That spiritual teacher in me is the devil from Sai Baba’s Banyan Tree barking at people and telling them what to do and who to be as opposed to seeing them as human characters developing their own way of thinking in relation to what I have in my field in the first place and what I have to say.
The reality that he said you cannot have a Hindu incarnation of God in this country due to the House of Lords is something that spoke true when the U.K. filmed Secret Swami and exposed his corruption. Theirs is an economy based on science and reason and due process where they are done with the problem of Revelation which I have uncovered and need to submit to God for medical testing to ensure that I am rational and sane.
To say that I am God is to open up the whole curriculum of U.K. universities and this is angering to the English Law Lord and stresses him out and puts him ill at ease with his good food for lunch and dinner – which is to go to show that ISKCON is young and immature in its growth and development and is troubling the Man too much with White Juhu from Sowtto Kinch showing the bartering that Apartheid born babies feel they have with the establishment for a racism beyond reason: And he can’t forgive himself for his role in their fate and has self loathing and guilty consciences.
And when English is all about communication the transferred reality of my object when I am writing is God all to quickly and this is a stressful endeavour to meet my audience as the Western Englishman too readily fair conflict and semantic realisation that is a quip away from his very educated gait and stance as someone well berated in the ways of his Royal Family and Parliament without the burden of globalised culture via Social Media in the hands of ethnic minority of my education and upbringing.
This creates space for a writer in 2015 and by 2017 I was updating his AI systems online to prepare a way for my consciousness to be examined in lightof the NHS designation of religion as a defining factor in my mental and physical illnesses and contagion in life. This spreading is like the Matrix film in the lucid dreaming realm and I struggle with the We-ness of this existence for th inferior status I hold by way of statistics and then ebb and flow to assert my superior self for want of actually dealing with the issue which is more widespread than I actually give the England I grew up in and learned this consciousness credit for.
It was the prophecy from the likes of Sai Baba that convoluted my consciousness and distanced myself from the Other and my Shadow to face my reality myself and be responsible for my basics and right livelihood no matter what this pulls in by way of culture and an obnoxious self that grew up on a diet of 80s films and culture and 90s internet and dot com boom or bust: This leads to the shit shut down of the Y2K phenomenon isolating and silencing me until I was ready to write in the past and am able to do so again.
Daily I prepare to talk to people. It is stressful and I am grateful. For the medical interference in my life – however this adds up the upheaval itself.
Seeing data travel not by my written word but by the OCI computing model is a revelation. It calms me down and soothes me to see how things work and for example seeing the vast amount of SEX that the internet is responsible for dealt with by Level 4 and Transport Layer and losing fear of being technical and not being understood by my audience or reader will go a long way to helping me communicate with other people and developing trust between myself and others and indeed beyond myself to see the work being done out of my hands and reach so that I can switch off. Layer 4 streams all the films and pornography and this is a cultural shift I am ready to educate myself about more and see the recent past in the light of and ease the burden on my imagination about what the big men and players in the world affairs actually deal with, just a little bit – rather than frowning on them and putting them down for social class issues and leaving my life at their footsteps and making the responsible for me totally: This had to happen with the medical crisis I went through and hopefully my writing will disclose some support for the educated state to reroute my blog to those who need it directly and indirectly by way of support and help in areas that people need it in life creative to my small world and the large effort things are for me to realise.
In the end Hare Krishna will win as having been instrumental in my life and that is what is needed from my effort to the world leaders more of and not the interference of data and information sharing via computer internet intelligence – this is a point already laboured by others and I see the role of a writer to interconnect things that he does not deal with directly or himself as speciuos and amoral for world leaders to detach from the outcome of writing and not view it as important – something I mistook in my search for God and the Logos rewarded me in kind with stressful lifestyle I need to get a hold of now and manage my life better with mum in charge of me at home and Ritesh also too. What will become of my voiceless father is not known to me in prayer which is all I can do as I rebuild like and look forward to the future. Yesterday I missed my counselling session and ended up making a journey in writing so hopefully that will bear fruit in the We.
I think that is what Prince William meant when he asked if We Could Do This: With “this” being the operative word – what the Americans do with Buddhist thought and Vedic scriptures. Their ability to translate the cinematic experience from a Christian background is considerably different to the UK which is more conservative and rooted in tradition of castles and colonies. The result is a dependence on AI that is weird at best and frightening at worst for its exponent of the Unknown and fear of the unknown is language that the mental disciplines in the US use a lot more than the UK whihch is reserved to talk at all let alone about the mind and its use in everyday contemporary reality while it continues to do business at great wealth in the corporate world – something that may annoy other neighbours for the youth movement in our country taking from the contemporary culture paid for by data transfers of the elder statesmen but not actually returned with income for the old stuffy ways of the west and their dependence on World War Two narratives while profiting from eastern conflict and warfare in the meantime.
