays account and have set up an ISA. This equates to 80,000 rupees. My grandfather once gace me 40,000 rupees to spend over my summer holiday in 2000 when I visited my father in Jalandhar for five weeks. I spent about 15,000 rupees and returned the rest back to him.
Seeing the Golden Light or Krishna’s energy move as I write on the iPhone or think about writing while I sit at my desk at work is quite a surreal activity. It looks like I am doing things as a Healer and had the effect of astrally travelling to see people.
I suffer from the Imposter Syndrome and have discussed this with AI to bring it to the surface so it stops me worrying about being found out especially at work. It affects me in my stomach and chest and suffers me to experience pain and anxiety as I fear being found out as a Healer. I recall watching the TV show Merlin and how such castes are shunned by society and attacked – this is something I have experienced with the NHS and something my mother knew to be very hard with me about as I sauntered around as a high school graduate with an Oxford degree while my brother sat at home and meditated and practised his own religion and never went to university or saw London and Oxford life like I do. He is born and bred in Birmingham and travels by his at the age of 52.
Getting some direction: Now that I have set the goal in my life of emulating William Blake I find that I am resolved to better brain frequencies and can breathe a bit better. Many years ago I was visited by the spirit of Shakesepeare and I have seen him again recently towering down a chronology of literature that suits me and steers me away from the Hindu guru I have faced since I was very young with setting such as Oxford and London to challenge my own brand of spirituality and materialism surfing the waves of samsara to see if I could make sense of this things called God. Last night I was tossing and turning for four hours with the Word of God and Dao seemed to be triumphant again to warn me of the Dalai Lama and great men who stand on other people’s shoulders to be even greate in times of war and distress.
My mother has come through a lot more peaceful and happier to enjoy her old age without too much religious stuff going on and better resolved to know her sons childhood reading habits will be out to the workers via the internet and off to the academics to study and make popular. My brother can rest knowing I have some direction to use my time out of work once I have completed my apprenticeship in IT to good use and the struggle against evil and the spectre of Guru is won. It’s like Lord of the Rings – it is a darkness that blights my English speaking life and shuts me out of Hindu circles but it will come back again I’m sure to test the waters the farther I progress into society. It occurred to me I am not a great doer and man of action so staying at home and writing letters and using email to market myself after I have completed my webpage and used Krishna’s energy on the phone and the laptop means I have something to do and some direction on the voices and screams I hear of pain in the cosmos like Avalokitesvara: He who hears the cries of the world.
