What am I so sure is wrong with my poetry?
Confidence.
It’s you feeling bad about your life and painting everything as all in one in your poetry and seeing the poetry as existence itself again and blaming others for your work practice. Otherwise known as writer’s block and creative suffering and problems with your art workload.
Going to Church is a matter of confidence – not praying to get what you want or some religious practices that will help you in this matter. Church is for life and is interwoven with this confidence problem I am having seeing entering all jumbled up an Id interconnected which is a theme of my poetry so it leads to Amazon breakthroughs and that is why I don’t want to read the subject matter that caused me pain and suffering and get worried and anxious about it.
What is experience meant to look like?
What is the experience of someone who asks this question?
It is one where he sees comparison and compares himself to others in his environment because the questioner is built upon that comparison. It is mechanics. It is doing this with AI and computing recognising the need for human sacrifices and examples to justify the use of the imagination which was also engaged in carnal lists of experience based on lust and sexual desire. It normalises and eases into the now
How do I edit my poems?
What is the goal in sitting down to edit poetry I have not read in years? Is my poetry about me as the writer and not the literary subject with a form and definite object of a structured piece of writing before him?
I wanted there to be something special about my way of perception so much, I hoarded books to show my regimented intellect. I traversed worry like a caressed blanket covering a swamp of understanding. I harboured guilt under a covering of masculinity for all to see.
It’s an online legal drama with the consciousness of social media since the 1990s informing the reader about the British Asian voice.
What is the question by which all others are answered? How is this forwarded by you ivory tower approach to the news?
It would seem that the NHS has been blackballed and COVID has passed and the news is none the wiser about conspiracy and religion. What was surely a divine retribution to judge our world leaders and exact revenge on humankind for their treatment of Spirit is behind us and it is business as usual at the top and the Americans are continuing where George Bush Jr left off – dominating the airwaves with war rhetoric and Donald Trump and declaring tariffs on all who pass its ways.
This leave the BBC to watch in awe as Nigel Farage steals his way to the next election after talks with the Trump empire to model the UK on America and Fox News to stall the ordinary man’s emotional growth and the multicultural views of our nation have been set off and do not reflect on our nationalised TV sets. GB News is on too much and the citizens of our country are televised in an effort to fill the TV so that adverts can make revenue for the big fat cats and the Royal Family can concoct some engagement for themselves with Environmentalism while Bloomberg News screams about AI.
Against this backdrop, I am reviewing my medical record and the statement “Rohan Rishi believes he is a Hindu incarnation of God.” When such is the business of the NHS and its staff with Drs and Nurses exploiting my education with a Hello How Are You Doing Approach to healthcare and no real situational discussion about religion and experience I am empirically aware that I am a Hindu incarnation of God and that all Hindus are one and have that burden to bear before the Yoga of our age.
Do I need scruples to discuss whether it is my belief that I am divine or not when the organisation was too busy and over stretched to see if I matter and leave me to my mother’s care and brother’s devoted love and attention: What would my father have said if he was in the country? It’s your opinion that makes the difference and if you don’t believe you are divine then what has the past 25 years been like since you left the safe cloisters of Oxford University? By all accounts London is not the same after COVID and the scene looks like a wreck for what you left behind in the Gunas in 2000-2002 and if that means I could fill Wembley Stadium like in Dr Ernie van Woerkhom’s dirty mind when he made a joke in 2013 before diagnosing me with a dangerously overactive thyroid – it seems the UK will charge the invesitgation of subjectvity to the NHS for the rest of my life if I don’t take up arms against the sea of samsara and seize my own destiny to the degree that it manifests for me to do so.
An opportunity is opening up to do some work in IT and I am not loathe to learn about cybersecurity Monday to Friday and continue to update my blog during the weekends. It would give me and Ritesh some time to spend together now that I am doing Reiki and can feel some of the work that he has been through and ease the pressure off my mum of taking care of me and giving me my own independence. Guru Nanak mentioned to me that I should travel to the Mandirs when I am 60 and working would mean I am financially able to do so; but if I release my blog then I can depend on others less and have one centralised accounting of my status as intelligently designed by our Creator to carry the concerns or our age and the youth of tomorrow for what they will go through now that mental health has been unleashed and is waiting to affect the track of the human condition and to lead to the psychiatrists having more sway to influence the news and the worldviews of what is going on and what they believe is the assessment of humanity from their vantage point on th sidelines.
Dr Ernie van Woerkhom’s remark about Wembley Stadium is a typical Drs quip about the Indian Gurus preaching online and did not do much to help our relationship and I have wandered homeless to cope with the impact that the Drs have had on my life. It has been very difficult for my mother to care for both me and my brother and to see my father as distant. I still see my father in my prayers every day.
These are things I can work on and to see that AI is affective and changing the way I am related to as a subject of the kingdom is to see that this is not one of ability but of experience and to record human life that has transpired since the 1980s and to not give in to the millennials use of the internet and the computer but to fight for my own standing and see my divinity stretching out before me as not something I proclaim but something that I am.
For four years I chanted Hare Krishna and then met the internet with 20 published books and saw for my own eyes the impact that Noam Chomsky had on the human race with his touting of Social Democracy when I volunteered with the Conservative Party for a year on Saturdays while attending Church on Sundays. Now that I am free of Amazon Books I can see it was worth £280 billion when I started and is now valued at £2.2 trillion to be free of those books and the recent past and the tensions that were placed in my body.
I was dealing with a mind I do not understand and warring with Maya and the NHS to protest myself beyond labels and diagnosis and name calling for a time they do not invest in me to turn into a fully functioning member of society – regardless of Scientology’s role in my life. Ritesh has written about himself as a an Ascended Master, Spiritual King and Intergalactic Christ on Facebook and has been on Facebook for many years and I can count on him to be there (?) as I rise above my mugginess and claim my right to be divine and transcend the NHS and state that Christian kindness calls me Bipolar to navigate Heaven and Hell as two extremes that I am prone to in any given day.
It is Christian Mind Science at play in the workplace that I must get to know and to rise out of the unconscious with the medication and tacit body agreement to experience obesity to take the shame out of my vanity and to see that I am suffering for a purpose and that purpose is the very divinity the NHS said I have – “Rohan Rishi is a Hindu incarnation of God. It just remains to see how he uses it and fills his time with his mum and brother to share this with the UK.
A worldwide blog process is a stressful project to estimate and I am at a loss for the imagination’s toll on my life to cope with so much suffering to see the lucid realm also in which a webpage exists and to work out what to do with one over time for my good self.
Wild Stage 2 