Nobody knows their actual communications and travels with the east but their dependence on American culture typified by Donald Trump being on TV more than UK royals or MPs and the PM is about that phenomenon and the take over of UK culture allows the UK to inherit its allies enemies and roots such as China, The Middle East and China. The strain this places on the human brain and mind to concentrate is excruciating and not something the UK looks prepared for with the Royal Family and the UK politicians being lead by Nigel Farage and his take over of the media. The mind is all the while being tainted to be taken out of the present moment and the body and strained to take part in understanding things with a bit of information in a liberal education economy with strict rules of grammar and economics. The past is always referent as one is loathe to have been educated the way that one has turned out to be inferior to the TV stars and those that puppet Christian England today. Though one slows downs and looks around the corner at Islam and the history of the Crusades one is thankful for the difference and the stress that protects us from our Islamic oppressors and what is a benighted religion when translated into English – far from Christian reason and temperance and the evolution of culture throughout the ages.
It was American battlements as Christians that caused our country to be flooded with immigrants as other nationos wanted assurances that they would not get left behind if the Americans continued to battle Islam the way they did internationally and see the Other and racism with Oreientals as basically the same as Muslims from an ethnic point of view.
AI is changing the way we think at rapid and alarming rates and the past is being erased without memory and the imagination is being challenged to not exist for the realities of George Bush’s foreign policy expansionist warfare campaigns that dragged the UK into the mud with Iraq and Afghanistan instead of dialogue that would have benefitted the AI systems instead of relying on imagery and the use of the fear of the unknown and a lack of dialogue in the first place.
The Chinese establishment has not abandoned their roots while their young struggle for meaning with rhetoric mode of modern life. The American and English leaders however have abandoned Christianity and spent no time with their citizens to explain their affection for different cultures and now that is boring entrusted to Russell Brand and Ricky Gervais because Christianity is a complete entity and has been augmented and defined and classified so it is being left behind as not worthy and something that allows a Jew like Natalie Portman to rise up on prominence in spite of not realising that many films were in the country. What of Julia Roberts or Angelina Jolie or Michele Pfeiffer? How are their religiously obsolete in the face of Evolutionary tendencies seeking Ebola virus scares and investment in the modern age?
Gaming is another thing that is threatening the cultural imbalance as making the mind work too quickly and celebrating change when we have actually not travelled anywhere. It makes me miss my mother as I fear losing her to AI.
If you think you’re being spied on, you probably are.
They say that my generation was very noisy growing up and full of sounds and opinions compared to previous ones. How that has changed down the line is anybody’s guess for the amount of attention my generation received growing up in the 1980s and the golden era of American TV. This has fizzled out and the corset is backing fashion with a big budget production of Amadeus on satellite and Benedict Cumberbatch starring in the show. The role of mentor is clear and the millennials are taking up umbrage that they have been left out and ignored in the struggle for independence and information. Theirs is not a world so seduced by celebrities other than the sleep that prior generations let them be heir to: As my generation bought the football salaries and film star roles and fought back against western government and capitalism in balanced and imbalanced measure.
The generation at present has the environment to back itself with interdependence and connections around the world that the celebrities mockingly and lovingly in different degrees depending on who you are and what your background is dealing with. They also have the global cause of terrorism which was in its infancy as the PLO threatened Israel in the 1980s and 1990s while we were still in school and choosing what to make of Apartheid.
The good Lord had asked for me to write as a result of being born a child under Apartheid and this has been a dominating factor in how I was raised by school and authority. These articles will parts of essays that I will flesh out under his guidance that I take better care of myself as a struggling writer with an individual consciousness. That is all it is. The search for meaning came out of a fractured background and one in torment for many elders around me – look at my internal wrangling I am going through in my 40s and see the teachers around me at school quite capable of sensitivity towards a British Asian of Indian descent – and for that balance to escape my passion which dominated my life as I searched for a place in the world of work where couples are dominant and married life is the normality.
With the apprenticeship looking I feel more confident that I will be possessing the tools required of me a single man for life to be in a workplace and to fit in and around the affairs of others with the role afforded to me of being a writer – as this will help keep me in check with their normal day to day gatherings and family/ friends and social life that I have forgone in the name of God and religious understanding. This is fine if managed correctly and just makes me like them as Mr Beech was at school – Reverend of Religious Studies while other staff and students worked around him and accepted him as he was.
I recall Martin Barlow and not really taking to him very well and he was eventually expelled from school and suffered an early death due to a car crash in Europe. Mr Beech chose to visit me and him on work experience and I wonder what he would have made of my racially divided self today – full of doubt and self worry about how I welcome other people into my field: I say proper people for they are in positions of authority and power and I am not. He would say I am doing great and to have faith in the Lord to provide for me and to step away from too much eastern effort and to embrace the England of our youth and write away to your hearts content until you finally get paid for what you do and then strike some bargain with some fellow or chap about what direction to go in.
It’s okay. And the spying is just ambition as a result of using the iPhone: it had started up again before you nipped it in the bud this morning with some meditation and prayer renouncing the fruits of your actions correctly and only being responsible for your local little self.
Writing is not an exorcism. It is not an exercise in responsibility’s role in your life of actually taking up charge with your heaviest behaviours and making changes in your life as to what you do and don’t so. It is signposting what you need to do and these signposts can overwhelm the mind to worry about medication needs and light working; but you’re doing fine and need to update your website for actual practical matters dealing with your life and to get out of the theory of signposts and into practice. Amen.
