The medical report when I was in the Tazetta Suite between October 25th to January 1st stated that I was experiencing Bipolar Disorder because I thought I was a Hindu incarnation of God and was experiencing Psychosis, Schizophrenia, Racy Thoughts and Delusions of Grandeur. I never had a chat at the time or since then with anyone about these things until I booked some Counselling in St Martin’s Church in 2025 where I was discharged because the Counsellor Kerry thought I was doing brilliantly. I was referred to St Martins from Creative Support and the only thing I received from the NHS was a referral to the course Mood on Track which was pretty crap and just some people doing admin and not really showing expertise in Bipolar Disorder. Saying a person “thinks they are a God” is a pretty general phrase to be in charge of. It could mean so many things and just be religious postulating itself and wondering about life the universe and everything as an Oxford graduate is prone to do – especially one born into such a philosophical household where such questions are normal and run of the mill. The referral to the Shaw Trust was useful if a bit late in 2025 and from that place I got the job at Atos by getting off my backside and out of the Psychiatrists armchair where he actually said: “You could charge £20 and fill Wembley Stadium” as a reference to India. Guru has swept the building and Indian TV so subject to these minds that saw Rishi Sunak come and go and British Asian culture not get any better except for those who socialise and plan the next big Indian wedding.
I would say I have practised Ashtanga Yoga on and off with Robin Arora of Harborne and Arora Yogi online for about a year. I started in 2008-2009 and then tried again in 2012. I could complete my Primary Series 1. My brother tried Ashtanga Yoga but found Robin Arora rude and disgusting because of his drink and drugs and sex life. My mum practiced learn at home Yoga while at work in the 2000s with the book on Yoga by Vimla Lalvani. I practiced Iyengar Yoga with actor Paul ready in Maida Vale at the Iyengar Yoga Institute there between 2000-2002 under Judy Lynn and Maitreyavira Marco Connovo.
The NHS never talked to me about poetry or novel writing or my work on Amazon. They mentioned it three times in passing and said that poetry was about “higher thinking”. This is racism at its worst and I have lost a number of years and embarassed my family name as a result of covert operatives spying on my home in a dead culture of Mi5 not being discoverable in social culture and suffering COVID as a potential Act of God as I look for insurance for my life and role as a Healer and to be safegaurded as a writer with my imagination with how close myself and mum and my brother have been since moving to 6 Shilton Grove in 1993 and since our father left our home and there was a divorce in 1988 and he moved to London and caused us quite a bit of stress.
I have performed the Vedic/ Hindu sacred ritual Tarpanum for my ancestors twice. I learned about this from Dr Pillai online in the 2000s where he said the absence of the ritual Tarpanum can cause servers psychological problems which I see healing as a Krishna’s many forms integrate as one energy within my psyche and help me leave a map for others to follow and let the Americans find out what went wrong with their psychics and spiritual mediums after they hekd a referendum of their own with a new Reformation and a split with Rome after Doreen Virtue left the spiritual life and all her angel working behind and went back to the Bible and Christianity and America faced the aftermath of Sathya Sai Baba’s kingdom and His promise to usher in a new age of money management and help me out of the doldrums in life.
The mental health incarceration stressed me out a lot and I had a lot to deal with with my failed Masters attempt in English ni 2010 and overcoming another romantic setback in the search for love on this cold rationalistic and scientific world. The Police came to see me a few times and questioned my state of mind but never brought with them any intelligence about my spy work and just took the fruits of it. I assume they were waiting for me to calm down and acclimatise to my mum who they recognised from conventional reality to be of working life and would have a duty of care over our home to safeguard normal family relations in spite of my spirituality and whatever Ritesh sees in light of Indian movements following my public life online during 20172-2024.
Tibetan and Chinese people would have struggled with the pace at which I wrote and talked to understand me and would have seen me send the Dalai Lama codes for the Self or as he sees it The Condition of human literature that women especially find most interesting. I had a visit from a policeman who pulled me over for vandalism at Birmingham Cathedral around 2020 when the earth was experiencing major shifts in perpetuity with New Age healers coming out of the woodwork from 2012 conspiracies and Christian prophecies. He said to me telepathically that he would have to think I wanted to be like the Dalai Lama since I was young for what was in store.
I have walked past police outside the Hyatt with armed machine guns that looked fake around 2017 when I was using my phone in a way that Jehovah said caused him to send me to the NHS for some psychiatry and to modernise me and to perform ALIEN OBSERVATIONS of me too. What about my family and how old is my mum going to live and what about the Golden Age of all these rich people in Hindustan and how young my mum is through her own beliefs and effort as she goes into a mental hospital of her own to meditate for ten days in silence at the Gloucester Dippa Dharma retreat on her own at the age of 73.
On her 10 day meditation retreat my mum will get the chance to experience something of what Ritesh goes through as he has been sitting in his chair at home before his computer since the 1990s watching us all come and go and especially me as we both went to the same school and left with the same weight of the world on us to experience Grammar School success. Something Sudesh Cole ripped the piss out of us for as she worked as a Researcher at Birmingham University and presided over our home with karmic consequences only Rama can solve at Shree Geeta Bhawan where she shuts us out and causes a diplomatic stir with Dharam Dutt not hiring a replacement for the Gujarat pundit who passed away and tending to all the devotees at that temple himself. The Church of England is in contact with the Hindu Council UK who will be well aware of mine and Ritesh’s issues as young British Asians from the 1980s and 1990s that the Millennials have caused to be wiped due to weapons of mass destruction and ignorance in the hand of powerful men and the women whose touch and sex life they crave. Goddess Kuan Yin has said she will be accompanying mum there to the retreat and she has the money in store for me with Jehovah at some point later in time.
The illusion of a Hindu man who is detached from life and whom nothing affects is detrimental to good community relations as western forces are facing and army of Hindus mobilised bu social media who fight in astral and spiritual realms designed by the Gunas described in the Bhagavad Gita. Theirs is a mysterious movement around the earth and from place to place that has been called nomadic due to immigration and the spreading of the Indian diaspora throughout the world. This was marked by social and political forces and driven by a desire to accumulate material wealth – something the relatives and Mohans, Coles, Sharmas, Bablas and Turners hold against me for walking away from the solicitors path and then holding me out as a blasphemous man who did not speak Hindi and does not follow Hindi customs and family laws – or cannot afford to. My social skills are not up to scratch and I live in veritable silence alone at home with my quiet and invisible brother and mother on her retirement. We don’t have any guests around for tea or dinner even though my mum is quite the hostess and an excellent chef.
Ritesh has climbed out of his depression to spend time with us more in the last 5 to 10 years after not feeling like much of the family and has taken an interest in the family and has taken an interest in the family budget and the kitchen to help out with cooking while living on a shoe string budget on welfare. None of the family thought to ask him how he was doing and kept up their hindu ways of changing and praying while speaking badly about him when he had to live with Kamlesh Turner after leaving The Church of Scientology and our mum was calling Christians to get us permanently excluded from the organisation. Ritesh was humiliated to work in an off licence and live with the drinking and football fan and Bhangra star Ranvir Turner while his younger sister Seema Turner looked on and named and shamed Ritesh for not fitting in with normal family dynamics. Our father was disappointed to see him sleeping on the floor on being treated like a dog who just had to pass the time while fearing for his salvation and spiritual enlightenment – something I hope he finds easier day by day and the more mum loosens her hold on the past.
Sudesh Cole has had a habit of writing letters to family members and others that documents and charts our family’s growth since immigrating t this country from Africa. These articles are my attempt to reclaim mine and Ritesh’s heritage and give our own account as sons as my mother still connects to her twelve brothers and sisters and is disappointed in the way the younger generation is turning out. They are all clothes and show and partying and drinking and football and Bhangra and music and leave little time for issues of consciousness or Spirit and have likely insulted Jesus or laughed at Him in comparison to the Hinu pantheon to still be held out as authority over my own voice for issues of mental health and being able to conduct oneself in alignment with the Bhagavad Gita and in accordance with conventional reality and normal life under the Mental Health Act 1983.
These are mental health records in the NHS that were diagnosed by staff in relation to the trauma of war that was not about soldiers in uniform. The Mental Health Act 1983 does not go far enough to protect these people reputation and people have suffered due to the religious constriction by the Church of England that all war be seen as an act of evil unless just cause can be proven and considered in line with God’s will and the holocaust. How can God let such things as war occur like the Holocaust if He is a just and kind God. Such questioning does not update to consider the crusades in the Middle East by John Major and Tony Blair and does not allow the Vietnam War into play or other wars throughout Africa and Asia to update the general policy. There were probably only enough NHS resources to save soldiers and other people like myself suffered until some other movement other than the NHS came along and saved them instead. It is clearly a policy of the UK to allow space for the NHS to save people with a multidisciplinary approach to relative healthcare and to let the Church of England play its part as it is doing now after I spent a year at Elim Church between 2022-2024 (Ritesh did not come and mum told me she is not a Christian – she came along to Carol Service but was racially affronted by the head priest there who did not like her answer England as to “Where are you from?” and now go to St Gabriel’s where I have been baptised in April 2026. My intention is to avoid sin and take part in Christian worship as an old soul paying his respects to Jesus and aligning with his modern movement of Christianity and to strengthen my faith. It is also on account of rebelliousness that I am joining a Church and the wayward youth I experienced with drink and drugs and socialising excessively – members at ISKCON would not be allowed the insight into celebrity glamour I bring to the table and in His own words Krishna called me a fashionista and warned me against being a teacher of His religion by the time I am 60. Shiva asked for me to be a Healer and this accounts for mystical experiences and helps me get along with my brother better for the bullying and racial harassment we went through as a result of EnlightenNext’s dissolution and the politics of form at Shree Geeta Bhawan Temple with my previous life behind glass in the former years as a Devi and someone beholden to Durga for grace and opportune forgiveness from sins that Venkatshwara performs on Sunday mornings there. I had booked up to spend £1000 on a Sunday morning slot and have my sins washed away but it got too stressful being around people who don’t treat me well because all I speak is English.
It is of note that The Royal Family are two hours away by car and 100 miles from Birmingham to London – all the written work I have done since 2017 and I won’t hear from them or any MP due to racism as the Americans chaperone our nation on after COVID and Brexit and President Donald Trump pits his wits against those who say he has mental health problems.
Prince George aligned after 2012 robust Prince Harry from England and remain one of three Kings or Kings in waiting in the UK. The Royal Family was streamlined for resources and has been taking a lot of resources since COVID around which time they set up a social media channel. This outlet will help Prince George get some space from Prince Harry’s media musings and prepare himself for his older years when he gets to direct his own education and tastes to become the future King of England. He is schooled by his father Prince William who has experienced growing up in public and under the media spotlight so he will be guided well into the future and does not face the debris of the Iraq war or Afghan war and the retaliation of those states to capitalise o the downfall of Mind Body Spirit markets and mysticism.
